Pride smiles while Envy laughs.
Subsides but does not last.
Contentment worthwhile.
Broken hearts shatter in half.
Misery mourns, crys, & dies.
Sobs our eyes rob.
Love his heart steals.
A fantasy is not real.
The date's last meal.
Uttering regretful words.
Believed & understood.
Undoubted & muted.
Disagreed & disputed.
Lies to confuse & offend.
No compassion or friends.
Disgusted & untrusted.
Abused & defiled.
Deceived & unstyled.
Ignored & not worthwhile.
Uncredited, feared, hated,
unsettled, ungeared, & debated.
Unpatience has waited.

Prostitutes will go anywhere, with anyone, at anytime, & do anything.

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Ask and you shall not receive.
A con job you conceive.
Your country you want to leave.
Join the club.
Earn a pay stub.
I need money in my bank account to.
It's like holding up a cardboard sign to the whole world at the same time.
A scam from the beginning I knew.
Begging to raise funds for their bank account for nickels & dimes.
Well first I need to get a bank account.  
But I have been needy my whole life but I don't ask people for money. 
If I need money I apply for jobs.
I just stay broke until I get a job.
Instead with a sad story people they rob.
One time I couldn't get a job for 7 years I had no phone number.
Work instead of going to the pub in a drunken slumber.
Alot of people think that just because I am white I have money.
But I don't.
I come from a white trash family in the ghetto with a minimum wage background.

Even though you made me feel low.
My persona & image radiants & glows.
Until after today,
Come what may.
You wish with you I would've stayed.
Are you certain?
No way!
I wasn't molded from clay.
I am straight not gay
What did you say?
Oh, well....okay!
Not the truth I can tell.
Nice try.
I threw a penny down a wishing well.
Are these cookies stale?
Did I get any mail?
My search for romance came to a halt.
You just enjoy misery, pain, & assault.
My broken heart was all your fault.
You say you fell from grace.
You tell me to carry my pepper spray mace.
Just in case anyone tries to get in my face.
Your lies can not be erased.
You never call to touch base.
Waiting for you was such a waste.
Do you like dress & my car?
I have good taste.
I wished for them on a star.
My Heart & Soul was bared.
But you never cared
Tempers flared.
Cheaters were paired.
Broken hearts snared.
I am credible & your incredible.
I don't consider meat edible.
A treasure to appraise & measure.
A rare pleeasure, don't say never.
Is forever something you could swallow?
A heart you should follow.
I get the picture, I am not part of the mixture.
I know the things that are & the things that were.
It is over of that I am sure.
For being single there is no cure.
Thoughts of mine are pure.
It was suppose to be just us two. So few know what I knew. Graves is where death rots. .

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Through the desert on the clouds we fly with your angel wings to carry me by.
Am I still alive or did I die?
Did my daughter or Co worker's even cry?
Since they are my only family & friends.

Death is not a free release.
It is a bump in the road or a crack in the street.
Protect life & shelter yourself from harm.
Embrace your healing with your arm.
Your a guardian from the stars & clouds.
A presence ghostly & quiet & never loud.

A luck for you as my guide.
Survival is what we tried.
A princess of the sky like royalty.
Through the stars & moon.
You glow throughout the room.
Strength & loyalty.

I am blessed with your essence.
A sweet majestic presence.
Mystical & ethical.
Miracleous & magical.
I praise your power & ability.

Some people say you can't have life without death.
In peace you can't rest.
I disagree.
All of us. I, you and we.
Mortality is a temporary existence.
We have no choice of resistance.
Seconds in an instant.
Death is the end to life.
You can't live twice.
Death is not nice.
It's the end.
It can't be stopped or bent.
Time here is borrowed.
We leave our soul sends.
I don't believe in the after world.
Death is a curse.
It can get worse.
It doesn't matter how much money you have.
Nothing can save it or extend life for hundreds of years.
It doesn't matter his much you cried or how many tears.
Nothing can bring back the years.
It's unchanging.
Every one won't be remembered forever.
We will all be forgotten in the end.
No one will be left to care.
I know it's not fair.
We will all be there.
Willing or not.
Lives can't be bought. Immortality doesn't exist.
Death is a permanent risk.

