There comes the disbelief
and the day
when a daughter comes to tell
the matter
And she knows you can't help
She knows there's no way
to convince
that afternoon to think about it....
No way to stop the fire in the leaves
of the driest April in twenty years
as it blackens the acres
and blurs the eyes
to all but its own emergency
Before it
the hay of last year's weeds
and all those buds that hope conceives
the flight of all that lives...
The plight before...
...The fire-line...
forces every hand
to the pure product of heat and light--
then to ash
and not to ask "This once was living?"
A senior class wrote their friend good-byes
...could not bring herself to...
...bring herself there....
She had to bring the mourning home
to make alive
to raise the sun--
"He slammed the medicine chest
And saw....
walked through the kitchen
opened the frig for the zillionth time...
Then walked a mile
in the woods behind his house."
Warm for April
short-sleeve warm
"...And I keep thinking
how the sun must've felt on his face and arms
He must've been swinging the jug
and--
WHAT WAS HE THINKING?
They found the empty amber
a hundred yards behind....
I keep seein' 'im put the handful to 'is mouth...
...Then the jug...
He must've had to swallow hard
They say you could tell
...where he stumbled...
...by the leaves...
...found 'im on 'is side with the jug
...just beyond 'is hand...
Oh Ma!
I CAN'T! I CAN'T!"
...So I--
"Maybe he was mouthing the words to a song.
...anyway the birds went on
and he was still warmed by the April sun
when they found him."
My daughter, Phoebe knew the kid who didn't make it. We all know them.
...And there is nothing we can do-- but be there in this first real grief, thanking God for the gift of them, for every day-- giving them back to the giver of life along our sad way.