I recognize abandonment , sad countenance disguised in guarded solemnity , for we both vision a world thru familiar , hopeless eyes .....

The day bright with sun light
as I think of her dark eyes,
******* the other side of the world.

her ruby lips of red
hair like dark silk,
skin of alabaster.

wanting this day
to be close to her
and hold her near.

My Island Girl Dream.

Depression is
Not feeling worthy
Of feeling bad.

I promised myself I wouldn't think about you
I promised myself I could live without you
That's a promise I made, only to be
A promise I never intended to keep

I promised I wouldn't let you into my dreams
I promised if I did, I would ask you to leave
I found out last night that my promise is weak
Because it's a promise I couldn't keep

I promised myself I'd no longer love you
A promise I made that never came through
A promise long ago before I could see
That was a promise I never would keep

With curiosity and trepidation , decisions reviewed prior to any action taken ,  questioning every visible or hidden , unknown angle of attack , strategically taking my Castle with your Knight ,  learning valuable life lessons on a game board tonight .....