It's not my mistake, I did not make.
Whether your asleep or awake.
It is not our's to break.
Is Lucifer on Jupiter?
The lawn ghome says so.
Saturn developed a pattern.
On Venus dwells an eternal genius.
Neptune has no saloons.
The day turns the moon.
Stand guard to patrol the black hole.
Inventions to time travel through dimemsions. Uncharted outer space.
Engineer a patent.
Discover a lifestyle with endless limits.

Author Notes :

A tad bit ****** & spooky .

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Don't ask me to love you.
Don't tell me to know you.
Don't ask my name &
Don't give me your number.
Don't try to hook up with me.
Don't stop me know if you
Don't try to hook up with you
Don't follow me.
Don't block my way away.
Don't ask me to dance.
Don't write me a letter.
Don't buy me presents.
Don't hand my hand.
Don't call me.
Don't knock on my door.
Don't sleep on my floor.
Don't come to my work.
Don't buy me dessert.
Don't ask me to dinner.
Don't make me a sinner.
Don't say hello.
Don't say goodbye.
Don't even try.
Don't wonder why.
Don't sit by me.
Don't touch my knee.
Don't text me.
Don't acknowledge me.
Don't cross me.
Don't boss me.
Don't be my friend.
Don't bother me.
Don't ask about me.
Don't walk with me.
Don't parked beside me.
Don't take my picture.
Don't read my mail.
Don't ask me out.
Don't wonder what I'm all about.
Don't have your friends tell me you like me.
Don't try to psych me.
Don't look me up.
Don't now my lawn.
Don't sweep my sidewalk.
Don't feed my dogs.
Don't do my laundry.
Don't know my business.
Don't borrow my pen.
Don't read my book.
Don't take a second look.

Being alone in the cold & dark feels
Like being dead in your own coffin.
Isolated in the ground.
Beneath the earth.
The cemetery death surrounds.
Nothing alive is found.
If I had a choice not to see, hear, or speak.
I would choose not to speak.
Because I have to see & hear.
It would feel like I'm dead I fear.
I want friends with me who are near.
I want to feel alive with the living.
Not invisible as a ghost.
No one is seeing or hearing.
To be naked would people even notice?
I do not want to fade.
My life what it is, is what I made.
In this hellish place I stayed.
Not to disappear but to remain.
Enter the way I came.
Sleep next to me during the thunder.
Embrace me in a peaceful slumber.
Kiss me in the dark.
Hold hands with me walking through the park.
Love me daily.
Remember me lately?
You are just a memory.
A vision I want to keep.
Do not leave my side.
Or I may weep.
You shy away to hide.

A complexed fusion.
Complicated with confusion.
A foggy & dazed delusion.
False accusations.
Mere assumptions, no amusements.
Senseless movements.
Defiled improvements.
Stubborn sunshine that is not yours or mine.
Youth can't pause or rewind.
Unfading beauty doesn't wither.
Breath taking chill which shivers.
True loves kiss is never delivered.
Sunshine sets, the present regrets.
A wedding I never get.
A hatred you can't forget.
A destiny unescaping, mind ******.
An existence slow & scraping.
Only remembered from videotaping.

Scared.
They never cared.
At my nakedness they stared.
Told me what they wanted to do was dared.
Seduction snared.
My ****** bared.
Jealous tempers flared.
My photos were glared.
Couples not yet paired.
Photographs ripped & teared.
No clothes was weared.

Written in liquid gold. preserved, ancient, & old. Unfollowed & hollow.
Unerased with a path untraced.
I am someone who is friendly & polite.
On any day & every night.
I am not violent & do not fight.
I don't possess the gift of sight.
But I feel my future is bright.
Do you mind opening this gate!
Don't hate your destiny's fate.
Nothing is what I ate.
It is far to the other side.
Of the globe the ocean divides.
Corruption waits inside.
If there was food you know I eat the whole plate.
Enough said.
A hunger you fed?
I get it you don't like women in your bed. Abnormal desires in your head.

