Writing to understand these thoughts
Make sense of all that's going on
The feelings can be overwhelming
Expressing those bottled emotions
Being heard by your community
Knowing what your are trying to say
Annoyed when others twist your words
Trying to be genuine most of all myself
Not being what others say
Sick of assumptions false narratives
Staying centered true to self
Internal growth cleansing the spirit
Not what others made out to be
Approval from people who don't approve
Their opinion doesn't matter have value
Like your feelings mean nothing to them

Holding the pads trying to remember
The sequences working with a southpaw
You have to think one way
Doing everything backward
Trying to think fast without explaining
Keep the drills going not wasting time
Focused on technique learn to slow down
Drill with form pause to take a beat
Reset then start over again
The pop from the gloves hitting the pad
Side steps to keep from being flat footed

Missing the person that use to be free
Not a care in the world just getting by
Before heartbreak life seem promising
Chasing moments living experiences
New encounters an empowering reward
Breaking away from the boring routine
Cutting off toxic tired of condescension
Called deceivers out demanding the truth
Turned away onto new away with the old

In a room find full of liars
The betrayals very uncomfortable
Quick to get away not okay
It's not right not pretending anymore
Being genuine to criticized by decievers
Did the work credit is being stolen
Only nice when a favor is needed
Most of the time being ignored

Exhausted mentally from overthinking
Burnt out from a job not appreciated
On a steady decline losing value
Spoke up made out to be crazy
Excluded from the conversation
Expected to do everything by haters
Trying not to stress the liars in charge
Focused on the work get it done
Go home have a life outside of that
Searching another outlet to decompress

Reflecting on the past in the dark room
More bad than good positive thoughts
Trying to make sense of it all
Lost love hoping to be found
Losing focus years of wandering
Refusing to stay in one place
Hard to take in the moment
Never going back to what caused pain
Finding peace dropping the burden
Time away to heal and cope
Understand the complicated situation
Find a steady foundation leveled out

Told you I loved you from the heart
All you did was run away
Told I wasn't the one rejected
Replaced with someone else
Love wasn't enough to stay together
Feelings didn't matter a crumbling end
Two lover to complete strangers
A passionate kiss gone numb
Emotionless no longer a connection
No more feelings shared wedged apart
Deep hurt within no reasons given
Hard to make sense of the situation
Obsessed walking in denial seeking truth