I hope I get picked at this hiring event.
So I can move out of here & pay my own rent.
A miracle would be heaven sent.
By a saint only a devil could taint.
Tomorrow i am giving my cat to the shelter.
His love is not as it were.
Because he scratched my nose.
It bleed like being pierced with a thorn from a rose.
The trust is gone.
To be adopted by someone who don't like to cuddle.
Abandonment is not subtle.
Cats don't like to be held against their will.
Or intentions to harm you they will.
They feel threatened by restraint.

No  more kisses.
Just growls & hisses.

She was broke & had no folks.
He never says any funny jokes.
A drunk scavenging for junk.
I have a hatchback not a trunk.
A foul stench of funk.
Robbed by some punk.
A resort never reports escorts.
They don't dispute petitions in court.
A feud with people sued.
Abortions are fetal extortion.
A security guard trys to act all hard.
Civil service makes me nervous.
The summer could've been more funner.
Starstruck celebrity hype.
Articles magazines can type.
Gossip to thee extreme.
CELEBRITY schemes & scandals.
Misbehaved & manhandled.
Images & looks to copy & swipe.
Identities to wipe.
Fortune & Fame that is not yet ripe.

There is no senseful way to destroy a life.
To do it is senseless, ignorant, hateful and selfish.
Whether or not it is human or any other species.
Chicken,cow, pig, camel, turkey etc.
To dismember and sever it's parts piece-by-piece is cruel.
Dead or Alive, disrespectful, sick, wrong & unjust.
No political laws for it would never make it right or accepted.
That should protect their well-being lives & how they're treated.
Living creatures are all holy vessels in my eyes.
Their souls are priceless.
Their lives are not worthless as a society believes.
Each one deserves a full and happy life.
The cow & pigs tongue should not be severed and sold in grocery store meat departments.
Their bodies should stop being butchered for carnivore consumption.
Society is ignorant, greedy and two complant.
Just as sheep, all followers no leaders.
Butchers, poachers, & meat eaters should all be treated as a defenseless animal that is tortured and killed in the same exact way to justify their deaths.
With the deaths of their killers.
Endangered species are bred for slaughter
the animals should all be considered holy and valuable, priceless, pure, innocent, & defenseless.
Death ends life.
Life is a gift deserved by every being born in this world or any other.

I am in control of my own soul.
It is my goal to keep it whole.
Within the hour all my power will devour.
Turn the world sour.
I need to bathe & shower with flowers.
I strayed far away to a place that portrayed to betray today.
I don't pray to any gods.
Animals are who I obey.
Telepathically their wishes are conveyed.
Furry friends are holy vessels.
I like to hug, kiss, pet, & nestle.
Everyday to anyone's dismay.
My love & affection for animals is always on display.
Without delay.
Earth is where they should stay.
To be a mother & a father not sent to slaughter.
Not breeded.
Just food & water.
Until I am old & grey.
I got caught about forgetting a lot.
Yesterday I had nothing to say.
An old foaggie went too a buffet.
He was not okay his toupee fell on his tray.
He was not happy or gay.
Everyone said "hey"

Senseless
Palm trees wrapped with barbed wire.
I like gingerbread cookies of pillsbury dough, of that you already know.
Frappuccinos without whipped.
Like a dream

Y.M.C.A.

Rollerblading the past is fading.
Summer camps horseback riding, rock climbing, arts & crafts.
Friends confiding, connections binding, lots of laughs.
Swimming, smores, canouing, & row boats.

Gemini Loved Scorpio

Solar system of a higher altitude.
Astrology to set the mood.
A date which is charming & not rude. Greek or mexican? My favorite food.

Fat brother mama's boy

Don't use my mouthwash. Buy your own & pay the cost. Why do u lie when I asked if you used it? Because you know I will throw a fit.

My Precious Angel

Ariel I'm sorry I left your side. An evil forced us separate & divide. A distance that's long & wide. I wish we could run away & hide.

Crush

He said blondes aren't his type.
Invisible tears I wipe.
A love not yet ripe.
I mope & gripe.
Sorrow takes flight.
To a higher level of height.

Essence of Hibiscius

A Sweet smell of serenity.
An aroma that's plenty.
Caramel coffee with blueberry oats bars.
Gourmet toffee & latte at starbucks.
Jamba juice affordable.
But not a rolex.

