I remember the good blind to the bad. Dk the whole story not sure how to act or respond seems like you're always mad. I'd like to he happy. Extra tired being drained not living up to these made up standards that no one cares to live upto.
All the talk and no action. False promise words that hold no meaning. Time wasted lost in every pointless conversation. Not feeding an ego or giving up on efforts to be liked be accepted by people that do nothing but talk about one another.
Don't burning energy to pretend like everything is cool when the betrayal is shady doing the hard workers *****.

Thankful to be forgiven feeling judged
Big mistakes learned the lessons
Misunderstood trying be a better person
Meant well it came from the heart
Things went wrong back away
A load off tense shoulders
Tired from carrying the burden
The guilt within consuming joy
Punishment tormenting the mind
An anchored heart being weighed down
Yearned a lost friendship from the past
Cut off never given a second chance
Starved from broken relationship
Cut the cord never got a reason
Trying to make things right feeling wrong
Learned to cope makes sense of it all
Unsettled within seeking closure
Coped with emotions moving on strong

Like a mood ring adapting to others
Trying to be positive drained by laziness
Reading the room bad vibes are strong
Trying to do what's right from the heart
Around those doing wrong not my crowd
Not forcing friendships anymore
No longer pretend to care show interest
After being use mostly betrayed
Prefer to be alone over being burned
Open to change most of all learn
New ideas tired of holding back

This already failed once
It's wrong to think it will change
Break away from what's normal
It's usually bad accepted as the norm
Looking else where for peace
Drained by disappointment
The current location failed
From joy to drained by thought
Walking into a negative environment
Everything feels pointless lost purpose
Failed leaders pretend to be you friend
A lost cause stuck seeking an escape
Something is wrong feeling off
Trying to do what's right detached
Waste of time not bothering anymore

Feeling enraged not sure
How to express these emotions
A new outlet to escape frustration
Spoke the truth made out to be bad
Stood my ground hard to be around
Squared up time to move on
Dealing with a lost cause
Taking back control of live
Tired of waiting things on pause
Breaking away after being betrayed
Meant for better no reason to stay
Hard to trust the condescending
Wrote about it exhausted from looping thought

Leaving home to pursue a degree
Away from home missing family
Experiencing the world lots of changes
Freedom to learn and grow mentally
Emotionally struggling with transition
Hard to express love show emotions
Never grew up not being heard
Having a say published for speaking up
Trusting others is difficult
learned to be alone sent to the back
Older now doing things on the go
No one will do the work for you
One must do things by ones self

I use to look for pop and reaction
Most don't care once you speak
The truth doesn't fail so many lies spread
Doing the work minding this mouth staying out of the drama too many talking
Minding ones business able to be alone
Focused on the work progressively
Walked away from it after being denied
Wanted it moving on looking else where
No longer care to be around lazy
Overlooked disrespected by useless leads
Being the hardest worker isn't enough
Well rounded open to grow constantly learning
Dealt with conflict not playing games or bothering anymore
The lead steals credit does nothing while everyone contributes
Behind the scenes being a major key to productivity