Those feelings fade with time
From love to numb due to betrayal
Cared too much it was smothering
Didn't know how to feel no say or control
Got frustrated stayed away hurt too much
Wish in or out was easy be present
Can't make them stay or love
No shade of gray in the middle
Tried to commit everyone ran away
Walked away so much imposition to stay

Woke up tired up all night
Body shut downs in the morning
Beyond bored mind numbing
Books lined up to read
Not sure what to write
Played video games not about that
Only able to watch so many movies
The days feel longer never ending
While nights end in the blink of an eye
Reflected life the good times passed
Then the bad times the are falling off
Held on for too long only temporary
Liked the old life style being young and dumb
Learned to embrace the new older and wiser

Family hurts you most
Just because we are blood
Doesn't give you the right
Be involved full time or not at all
Friends might disappoint
Family doesn't let up with opinions
No one asked mouths are running
Finally asked not saying anything
Being corrupt with attitude
Always quick to judge point out flaws
Focus on others situation than their own
Love family disagreements made it tough
Thinking they know but dk the whole story

Never wish death on anyone
We can't be friends or associate
Don't need that hateful drama
Gave advice got ignored
Set in those ways did it anyway
Everyone has problems with life
Some deal with it better
Handle it before it gets worse
Quick to cut the cord
Can't hold on being held back
Didn't know how to act
Easily offended pushed away
Intense anger not trying to get burned
Providing solutions what friends do
Trying to be supportive
Now there's ten more issues
Had to step away take a time out
Thanks for the memories
Still taking the blame not around anymore

Wanted to say deep and dark
Mean stuff like words would destroy
Put it on a page or type it all out
Showing emotions seen as blunt
Felt for someone seen as weird
Wanted to say it but knew better
Thought of the risk consequences
Destroying within hoping to be fixed
Thinking you'd hurt them
Like a dominos effect feeling set up
But they could careless no need to obsess

Just wanted to be myself
So many broken and damaged
Holding on to old hurt
Sabotage new love with old
Deny new friendship over an old fling
Can't trust or get close to anyone
Thinking the worse of others
Misery scars wearing a mask
Trying to be tough died inside
Hiding yourself so much hidden within

Always looking in the mirror
Asking what happened
Where did it go wrong
So many unresolved issues
Thought they matter
After analyzing them
A waste of time one sided argument
Found peace and closure
Told this side and apologized
Never got a response from the other
Better off without can't wait around
Hold their spot when they gave up mine