Ancient Bones

Wizards with magic lizards casting spells.
Moon & stars.
A Private hell with a mini bars.
Waving their magic wands.
Setting free by Unleashing their shackles & bonds.
Fossils trapped in tar pits. Archaelogical digs discoverying something big.

Green eyes & seductive stare.
Words which never lie.
Everyday about me he cares.
Buys me a latte of chai.
His arms around mine.
An endless love through time.
His kiss on my face.
A loving embrace.
In 1996, through the doorway his arms around my waist.
A memory time can't erase.
His greenish eyes see all the naked parts of me.
His only woman I want to be.
A true love set free.
A person to cherish.
A love never to perish.
Perfect lips, unbroken hips,
freckled hands, untraveled lands.
Seductive mouth, forbidden south,
a gentle caress,
love made best,
Faithfulness put to the test,
insecurities that never rest.
His thoughts that count.
Unpaid debts that mount,
Red hair that glows, a loving heart that knows.
A generous mind, in him I find.
Unlocked treasures.
Nobody else could measure.
My Best Friend
A smart man, his biggest fan.
His baby head asleep on my lap.
A face he would never slap.
He likes fishing.
Together forever is what I'm wishing.
Being alone I am not missing.
His face I want to be kissing.
Just being a friend.
Needs to end.
I want more.
Then to just be a *****.
He says I am a chore.
I grew up poor.
I used to sleep on a floor.
I hate to be ignored.
I don't know what's in store.
I haven't been given the grand tour.
I want to be his girl. I want to be his world. With him I fell in love. He was sent from heaven above. He is who I adore. He makes my spirit soar. He is part of what I live for. I feel it in my core. I just need stability & commitment more.

Traumatized by the vision of death.
I can't eat or rest.
The vermin carcass on the porch.
Was disgusting filth to be torched.
My mind can't erase the horror.
She put in the trash near my car.
The blood on the kitchen floor...
Within the side door.
I screamed in shock.
My phobia she mocks.
What a sick New Year surprise.
Of the rats torturous demise.

Rainbow a mystic glow.
A beautiful sign, for that moment in time.
Magestic and epic.
You can't rewind.
A creation uncredited.
A creator you can't find.
A memory for the mind.
An image that's kind.
Romantic chimes.
Harmony that binds.
A treasure to find.
A pretty sky for seagulls to fly.
Never say "good bye".
Mysterious when you don't know why.
Precious & sacred.
Priceless & holy created.

Secure the perimeter.
Seal off the contaminated sector.
Where is my shield & protector.
Build a mote around the castle.
Close the draw bridge.
Recruit some muscle.
Quick let's hustle.
Canon ***** to the ridge.
Cut off their army. Seize fire.
They are too old & need to retire.
Bullet proof suits, that are fashionable & cute.
Steel toe boots, loaded guns.
You can't out run.
War is not peaceful or fun.
Violence is not the answer.
An uncurable cancer.

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The parting clouds reveal your face.
The rising sun melts & captivates.

Moonlight washes & watches.
Sunshine follows & warms.

Special crisp in the air fresh to breathe.
Normal & free to feel & see.
Opens a part of me.

You don't have to talk to anyone or no one.
I don't see you, you can't see me.

Stop thinking.
Stop drinking.
Stop blinking.
Stop looking.

Open your eyes.

To feel happy & be alive.
Carefree & safe.
Intelligent & beautiful.

Wraps me in warm blankets.
Soft comfort shaded, all day waited.

"The way we experience time is an illusion".

Who will share their lives with me.

The Lamb has a golden heart.

The pig's spirit did nothing wrong &  is not dark.

The chicken's mind is sweet & kind.

The cow body is not ours to buffet.

These sacred & holy creatures don't need to obey.

Burger King is not their way.

Alive is how they must remain & stay.

Never to be sacrificed or hated.

Mercy shouldn't have to be waited.

Morals & ethics debated.

Deaths & quotas calculated.

Love for them should be felt.

Justice to shall not ****** needs to be dealt.

Compassion & empathy is a vegan fashion.

The talented style to get a baby Lamb to smile.

Peace comes when the confined are released.

Slaughtered & maimed cause me grief.

Lack of Justice has no relief.

Strength we have to make.

When we take a stand.

To educate a caravore to understand.