Love & protection.
Not hatred, fear, & neglection.
Respect, trust, honesty, & loyalty.
Not self centered royalty.
Devotion, understanding, & consideration.
Not meaningless flings of infatuation.
Open relationships with a wandering eye.
Is that what you want in a guy?
I want to be loved & cared for.
Not betrayed, used, & scared by.

Living off coffee & carbonated caffeine.
There is no food for my vegan soul.
Nervous.
Breakdown.
Unemployment is a damnation.
A **** shame.
No recognition or fame
I'm off the grit.
It's like I don't exist.
The day the music died.
My life I hide.
A child with no father.
A mother with no husband.
Half of a family.
No for food.
No money.
No shelter.
No jobs.
I talk about all my skeletons in the closet.
Online.
But in person I'm private.
No paycheck.

The past doesn't last.

The mole stole a bread roll & ran down the tunnel hole.
A giraffe poked a can of coke.
The defiant giant roared.
The bird landed a ****.
A joke for a poor bloke.
The troll dropped his bowl on the bed like lead.

Then came the blame....who ate my baklavas?

Candy apples & fruit cakes.
Gingerbread man & fortune cookies.
Food that's adaptable.
Goodies to bake.
Eat it because you can.
Snacks for rookies. Taste the treats.
Don't waste in a haste.
I bet of that you'd regret.
Pink frosting in the sink.
When you drink *** you act dumb.

Your words fall on deaf ears.
Your voice I choose not to hear.
Your breathe wreaks of stale beer.
Get away from me no one wants you here.

Away from here years ago & today.
I wish there had been a way.
To teleport or astroproject so I didn't have to stay.
Towards someone good to connect.
Of me people continue to neglect.
Evil is who I deflect.
Beauty is what I reflect.
Loneliness is what I get.

My eyes saw.
What you did broke the law.
Because of you ma kicked out Pa.
Every fiber of your being has a flaw.
Your morals are baked & your evil is raw.
Your hands are like a devil's claw.

Unfiled & unreported.
My thoughts real & undistorted.
The "mom" I disowned is disheveled
Her house pak rat hoarded.
Piles of filth & stench.

To know your face.
Ruined my past I can not replace.
Here at home of crimes there was no trace.
Police said low priority case.
Heaven has been a disgrace.
You've been banned from that place.

Old people become like children.
They need care & monitoring.

Broken & unrepairable.
Intolerable & unbearable.
Stained, torn, & unwearable.

Empty & no longer full.
Anger takes you like a raging bull.
Motivation pushes & pulls.
Through & behind locked doors.
Solid brick walls coward's hide from us all.

Guilt has shame.
Responsibility blames.
Isolated & insane.
Somethings stay the same.
Sometimes people, places, or things change.
Somehow all becomes strange.
Memories rearrange.
Ambitions & goals get deranged.
Shattered dreams are pained.
Credit is unfamed.
Wild hearts are never tamed.

Fallen through the cracks like grains of sand.
Your destiny is purified your hands.
You fall where you land.
"Family" has you labeled & banned.
Inspirations & Aspirations are canned.
Your future is never planned.
Traffic flow gets slowed & jammed.
Victims are slandered & slammed.
Innocence gets ******.

Whine, b*tch, & complain.
It's what I do best.
What about all the rest?
Well there's not much to say.
Lunatic goes ballistic.
You all don't understand.
To damage someone's mind, heart and body. Damages their soul.
I hate this life.
I can't remember any of my past lives.
To know if I ever hated them too.
Was I ever did rich?
Did I ever matter to someone?
Was I a better person?
These questions will never be answered.
How many tragedies have I suffered?
Do I care?
Does anyone care?
Before cars.
Before airplanes.
Before trains.
Before ships.
Before birth control.
Before electricity.
Before plumbing.
Before technology.
Computers, phones, stoves, fireplaces, heaters, air conditioners, toilets, water filters, tar, glass, paint, plastic, steel, fans, furniture, music, coal, fuel, rubber, & cement.
Did cave men and women care about religion, politics, government, education, economy, rights, justice, careers, gold, slavery, crime, morals, family values, security, love, beauty, stress, depression happiness, pain, celebration, tragedy, skills, entertainment, logic, science, history, math, reading, writing, spelling, drawing, fashion, reflections, diet, exercise, nutrition, development, inventions, ideas, language, speed, health, illness, death, sin or revenge?
Anything?

