i'm bleeding,
there is blood all over the floor
one cut
two cuts
three cuts
four
come on darling whats one more
five cuts  
six cuts
seven cuts
eight
what a mess this will create
my beautiful picture is almost done
i went to 20 cuts
now its 40
i stopped counting after 120

every time i close my eyes, i see yours, every time i pass where we first met i cry, every time i hear your name i want to cry, every time i think of you my heart hurts in pain, my head hurts every time i think about what  it was like to hold you, every time i think of holding you my hands start to hurt, i cant take the pain, its to much,

If I had time
Before the tears
That arrive
Every forth or fifth hour
My thoughts
Would be clearer
My mind
Happier
Place to live
less ideas
of horrors
And more
Of wonder
If I had time
Before the tears
Gather to fall
                   Like
                                  A
                                         Mist
                                                     Into
                                                                  Rain

i wanted her to see me
i wanted her to see my pain that she left me in
i wanted her to see that the pain she left was not gone
i wanted her to see that im like this because of her
i wanted her to see that i still love her
i wanted her to see the scars that i have because i couldnt bear the pain

i remember when we would stay on the phone till 4 in the morning
i remember when you told me you loved me
i remember waking up hearing your voice in the morning
i remember the day when you told me i was your everything