The livestock massacre across this land.

Join them hooves to hand.

Vegan ways populate our species clan.

Save the unfortunate & innocent from being ******.

Set a goal & form a plan.

Undercover investigation uncovers so behind bars the sadistic slaughterers are slammed.

Make them whole & cruelty gets banned.

Their existence is every much a part of me.

Empathy to protect & free.

It is like 90 degrees.
Air conditioning please.
You can pass out in this heat.
Too hot to move have a seat.
The forecast is the posted word.
I wish it snowed in this California desert.
Roasting hot is what I felt.
We all need to moisture our eyeballs with eye drops people so they don't melt.
Too much to ask for some loving.
It is like a solar oven.
No money for gas.
No a.c. for the low class.
Only poor people with dui's take the bus.
***** to be us.
I still ain't no one's wife.
I know Ariel & I are destined for at least a middle class life.
A pay check would fill this void.
It's been almost 2 decades for her & almost 4 decades for me of thus poor poverished lifestyles of the broke & unemployed.
The universe taketh & the universe giveth.

I wish to avoid dying the one true mortal death.
A human woman of mankind of a mortal shell.
Captivate a miracle power to immortalize.
Thee entire living enterprise.
To seek & find eternal life.
To never die & become a wife.
A true love of happiness unbitter.
Our's is a destiny lived so much bigger.
A blessed union will deliver.

Our bodies to always be present.
A future never to resent.
A cycle to always pay rent.

To shield from death & peace never to rest.
Living each & every day.
To be free & always stay that way.
Banish death & nourish to nurture life.
Never to leave or miss.
A life immortal is holy bliss.
Never dying with a loving kiss.
A presence this earth to forever exist.
Is my only true & real wish.

I love her with my whole heart.
The old broken hunchback can never keep us apart.
My daughter is a perfect creation from the start.
A sacred soul to teach, protect & love.
Descended from heaven to dwell below from above.
Precious earthly energy, breathing & alive.

Enemies dissolve out of sight.
Justice loses every fight.
Not only is justice blind, but deaf & ******* as well.
The family court, mediator, judge, & minors counsel can go to hell.
Along with my own attorneys that I fired.
I would have been 2,5000.00 richer if none of the were hired.
Stay in hell's shadow.
Be the Devil's ***.
You don't need stairs or a ladder.
Just grab a pitchfork & jump & fall into the bottomless matter.
Your evil work is done, let your cursed & ****** heartless shell shatter.
You stole what I hold most sacred!

Love letters, online predators.
Bill collectors & sicknesses that don't get better.
Snow, wind, & rain.
Rejection makes you insane.
Feelings of infatuation are lame.
All commitments are not the same.
The sweetest memories are not of a felony psychotic relationships wasted my life bit by bit.
My morals told me to quit.

Alone I sit & think.
My thoughts blink.
Connections link.
My wardrobe is mostly pink.
Someone has to care.
A person to be there.
To protect. & guide.
Never to be afraid or hide.

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I don't feel any better after reading your letter.
I went to the bus station to go on vacation.
You can't control my soul.
I held the flower for another half an hour.
I needed to doze, awoken with no clothes.
On a train vanished with no trace.
A naked & bare disgrace.
A villian with no face.
From the valley I ran til I got to the alley.
What a sin this trip has been.
A lack of defense that doesn't make much sense.
I bet it is something also you wouldn't get.

Author Notes :

Fiction

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He ignores my words.
They never reach his ears.
He turns his back on me.
Without no apology.

The trees hide whispering birds.
Karma on your car lands a ****.
Through the cloudy skies they steer.
Like little tiny specks on the horizon you see.
Shapes of signs from zodiac astrology.

A friendship never formed.
Sheltered from the unpredicted storm.
A family still unborn.
Independent & private in a dorm.
No one generation is mourned.

A perfect formation
Sacred & purposely placed in this nation.
A face unknown.
Homeless without a number for a phone.
Harmless it freely roams.

It's not my mistake, I did not make.
Whether your asleep or awake.
It is not our's to break.
Is Lucifer on Jupiter?
The lawn ghome says so.
Saturn developed a pattern.
On Venus dwells an eternal genius.
Neptune has no saloons.
The day turns the moon.
Stand guard to patrol the black hole.
Inventions to time travel through dimemsions. Uncharted outer space.
Engineer a patent.
Discover a lifestyle with endless limits.