Dangerous damage uncontrolled.
Cloaked invisible & unwhole.
Hours wasted turned into days.
Strength to protect.
Regrets confidence can't let.
Degraded & hated.
Sadistic & overrated.
Real fragile feeling.
Broken shattered lives still healing.
Summoned evil & unearthed a demon.
Void of sense, logic, & reason.

Damaged & broken.
It was my throat the devil man was choking.
My words are true of that I am never joking.

A delicate & fragile child.
Abuse suffered & never recovered.
Cursed never to marry a significant other.

No one hears my screams.
No one can cleanse my body clean.
To return what was taken & make it pure.
To shield & create & patent it's cure.
To make me as I am & were.

Waiting to get paid so we can be fed.

No to care.
It is not fair.
That for me no one is out there.

One day will happen when my desired dreams will be made real & true.
Most all of my thoughts are of what it would be like if I was with you.
I am a person you never knew.

Your lips just once I wish to kiss.
My secret desire I am ****** to miss.
Happiness unfelt without real bliss.

Rejection shatters my fragile crush.
Every fiber of hope turned to mush.
Any chance in hell down the toilet is flushed.

You'll never care whether or not I am there.

Through the desert on the clouds we fly with your angel wings to carry me by.
Am I still alive or did I die?
Did my daughter or Co worker's even cry?
Since they are my only family & friends.

Death is not a free release.
It is a bump in the road or a crack in the street.
Protect life & shelter yourself from harm.
Embrace your healing with your arm.
Your a guardian from the stars & clouds.
A presence ghostly & quiet & never loud.

A luck for you as my guide.
Survival is what we tried.
A princess of the sky like royalty.
Through the stars & moon.
You glow throughout the room.
Strength & loyalty.

I am blessed with your essence.
A sweet majestic presence.
Mystical & ethical.
Miracleous & magical.
I praise your power & ability.

I am sorry for my insensitive comments.
Your words weren't actually or exactly compliments.
I am sorry your brother died.
I am sorry for the tears you cried.
My father died around the same time.
I have a big pure heart you will never again find.
I am sorry your love I tried to buy.
I am sorry I don't know why.
I am not sorry your wedding won't be with I.
I am glad we are over & you I disregarded in such a haste.
Or in my grave I would have already rotted & wasted.
You have fallen in such disgrace. You disrespected me to my face.

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On the windows cool air forms frost.
In the fog I feel cold and lost.

Through the forest the trees dance.
Freedom I will have the chance.

To escape from this captivity.
Independence I can feel & see.

Walking bare foot without a path.
I will not suffer the wrath.

Goosebumps cover my flesh.
With no warmth to caress.

Wandering directionless in the woods.
Eatting whatever I could.

Nothing to wear, eat, or drink.
To dehydrated to speak or think.

No human contact here.
I didn't even see a deer.

Staggering & stumbling.
Mumbling swears with my belly grumbling.

An endless abyss.
Hopeless in granting my wish.

No one can find me.
My radar is not to be.

Barely surviving.
Existing but not thriving.

Mindless panic sets in.
Fear of death will win.

No help will come.
A fate you can't out run.

Solitude forming delusions.
A spirit's pollution.
Brainstorm a solution.

The sun shines on the trail.
To follow or fail.

Wanting to connect.
Rejecting the neglect.

This suffer you can not forget.
To be saved will I ever get.

Put on a robe.
Your ****** don't need to be seen around the globe.
Just because I sparkle & glow,
don't make me a skanky ***.
Morals awaken, sin is forsaken.
It ain't love we will be making.
Nobody gets married anymore.
Most men just find a convient *****.
People with low standards, settle for less.
They may take a gander.
But they usually make a mess.
I'm not in the mood for anymore food.

