bandaids on bullet holes
they clearly don’t work
but you try anyway
all the time
try and try and try again
it’s like you forget everytime  
so you add another, and another
you’ve added so many,
you can no longer see the original wound
so you believe it’s fine for a while
then it started becomes infected
it stings and you wonder why
well, the bullet is still under your skin
you never removed it
its still there, burrowing itself even further into your skin
you keep trying to push it out of your mind
but hiding it made it worse
you think about it all the time
and when someone reminds you of it
it stings
every
single
time