Author Notes :

A tad bit ****** & spooky .

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Type cast a character that lasts.
A classic from the past.
Paparazzi cameras flash.
Red carpets are walked.
Obsessed fans lurk & stalk.
It's assured bodyguards make them secure.
Mature & pure.
Of that I'm definately sure.
Read the brochure & see the global tour.
A journey to endure.
Obscured & lured.
Detours to premature.
Time for leisure.
In rehab don't have a seizure.
Sobriety is not new but a vital cure.
Fame can be a blur.
Starstruck by their presence.
In awe of their essence.

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An encounter so surreal.
A contact I can feel.
My kissing is not perfect.
Hope my intentions don't conflict.
Nothing communication can't fix.
I wonder when if I will see him next.
He said "keep in touch" so I guess we'll text.
Finally it's lifted my spirit & the hex.
I've been ****** in this curse for so long.
I met someone strong.
Maybe he can join me where we belong

Switch me for the b*tch to be.
My love wasn't fake.
You leaving me was a big mistake.
People who are cruel
think the world they could rule.
That is not a fact.
Caravores attack.
Your ego you subtract.
When I win it is like a sin.
My child is mine.
If she stays with me that will be just fine.
You can't rewind time.
Your path you will find.
Can you hear the bells that chime?
Read my words that rhyme.
Soon it will be the right time.
Is happiness a crime??
Got lost in trees of pine.
Never drink wine.
Only eat from the ripe grape vine.
Trees with lime under the slippery slime.
Smoking **** from a ****.
You know that is wrong.
Your willpower is not strong.
Have a little faith, I was pure.
You ruined me.
There is no cure.
I want us to be how we were?
Nearby evil lures.
Of that I am sure. My rank a prank. I don't have money in the bank

I am a vegetarian
like a humanitarian.
I am pro-life.
I am nobody's wife.
I graduated high school.
I never had friends, I wasn't cool.
I have a driver's license.
I have no credit or finances.
I am not a voter. I am a pet devoter.
I am not a drinker.
I am more of a thinker.
I am not a smoker.
I am more of a joker.
I am not an addict or fanatic.
I am not erratic.
Or a manic.
I don't panic.
I am not a stalker,
Or a street walker.
Sometimes I am a big talker.
I am not a **** or a nut.
I am not alone.
I am not a ghome.
I have a friend.
Loneliness he can mend.
I am no longer in a rut.
I don't have a big ****.
I am not married.
When I die I don't want to be buried.
I want to be frozen.
That's what I've chosen.
I don't cook or clean.
I just look but I'm not mean.

I am sorry for my insensitive comments.
Your words weren't actually or exactly compliments.
I am sorry your brother died.
I am sorry for the tears you cried.
My father died around the same time.
I have a big pure heart you will never again find.
I am sorry your love I tried to buy.
I am sorry I don't know why.
I am not sorry your wedding won't be with I.
I am glad we are over & you I disregarded in such a haste.
Or in my grave I would have already rotted & wasted.
You have fallen in such disgrace. You disrespected me to my face.

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All the qualities I require in a man of mine.

      Honesty, love, devotion, caring,
kindness, Understanding, mercy,
compassion, intelligence, Trust,
cleanliness, faithfulness,
sincerity, Strength, spirituality,
confidence, optimistic, respect,
Loyalty, pride, consideration, helpfulness,
Generousity, friendliness, morals,
safety, Responsibility, honor, truth,
justice, fairness, Equality,
peace, joy, harmony, happiness,
Handsome, nice, worthy, deserving,
tall, Innocent, charming,
pleasant, polite, sweet, Thoughtful,
sentimental, patient, complimenting,
Affectionate, & noble.

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I do not know the cure for mortality of when, where, how, or why.
I do not know why sadness makes me cry.
I do not know why someday I will die.
I do not know why I have not met a marry me guy.
I do not know why love money can not buy.
I do not know why no one to me says hello or hi.
I do not know why lovers cheat & lie.
I do not know why I am ****** to exist & dwell in this sty.