Do they possess secret of immortality?
So mankind will suffer no more fatality
Sparkling gems with silver chains.
Gold coins make it rain.
Mermaids gold.
Richness unfolds.
Immortality so old.
It shimmered so cold.
Stories unheard & never told.
An embrace too slippery to hold.
We have legs with no fins.
Another species is not a sin.
Never to walk among us on land.
They have no feet only hands.
Intelligent sea life unaware.
How divers discover what is there.
Do the mermaids even care?
Beneath the water a reflective box.
Pearls of the sea unlock.
A key of the ocean far from the docks.
Falling down to thee underworld.
Diamonds & pearls in the water they sink & swirl.
Gifts generate greed & envy I'd affected.
Treasures of the sea found & collected.
An image on your eyes reflected.

Can't hide the horror.
Your opinion of me weighs less than sunlight.
You are not the shaper of things.
Stale wind & ash.
It is beyond you.
Something is broke inside you.
How am I to function with such limitations?
I do not bend to your will.
Change is constant yet things stay the same.
Together?  Yes together.
Is this what grief looks like?
I don't like where this is going or has been.
The time line is stitched back together out of sequence.
Drain the energy from you safely.
"Serve no master but your own ambition".
It was a failure.
Your all that's left.
Fighting to hold on to what you were is destroying you.
The weakness of your species.
Touch me & die vermin.
Everything is different.
A self destructing time bomb.
Overloads & explodes.
Stuck in time.
Fear the night.
No harm no foul.
May or may not be evil.

The puppet parrot voice echos through the valley. Struck with Cupid's arrow beyond the edge of the cliff.
To the ground fallen stiff.
Flies above with a halo & fluttering wings.
The son of the goddess of love.
A sweet found union....harmony sings.
Across an enchanting magical realm.
A haunted forest overwhelms.
A flock of angels on a mission.
Delivers love without commission.
A soulmate without permission.
Desire with no conditions.
An unwished favor with passion to savor.
Lacking any & all wisdom.
To bring down a kingdom.

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An old heart unused & rusted.
A sinister mind ignored & untrusted.
Don't turn your back on evil.
Your instincts is to trust what you feel.
Use your eyes to detect who is wise.
Use your mind to search for love to find.
Use your heart to become someone's sweetheart.
Use your voice to make your own choice.
Use your ears to lead a path you steer.
Use your nose to attract who you chose.
Use all your senses to dissolve your fearless fences.
Value your original thought.
Cursive is no longer taught.
Happiness is a joy for a girl & a boy.
Respect is not a persuasion.
Self-esteem to let your aura gleam.
Anger is hatred with steam.
Peace is your soul's release.
Suicide is not a lesson.
Loneliness is depression.
Strength in yourself you have to find.
Fear is a weakness of a feeble mind.
Love is a feeling of admiration.

When I tell people I don't consider meat edible. They be like "incredible".
My sanity is credible.
I am not a rebel.
I have morals.
Is forever something you could swallow?
A past story that isn't hollow.
A ghost that haunts & follows.
Contemplate your pleasure.
How does it measure?
Is it worth a treasure?
Do you ever doubt, about, what you need to shout?
Don't whine & pout.
Go if you want out.
I don't want your rose.
Love is not something your heart knows.
Mutual knowledge I suppose.
Only lies is what you proposed.

Hawks, Eagles, Falcon, Owls, & Seagulls.
Ariel always wants to go to the beach.
So the ocean water she can touch & reach.
About seashells to show & tell.
But I don't want her to get sunburned.
A lesson we already learned.
One time we took the cat on his harness leash & he got scared.
To see what it would be like but we never brought him again because we cared.
We used to video tape it so we'd remember.
How little she was & cute we were.
It has been two years since we last went.
We'd only stay for thirty minutes something was what it meant.

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It's a mutual attraction.
So far there has been no action.
I guess he has been in a relationship for 6 years.
He said he no longer drinks beer.
Mine don't last more than 3 but my longest was six.
I like hearing the truth with no tricks.
He offered me his ****.
I don't feel offended or sick.
So far its just been *** talk.
We haven't even been on a walk.
Neither of us by each other have been stalked.
We used to work together.
The rain is romantic weather.
Together we could look good in a picture.
As his arm candy I wish to be a permanent fixture.
Is our destiny to be together in the potion of life's mixture?
*******.
Obscene text.
Not a prospect or an ex.
Is not single.
But may want to mingle.
Makes me feel *****.
When they talk all flirty.
Never said that to my face.
Texted me an image I can not erase.
He still has a girlfriend.
We never even hung out as friends.

