Woke up early it's still dark
The fog around the lake
Moisture making it sweater weather
Making the air cold with every inhale
Rushed to the ER given blood thinners
Staying clear of stress away from toxic
Moving up can't stay down forever
Bouncing back going hard determines

Breaking free from this fake person's crap
Gave then too much power going numb
Showing no emotions blocked it out
No longer empowering what hurts
Finding strength else where able to feel
Going where it's worthy as a whole
The emotional time blocking it out
Valued by peers that have more going on
Changing how things get done
Never the same rid of this draining pain
Made it fun once again with a smile
Made it to the end mild achievement

Being disconnected *****
Taking a time out because the people who wronged you
Got on your last nerve you give up everything
You didn't do anything wrong just trying not to be petty and not make it worse
Hated for being truthful while others praised for being fake
Pondering a new plan an escape route to come up with something better
Trying to get back on track with what's been on the back burner
The fear of no time and it's running out
Slowing down is hard when you're always all gas and no brakes
Thought your hard work would be rewarded after being ******* over the days have been gray.
Hard to trust from a lead role to being left behind the scenes
Deep thoughts of more older now all the side track need to get back on the fast track

Once they ***** you over never again
Chose a kiss *** over the hard worker
Gave everything gained nothing
Detached emotional no longer invested
Not one to run quick to square up
Called out liars got a stuttering response
Told the truth made out to be the bad guy
The betrayer did wrong pretending to be noble
A blank stare no emotions among peers
Blocking out the whining lazy bastsrds
Zoned out focused on the task
Looking for new something more
Physically burnt out focused on health
Mental health writing scenarios
Emotionally silent saving energy

I remember the good blind to the bad. Dk the whole story not sure how to act or respond seems like you're always mad. I'd like to he happy. Extra tired being drained not living up to these made up standards that no one cares to live upto.
All the talk and no action. False promise words that hold no meaning. Time wasted lost in every pointless conversation. Not feeding an ego or giving up on efforts to be liked be accepted by people that do nothing but talk about one another.
Don't burning energy to pretend like everything is cool when the betrayal is shady doing the hard workers *****.

Thankful to be forgiven feeling judged
Big mistakes learned the lessons
Misunderstood trying be a better person
Meant well it came from the heart
Things went wrong back away
A load off tense shoulders
Tired from carrying the burden
The guilt within consuming joy
Punishment tormenting the mind
An anchored heart being weighed down
Yearned a lost friendship from the past
Cut off never given a second chance
Starved from broken relationship
Cut the cord never got a reason
Trying to make things right feeling wrong
Learned to cope makes sense of it all
Unsettled within seeking closure
Coped with emotions moving on strong

Like a mood ring adapting to others
Trying to be positive drained by laziness
Reading the room bad vibes are strong
Trying to do what's right from the heart
Around those doing wrong not my crowd
Not forcing friendships anymore
No longer pretend to care show interest
After being use mostly betrayed
Prefer to be alone over being burned
Open to change most of all learn
New ideas tired of holding back