Sequester thee eternal sunshine.
The hummingbird does not speak to me.
Symbolizing a new beginning.
Harmony brings Destiny.
Doing the devil's work is heartless.
He can believe liars to this day.
For the biast lies about me the mediator had to say.
I thought heresay was irrelevant.
Her recommendations to the judge were sent.
I was not chosen.
My parental rights frozen.
Demons in human form in the courtroom posing.
Judge Gerald Jessop retired without remorse.
His senseless verdicts concluded it's course.
Who does he think he is to say
or think how we deserve to be separated this way.
At my side is the only place for Ariel to stay.

To take a child from their mother as a baby & a little girl is not for their best interest.
It was traumatizing enough everytime I had to leave just to work my shift.
The judge & his minions at Madge Bradley Downtown can drink giraffe ****.
For what they did to my daughter & I's relationship
The devil horned one of red flesh can escort them with his pitchfork to hell as a trip.
Another sunrise they can skip.
Some evil is so bad that not even fire can destroy it
The natural order of things this way is meant.
The biast liars be ****** & die endless torment.

A devotion I implore.
Admiration to explore.
Not an unheard notion of pure emotion.
To refuse is bad news.
Don't confuse my Muse.
No use with your lame excuse.
Nice try still no alibi.
An olive branch is a tool.
I am not your fool.
What else is new?
Friends are do few.
I AM ALONE everyone already knew.
There can never be us two.
Deception has no reception.
No similarity or familiar rarity.
Contrary to thee ordinary.
It is what you drew.
Not enough rainbow with too much blue.
Art with glue.

Explore who we adore. Implore a devotion.
Not an unheard of notion.
Just pure emotion.
***** gives you the blues.
Alcohol is flammable & doesn't freeze.
It ruins your liver with ease.
Another shot of whisky, "please".
Refuse to self abuse.
Just brings bad news.
Choose to confuse my muse to amuse.
Tattoos can't be washed off with shampoo.
No use with your lame excuse.
Nice try.
Lost your shoes on a cruise?
What else is new?
Santa cruz or peru? How is the view?
Transfuse but do not misuse.
An olive branch was the tool.
It was what you drew.
An art to accuse.

Explore who we adore.
Implore a devotion.
Not an unheard of notion.
Just pure emotion.
***** gives you the blues.
Alcohol is flammable & doesn't freeze.
It ruins your liver with ease.
Another shot of whisky, "please".
Refuse to self abuse.
Just brings bad news.
Choose to confuse my muse to amuse.
Tattoos can't be washed off with shampoo.
No use with your lame excuse.
Nice try.
Lost your shoes on a cruise?
What else is new?
Santa cruz or peru? How is the view?
Transfuse but do not misuse.
An olive branch was the tool.
It was what you drew. An art to accuse.

There is no lock on the doors.
No carpet on the floors.
I want to be middle class & so much more.

The sink is always clogged.
My website is a daily blog.
My pet is not a Polly ***.
I love *** belly pigs & dogs.

From the door **** my hand smells like copper.
I am poor like a pauper.

I quit my job because I didn't want to transfer.
The two years I have been there has been a blur.
No one respects me now or before as we were.
I am friendless even though I am not perfect or pure.