I hate you.
You cursed my life.
You prevented & stopped me from being a mother and wife.
Your a b*.
I tried to ditch.
You took my child.
And portrayed me as being wild.
You kidnapped.
Why can't to you lightning would zap?
I am so done with your bull sht & crap.
Then I would celebrate & clap.
My daughter is a fairy.
She can't have dairy.
Stay away from her.
You are not the cure.
You are the most unpure.
You're sick.
You are a prck.
I want to **** you with a brick.
You let a child molestor fck me with his d*ck.
Get out of our lives.
Gio to a cliff & take a dive.
You have an insane brain.
You can't control your bladder.
I hope you fall off a ladder.
Or down some stairs.
I wouldn't be someone who cares.
Fall off a roof.
So you can go ****.
Die in the street.
I wouldn't care if you got hit by a car.
I would wish for that on a shooting star.
You are an unfit mother.
Who is your baby snatching grandmother.
You tell lies.
You make her cry.
Why won't you just die?
Death that can be quick.
When you are sick.
Death can be slow.
When it's time to go.
Death can be stubborn
Something you can learn.
Death can be scary.
If you eat a poisonous berry.
Death can be a risk.
When you want to be brisk.
Death can be tricky.
If you are a sickie.
Death can be sneaky.
When you are freaky.
Death can be a shock.
If you can't swim and fall off the dock.
Or gets suffocated and gagged by a sock.
The killer you they will mock.
God will make the depths of hell crumble and rock.

A male with no issues.
A compatiable connection.
Who knows how to show respect & affection.
Who has a memorable recolition of the night before.
Who don't treat me like a one night stand *****.
Dripping wet from the shower.
Cleanliness that lasts for hours.
I like to lounge in the bath.
If I had a lover we could do it together,
only if they promise not to laugh.
He should be strong enough to carry me i weigh more than a feather.
A man with his own bedroom & place.
An address I would like to trace.
A warm trusting embrace kissing my face.
A man with independence.
With no alcohol or drug dependence.
With charm & romance.
A man who can slow dance.

: Author Notes

Fictional day dreams.

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In 1988 at lake murray we took a boat ride.
Our feelings we kept secret inside.
You didn't support me, you weren't by my side.
You moved away, and in 2009 you died.
I missed you & I cried.
Staying together couldn't be buyed.
Having fun without you was lied.
Divorce was a knot never untied.
A relationship that could'nt last.
Not since the curse was cast.
A love severed so fast.
Regrets & pain fill our past.
Ourselves, our lives & what made us who. Memories so far & few.
Why did you have to go to Sedona?
Why didn't you stay in California?
Instead you moved to Arizona.
I never believed you really would.
I didn't make the time I really should.
I guess we had a chance.
But it wasn't a simple dance.
At your photograph I often glance.
My thoughts of you are mostly sad.
I never really got to have you for a dad.
My past childhood makes me mad.
The few memories feel glad.
Things happen that are bad.
There's more things I wish we had.
Occasionally I get an awful feeling.
A need for a peculiar dealing.
I need closure with a sealing.
My spirit got cracked & has peeling. I guess I need soul healing. I used to have so much hope. I never could handle abandonment & cope.

