Sorry for hurting you
All the things said
Under the influence
A broken heart
Doesn't justify anything
Not forgiven by others
So much backlash
Multiple apologies
Never treated the same
Things will never be normal
Learned to forgive ones self
The cord is cut no false hope
Never an equal or the same
Being looked down feeling pain
Judgemental eyes gazing crazy
Already with a guilty conscience
Now a guilt trips to manipulate
Never hear the end of it all

You know don't why you pretend
Trying too hard for attention
Instead of being better chose to be worse
Another excuse over the lies
That's your life you can be better
Embarrassed to be smart acting dumb
Drinking to play the fool self destruction
Had a normal life encountered new lifestyles
Too much hype to live up to it doesn't matter
Do what you love what makes you happy
Sad over a girl lusting around more shame
Instead of feeling proud only cheating yourself
Stop blaming yourself count your blessings
Near death experiences made it out a live
Made to live not roll over and die

Talked about those feelings
Know what was felt
From the beginning to the end
Changed with time love turns to hate
Still showing love even when wronged
Stayed loyal kept it real always noble
Been through the grinder stayed humble
Use to hold it in now pushing it out
Letting go of the struggle at peace
Freeing the heart of shackles
Not holding back not involved anymore

Writing takes the pain away
Helps maintain sanity
Reflect on the past insanity
Compose yourself after a while
Find balance inner peace within
After the negative imbalance
Easy to write for hours
Shared the old encounter
New moments to experience
From a grin to a smile
Taken away from that place

Full of spirit
Light up the soul
Good vibes go out
Good vibes returned
Feeling it from within
Like hug with love
Never letting go
Tickled from the inside
Laughter full of life

Lots of failed relationships
Lost love because it was a lie
Always loyal accused of cheating
Always faithful the love is taken away
Treated others faith willing to stay
Once the respect and trust is gone
No reason to stay but need to get away
Haven't had kids not worried
Around family through tough times
I'd choose the wrong person expecting more
Just wanted to be love not always accepted
Thought it might work this time around
Gave up on love Pursuing a career

Writing has been the hustle
Written down everything
Trying to do this long term
Nothing else made sense
A pen to ink on the page
Out with those bleeding pain
Unexpressive moments in time
Turning negativity to positive vibes
Formal friends existing not around
Never tried to make things awkward
A move on anyone's GF just to see
Why test their faithlessness to their partner
Lots judging and others beliefs questioning
Stop with all the guilt trips and doubt
Checked in to show concern but kept out
Walked away couldn't stay anymore
Be the companion to misery
Life on hold waiting for others
No respect for anyone's time so selfish
Made plans without now everyone is mad
No text response the plans were being made
Made calls not answer wanted to talk about it
Doesn't feel right or make sense
Don't insult or be offended when not included
That like exclusive club doesn't make sense