I am now 38.
Justice shouldn't be a courthouse debate.
We shouldn't have to wait.
To be successful to feel great.
Never will I ever forgive who I hate.
Hopefully I will get married before forty.
I have no self pity or a complex of "poor me".
A truth you can feel but not see.
The old lady filed a restraining order against me.
To keep me from my only family my baby.
The custody case dragged on a year & a half until never replaced maybe.
She kidnapped my child.
Portrayed me as mental & wild.
The Madge Bradley Building mediator Georgia Mansury didn't believe my story in 2006 when she took my daughter away from me & gave her to my mom.
The family courthouse should blow up like a bomb.
I know I am in her best interest.
Ariel's mom she had missed.
The town of North Clairemont in San Diego.
A place friends never go.
We went to Alcott Elementary school.
Laws can't protect the ****** from rules.
We lived at 3266 Idlewild Way.
A place I am glad we no longer stay.
True story the police said it was a low priority case.
The future can't make the past erase.
I called them 20 years later.
So the reason my mom & why I hate her.
So I hung up & said "nevermind".
Somewhere evil still exists in this place & time.
They said it would take a really long time.
A nightmare of mine.
When I was 12 & my sister was nine.
We got ***** 365 times times 4.
A stranger showed up at our door.
He had a metallic blue helmet & motorcycle.
He got us bicycles.
She never had a clue.
His execution is long overdue.
My mom moved in a pedofile.
To live with us 3 or 4 years for awhile.
I think he had been on Americas Most Wanted for escaping from a correctional facility.
Monsters like him don't get any pity.
He said if we told anyone he would **** us.
His felonies were never a bust.
Registered or unregistered.
*** offenders should never get parolled.
They should stay locked up til their dead & old.
In mexico or anywhere else children's *** is not something that should be sold.
I hated my life.
No one ever asked me to be their wife.
She bought him cartons of cigarettes & beer.
My dad she had kicked out that year.
My dad died at 81 in 2009 I told him the truth before.
How a child molestor made us his *****.
He made me carry dead fish from the tank in my hand to the toilet.
It traumatized me bit by bit.
My life has become ****.
He strangled the dog next door with his own leash.
Nobody knew about our grief.
Justice has no relief.
When he went away.
We could go out & play.
After that all new days he hadn't had his way.
My mom told me to touch his **** telling me it was okay that it was just skin.
I never did. I knew it was an illegal sin.
He whipped us with his belt for being late.
I was unsure of my future fate.
Being there was not happy or fun.
My mom bought him a gun.
Where would we go if we had run.
He spit in my cereal is the rest.
He ****** on my toothbrush I detest.
He choked my sister to death.
He ressitated her she told her teacher.
The police never knew to reach her.
1988 our lives got ruined.
The damage is congruent.
1991 was when the **** ended.
Children got sexually offended.

Why do we have to live here?
Your like brain damaged & you don't even drink beer.
Why are you so mental?
You continue to pay for this ******* rental.
The kitchen sink & refrigerator leaks.
Just like your bladder the toilet you can't reach.
The bathroom sink is clogged with sasquatch hair.
But you don't seem to give a **** or even care.
For 10 years the toilet hasn't flushed.
Your hair is never washed or brushed.
You love the filth & stench.
You are a crazy *****.
You smell like the bums on a park bench.
Everything is broke.
Your life as a slob is a joke.
I wish you would die & croak.
Your a miserable old *****.
A backstabbing, two faced, heartless witch.
Does your life have an off switch?

Stay happy.
Stay safe.
Sometimes go shopping.
Sometimes it's okay to change something that is the same.

Always take your trash out daily.
Always use toothpaste & deodarant.
Always bathe & shower daily.
Always wear sunblock when near large areas of water like beaches, pools, rivers, lakes, or oceans.
Always stop at a red light or a stop sign.
Always pay your car insurance & phone bill on time
Always do your dishes daily & your laundry weekly.
Always be calm & polite.
Always wash your car every 2 weeks.

Don't trust any strangers.
Don't answer the phone without caller id.
Don't pick up hitch hikers.
Don't take rides from strangers.
Don't gamble.
Don't get drunk.
Don't breathe second hand smoke.

Never smoke around children.
Never shoplift for nothing or no one.
Never let anyone watch your children.
Never let anyone borrow money or your car.
Never call in sick to work.
Never request a day off from your job.
Never be late for your shift.

I'll think of you when I see a rainbow.
I'll think of you when the sun glows.
I'll think of you when the sky snows.
I'll think of you even if no one knows.
I'll think of you when the rain flows.
I'll think of you when the wind blows.
I'll think of you when I am low.
I'll think of you when the lawn is mowed.
I'll think of you when boats are rowed.
I'll think of you when bitterness is stowed.
I'll think of you when my cars get towed.

Unable to attain.
Impossible to obtain.
A reason so lame.
They don't want to know who I am or my name.
Discrimination is all the same.
There is nothing wrong with the mentality of my brain.
A hiring process shouldn't be such a strain.
I am able to be trained.

The yearning to want him to be with me is burning.
My youth slowly fades through the years.
Dying an old maid is one of my greatest fears.
I am not going to cry endless tears.
My agony quakes to the depths of hell.
In my mind I silently yell.
I never get any compassion or empathy.
My future without him continues to remain empty.

A curse was cast.
But will it last?
A sacrifice lost.....
My happiness is what it cost.
My soul still feels lost.
My dreams are fake.
His absence makes my heartache.