Your fake concern.
Your lying heart I had unfortunately had to learn.
Your cheating ways how it cut & burn.
My trusting chance you wasted.
My sweetness for a moment you tasted.
My broken heart can't be taped, glued, or pasted.
For a while you have become a permanent ***.
Holding up signs at an intersection don't get my pity.
Not here or in any other city.
Our "relationship" was like a play.
You just used me so your miserable *** could have a lay.
With you I never wanted to live with or stay.
I promise in the end karma will pay.
Be presentable, admirable, & commendable.
Independent, & capable.
Not needy & dependant.
Pay your own mortgage or rent.
Be far enough away so I can't smell your odor.
Deodorant, soap, & cologne is not expensive.
Use toothpaste, mouthwash, & a razor to be nice.
Wash, shave, & brush so you don't get lice.
Your a stench & a disease
I would never touch, embrace, or squeeze.
You will forever be a two timing ******.
Your ticket punched.
A non productive drunk.
Your whole life is a problem unshrunken.
No thanks with you I wouldn't eat lunch.
I have lost my appetite.
Your a eye sore in my sight.
Now that your homeless, old, ugly, diseased, stench of liquor & tobacco, & unemployed.
Your status is void.
Who are your prospects?  
Who would want to be with you?
Not me.

Who knew?
A secret mission.
An impossible decision.
A nervous impulse.
It's now or never.
Alone at the top.
Alone at the bottom.
Misery.
A joyless life.
A hopeless existence.
Stop.
Stop right there.
Smile, laugh, rejoice & be merry.
Dance to the music.
Where are you?
Where were you?
Where are you going?
Don't copy me.
Don't follow me.
Don't remember me.
Don't talk to me.
Don't notice me.
Let me see the way to become nothing that I feel.
Words can't express what I can draw.
A mermaid.
Flowers.
A person.
A heart.
A happy face.
Shiny stars.
The sun.
Sweet victory.
Sweet Jesus.
Who wants to pine over me?
Can I buy a rebel?
I'll take Jesse James for $300.
Time is on my side girlfriend.
Table for one.
Room for one.
Ticket for one.
I don't rock it all the time.
What is my purpose?
Whoever wants me can take a number.
Then you'll be next.
I'm not eager to please.
Precious babies & children.
Angels & fairies.
Celtic beings.
Harp players.
Your Majestic Elegance Sparkles with radiance.
You shouldn't have.
I didn't.
It wasn't me.
Are you blind can your eyes see?
Your grace astounds me.
I am overwhelmed by your beauty and hair.
You are a prize.
I am baffled by your size.
Don't ridicule me.
Location.
Relocate.
Excuse me are you one of the local natives? Pardon me but do you know the way to Paradise?
But of courses it's over the cliff.
Through the cove.
Down the waterfall
The purple pink and orange sunset glow with glory.

I frown at the fifthy & stenchy bums downtown. They're panhandling is all around.
Wobbles toward you with their horrible garble.
Mentally ill with no marbles.
Probes all the trash cans on the globe.
In their doped trance, they do their drunken dance.

Through the streets they hobble.
From the garbage scraps they gobble.

They are a ****** mess.
Professionally they will never dress.
Can their stench reek any less?
They litter their beer cans & cigarettes pollute.
They dress in rags & will never west a suit.

They figure society owes them something.

Their philosophy is why bother to work for a dollar?

Released from jail for public grief.
Pity that will eventually cease.

A felon with no home.
Shuffling around with no cell phone.

A sap with a tooth gap.
Unfortunate crap.
But they adapt with their diseased clap.
Map out their next nap.

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Soft Lips & soft hands.
Strong arms & strong legs.
Curved hips & deodarized glands.
Seductive charm & eyes that beg.
Wavy long hair & a tall height.
Hairless chest that is bare in daylight.
Hands embrace walking side by side at an equal pace.
Speaking to each other's face.
Timeless romance unerased.
Happiness experienced and unforgotten. Heartbreak shattered & rotten.
Tomorrow is promised.
My lips go unkissed.
My love rejected.
My trust infected.
My spirit ejected and neglected.

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I was created in his image.
A life unlived.
Mortality outlived.
An existence you can't repeat.
You can not rewind and take a seat.
It doesn't matter if you take a number.
Waiting to die.
Destiny you can't buy.
Promises you can't even try.
Nobody knows why.

HOPE there is honor in love.
Designs that may not be mine.
DRINKING wine can't freeze time.
Make peace with your mind.
Left behind for one day to find.
A new life with a caring wife.
A husband to understand.
When he takes you by the hand.
It is a silent command.
No outrageous demands.
No children of the corn or village of the ******.
No red box rentals which have been banned.
Only a spirit who climbs.
Just everything hat is fine.
Not like talking to a mute mime.
Where being a momma is not a crime.

