someone told me i will be okay
but all the signs point to no

its buzzing
the noises
the people telling me its easy
when that only makes things worse

i am trying
my hardest

theres too much
my head cant survive
too many waves crashing against the sides
too many people yelling
too many things to remember
i feel like i wont escape this
too many people to please
too many people to care about
my head cant handle this

im sick to my stomach
i cant stop this anymore
i dont want any of this to be real anymore

is it bad
that i can already taste the goodbye
on your tongue?
-a.c.b

i didnt want to leave
its supposed to help
but
my heart aches
my throat burns
all i can smell is rotten fruit
reaching into every crevice of the room where we laughed
we laughed for hours
but now im gone
and its gone
and theres nothing left for the two of us
except all the polaroids and inside jokes