The universe may not be a curse.
Remember when you said I was your heart?
Back when you met me working at the mini mart.
You said we had a lasting love.
One that fit perfect like a glove.
I'm sorry for my insensitive comments.
Your words weren't actually compliments.
I'm sorry your brother died.
I'm sorry for the tears you cried.
I'm sorry for the words I lied.
I'm sorry for trying to buy your love.
I'm sorry I don't know why.
I'm sorry I can't fly.
I'm sorry your not the guy.
I'm sorry you never wanted to say "hi".
I'm sorry your wedding won't be with I.
I'm sorry I live in a sty.
I'm sorry you can't see it wasn't meant to be.

Voices echo off these solid walls.
No one hears their calls.
To get to have a life outside would be all.
To be picked up & lifted when they fall.
Not intimidated without mercy to crawl.
Suffer, despair, loneliness, in sadness they bawl.
Inside haters want to brawl.
Perception of time is stalled.

Talent should never go to waste.
Everyone who don't have success, wealth, & fame should get a taste.
No good person should remain a lifeless shell.
They can kiss & tell.
Scream & yell.
To cheat is to be cheated.
To beat is to be beated.
To express anger is to receive it.
Insanity has no boundaries.
Rages has no borders.
****'s have no power or order.
Self control is a whole.
Hermits shy away & shut-in's like moles.
Evil takes many forms.
They can look completely normal or hideously deformed.
Crazy minds aren't always seen on the outside.
No one can hide their true selfs.
Everything is discovered eventually.
Whether through fate, circumstance, karma, or consicous.

Windows with no holes in the screens.
Countertops & tables surfaces that are clean.
Sinks with no ***** dishes.
My own bedroom & refrigerator to put whatever we wishes.
Our own closet with a security deposit.
Without dust or mold.
No cobwebs clinging in the heatless cold.
An oven that works with a toilet that flushes.
With maintenance that rushes.
A fridge that don't leak.
A bed that don't creak.
A household that is organized, clean, & neat.
Trash taken out daily & never overflowing.
Spacious & roomy with people adoring.
Without mold, stench nats, or ants.
Nothing to complain about rave or rant.
To be able to have a friend over.
To have a clean bath tub for my body to get washed.
To be in charge & be my own boss.
Head if the house with my own address.

A moment to savor that froze.
No foul stench up my nose.

We are all connected.
The smell of chapstick & playdough.
Pillsbury Dough Boy has to go.

Tomorrow we will make a side trip.
Errands & appointments we can skip.
The right shade of purple & pink for my lips.

Some accessories are necessary.
The right heely shoes of styles so few.
Straight or wavy long hair.
About my appearance I always care.

I want to always look my best.
Hair, makeup, wardrobe, & all the rest.

To age older one day at a time.
Youth & my prime is no longer mine.

Liquid eyeliner to enhance & make finer.
Foundation to even the tone of my ****** skin.

Mascara for my lashes.
Finding clothes that matches.
Some eyeshadow for my lids.
Revealing jewelry where it's hid.

Shriveled & shrunken.
Intoxicated & drunken.
Hung over & agitated.
Mild to moderate brain activity.
Common sense & basic reason lacks mental ability.
Bad with money & squanders financial stability.

Passing a psychological mental health evaluation not quite.
Kept in a straight jacket & sedated in isolation they do spit & bite.
They go through everyone's trash day & night.
They panhandle at the street lights.
They have tempers & pick fights.
Nothing they do is legal or right.

Slobs with no jobs.
They lack work ethics.
The sight & stench of them is sick.
They're sad story is lies & tricks.
Not a truth that sticks.

They cuss & their pocked face oozes ****.
Their frontal lobe is filled with dust.
About telling your teacher the truth they get homicidal & make a fuss.
They drive a ******* car consisting of smog & rust.
Getting arrested for 365 × 3 + 2 counts of child **** is never a bust.

Keep your children away from drunks.
Some drunks get violent, beat you & lock you on a trunk.
Most pedofiles & rapists are drinkers.
Not religious or moral thinkers.
With shingles, hpv virus, ****** & boyles.
Zero morals as hideous as an ugly *** gargoyle.

Enjoy arguing,  screams & shouts.
Daily drunk driving & behind the wheel blackouts.