Destiny has your plan.
All those who accuse.
Everyone you have abused.
Victims will haunt you.
All the days of your life of misery.
Wickedness is punished .
Saints & angels protect the innocent.
Guard & shield them from evil.

Do not follow me.
Never touch me.
Look away & do not stay.
Don't talk to me.
Stay away from my family.

Forget about my world.
Lose my info & Bio.
Erase our number.
Do not disturb my slumber.

Respect my privacy.
Your threats & bluffs evaporate.
Your jealousy & hate saturate.
Karma crushes your fate.
For hell you need not wait.
Whatever is left of you will desinagrate.

My eyes open wide, my heart break subsides. My tears confide what my heart hides.
Your fears fade & forgotten. Our afflictions made rotten. Our happiness withheld.

His hand never holds mine. His commitment I hope I receive in time. His eyes don't see me. His words don't speak to me.

New ways to be bitter. Drunks need a sitter. My space don't pollute or litter. Feelings of love have to be mutual. Trust that is constitutional.

Respect that is connected. Loyaltys authentic!

Our companionship withers. OUR ABSENCES shiver.. What does our friendship deliver? The lack of empathy considers.

In my spoon I saw a reflection of the moon.
Recite the strange light from last night.
One afternoon in the summer month of June.
I saw a balloon with a candle,
in a bag tied to the handle.
A glowing object in the night sky.
Ascending really high.
The sun shirvels prunes.
Dogfood is eatten by squirrels & racoons.
A bright sunset of purple & maroon.
From the radio a peaceful tune.
Get out of the bath tub.
Yoshi is behind the neighbor's shrub.
Underneath the mistletoe.
He put his arm around my waist & hips.
I woke up & dreamed he kissed my lips.
Sinister thoughts no one fought.

In the baking heat & undefeated.
There in the pouring rain.
Frozen in the ice without shame.

Winter brings an eery chill.
Summer has free will.
Spring you hear angels sing.
Autumn is where flowers bloom.
Fall is dead leaves near tombs.

A life is not yours to take.
A crime is what that would be at stake.
In more ways than one he destroyed my life.

It costed alot & I will never get over it.
Shattered pieces bit by bit.
I will carry it the rest of my life.

You can decide some to create.
Babies are easy to make.

The trees conceal karma's possum.
What causes a shade of black & blue.
Anything the wind blows on your doorstep & there it blew.
Poison in the stew.
If only death of his could save you.
Don't know what your going to do.
Sometimes it takes not one but two.
An unknown hero would be who?
Unseen danger affects more than a few.
Not very many people knew.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
Entranced and hypnotized.
Mesmerized & advertised.
Under your spell.
A face you can sell.
But don't want to share.
A covergirl, a diva that's divine & out of her mind. Someone you can never find.
Blazin.
Crazen.
Unphasen.
Desired & admired.
Always tired.
Never fired.
Easily hired.
That's who I'll be.
Bringing society to its knees.
Don't need to say thanks or please.
A career I can steer.
I can see there's no need for beer.
Don't have to be queer.
Cosmo, Vogue, Lifestyles, People & Esquire.
I can't build my own empire.
The sky's the limit.
Strange and bewildered.
Ignored and neglected.
Friendless.
Populated with enemies.
I've lost the battle but I will win the war.
My dreams will soar.
Stars of Destiny.
Fantasy the mystery.
A faith of darkness.
A colorful sunset.
Rainbows and rain clouds.
Doubtful whether.
Predictive mazes.
Webs of deceit.
Strangers you'll meet.
A broken hearts defeat.
Joyful salvation.
Towering castles abroad.
A pond of nightmares.
A waterfall of cares.
A net of insults.
A flock of enemies.
An army of glory.
An endless story.
A poem of hatred.
A secret kiss.
A whirlwind of confusion.
A rainbow fusion.
A pretty dessert.
A mirrored jeopardy.
A double destiny.
A blind future.
A deaf past.
A mute desire.
A broken will.
An evaporated heart.
A broken mind.
An evolved solution.
A shattered pollution.

