I hadn't really felt the cold
in a very long time
But today, it hinted at snow
and the gray clouds lay low
heavily pregnant with rain

I've never seen the sky look so sad

At the back of the walk in robe
behind the platform shoes
and the memory boxes
I found my coat, long disused
and thought
'God, how I need you today...'

Instinctively I pulled out the pockets
and my whole world tumbled onto the bed

The one I didn't make today, or yesterday
because I could still see the impression,
on the pillow, of your head

There lay the moonbeam from the night
that you gathered me into your eyes
and the steel blue glinted metallic
ringing with laughter as you hinted
at our child resting within your sight

A sliver of sunlight glinted from the bedspread
that I plucked from the sky
on the December day you begged me
on your knees
to be the other half of your soul
and the curtain dances in the stillness
by the breeze I captured which had stroked your hair
like I do (did). I wasn't the only one without a care

My whole world tumbled crumbled from the pockets
of a coat that I never thought to wear again
because the cold could never find my skin
while you were plastered to it

I bury myself in the coat with empty pockets
as I contemplate the sky, about to cry

*I think it will be cold today

She looks at me as if I hung
the moon
the stars
the planets that live so far
from where we stand,
inside the forest
She looks at me but doesn’t see,
My beauty,
My poetry,
My hunters stance, with bow in hand
ready to shoot, unlikely to revel
in a one sided, less egotistical romance

I hold in my palm her beating heart
which was pure until the day my gaze
was riveted upon her face and she fell
deep into a whirling maze of disdain
Beauty such as mine is sublime but
her heart is nothing to me, I hunt
to watch it fall to the earth and gather dust
She may pick up any piece that may remain
while I step over it with my next footfall
not leaving anything left to gain

Retribution catches me on a stormy night
following a trail of broken hearts and guided
by my gloriously shining light.
Tip toeing over less than fortunate souls
that gave their love to me,
and let me throw them away
just so they could bask finitely in my beauty

Nemesis, I see you there, by the edge of the lake
Come forward, and I will love you
with all my heart has room for, and I will give
as good as I take.

As I stand at the edge, I look back
upon the ground
and see the trail of ****** offerings
that my love has taken and drunk from
and the lives that I thought I had awakened
but I actually put to sleep while I dropped
what I did not bother to keep.

Then my gaze is caught, enraptured
by the silken caress of water lapping
at the face that stares back at me.
It hangs the moon, and the stars
and shows me planets that are afar
I can not look away from all the joys
it shows to me.
*I’m drowning in ecstasy

One:

It will beat with a gentle rhythm
of an *In *Out, One Two
and sing to it’s own song
while matching a steady beat
to footsteps that are dancing
to a song that is only sung
inside an empty head

Two:

It will stutter without breath
beating triple time without pause
catching on a gentle breeze
then being lifted to heights
of unimaginable dizziness
stopping for a moment in time
to gaze upon where it has been lead

Three:

It doesn’t know it is dead

I can wait over an hour
for a bus that never comes
to take me to a job
that has never been fun

But I can live with that

I can wait for 9 minutes in line
for a cup of coffee
that I don’t have to make
I don’t even have to try…
I’m standing behind Mr “Chatty”
but even he can’t make me cry
in that 9 minutes

I can go for over 8 hours
listening to people heave at me
while smiling back, beyond the phone line
They don’t know I’m ******* back coffee
it’s the smile in my voice that they ‘see’

I can even spend less than 5 hours asleep
Dreamless
Thank the Heavens for alcohol
Surely even the ancient Gods
are left realizing their Ambrosia
is not the be all and end all

I can even hold my breath
for the minute, or two
that it takes me
to duck my head
under the shower spray
to wash away the day
That has surely lived up to my expectations
with an obviousness
before I awoke
that I anticipated it would lack

All of the above I don’t regret
But when you breathed
I love you with all my heart

Well…
I just knew…
Just listening to that

There goes some of my life I’ll never get back

Thank you for that :-S
Dec 29, 2010