she drank too much
couldnt even walk
eyes blurred
but she managed to
make her way
down to the fence
broken down
like all their memories
touched waters
and her blood ran cold

You've got me
Dreaming, craving, seeing - you
Every second
Of every minute
Of every hour
Of every day and so it goes

You've got me
Remembering, imagining, living - you and
Carefully going over
Every single last detail
Of every moment we've ever spent together and
Of every moment we've spent apart and so it goes

You've got me
Missing, needing, wanting - you
And your every look
Every touch
Every heart beat and so it goes

You've got me thinking
About our warm bodies tangled into each other
About our lips
The first and the last time they met
And when they will meet again
About me consuming your arm in the cold, cold air
With numb faces but sunshine and chicken-soup-warmth
In our hearts

You've got me
Wondering what this is and if it is,
Does it feel only right, or wrong only
If this is only
That four letter word

“Hey, let's look this in the eye
Cease this mind-wrapping of why .
Don't feel guilt for troubled skies,
I know it seems for miles the world's at end.
But even in all this are naked trees, greening again”

i handled you leaving better than i thought i would
but it's been a month
and im getting bad again
you're not here
and i know it wasn't fully your choice
but i miss you
i see your face and i choke up
you're hundreds of miles away
and i need you to come home