A dog for you.
A cat for me.
A fog of dew.
I sat with you.
Is one better than two?
Am I who you knew?
Dream of floating clouds.
Or nightmares where you scream.
And get loud.
Control my mind, my thoughts, my voice,
my vision, my body, & my feelings.
Where is the cure for what made me unpure?
My childhood was lured.
My past a blur.
Your words a slur.
The wind blows across the hillside.
The irish civilization is so enchanting to me.
The accents, their manners, their luck of the Irish.
Dark brown eyes.
So many reasons why.
I need a change.
A new life, new friends, some pets,
puppies and kitties.
Rain storms. Country life or city life?
Sunrise sunset.
Rainbows with pots of gold.
Mesmerising eyes, hypnotic stares.
Flirting glares.
Unspoken words of lust.
Find some people I can trust.
Do what I must.
Bad people to bust.
Should I die & turn to dust?
Their cars to rust.
Do what's just.
Sour flower
withers within the hour
has no power.
I throw it from the highest tower.
For death to devour.
The trees blow in the night breeze.
Without a coat you will freeze.
Or catch a cold & sneeze.
Can I get a blanket please?
Does your dog has fleas?
I am not broken.
You think I'm easy you must be joking.
Your license needs to be revoken.
My life you keep choking.
My daughter needs a cup of water.
She didn't want the food I bought her.
she doesn't listen to anything I taught her.
You want me not her.
The stream looks green.
Is the weather not what it seems?
Don't leave me that would be mean.
Do you want your coffee with sugar & cream?
Or is this just a dream?

You can't put your Ariel you in a bubble.
You can't keep her in a box or a cage.
Our hunger is my rage.
You're ****** and will never be saved.
You think you're brave
Because you made the court cave.
You can't behave.
Go to your grave.
Please let the angel of death take your last breath.
The landscape will look pretty with your tombstone on it.
It will give the birds a place to sh*t.
Your corpse will give the worms food
nurture and nourish Mother Nature
fertilize the soil to the trees can give the rest of us oxygen to breathe.
You are a monster.
Be a skeleton.
Happy Halloween to The Day of the Dead.
Death is the celebration of life.
Die for me.
I pray that death will come quick and fast.
Age faster.
Wrinkle & die.
Let your web of lies strangle you to death. Trapped underground.
An evaporated soul.
An empty hollow.
A void.
Nothing.
You are nothing in life.
You will be nothing in death.
You are penniless and worthless.
No value
Nothing precious.
Nothing sacred.
You are rust.
Mold, unwanted, *****, a scar.
A barnacle.
You represent nothing.
You have no founder.
Your no leader.
You belong to nothing and no one.
You spoil the earth.
You if you pollute the air and water.
You **** the plants.
You destroy life.
You are a plague.
You crush.
You are musty & stale.
You're slow as a snail.
Your face is ugly.
You're an eyesore.
A nasal stench.
A backstabbing *****.
Your poison.
A pollution
with no solution.

I don't pity poverty.
Low lives disgust me.
Undependable if you can't count on yourself.
Who can you count on?
Sell you're ss for some quick cash
Dance naked for money
to find yourself a rich honey.
Get a minimum wage job.
So you're not a broke-ss slob.
Work the night shift and get robbed.
Don't out of fear ever sob.
Bad karma is their flaw.
Their sin is what you saw.
They'all be snatched my Hell's claw.
Your sinning soul peeled raw.
Try to challenge me and I'll sock your jaw.
You broke the law.
Don't even try to deny it by saying "nah".
Your fingerprints are left by your ***** paws.
Guilty as Sin.
The devil wants you in.
He always knew your life was *******.
Don't act so surprised to see your demise.
Nobody will hear your cries.
Hell's door is open for souls to be floating.
You ruined your own self.
From the cards you're dealt.
When the Devil seee you sin he smiles for every d*mn child.
Greedy and selfish you're two of a kind.
Soulless without a good friend
You will pay for all your crimes time that never ends.
A will that bends.
A messages that never sends.
Hope & pathetic with no logic.
Out of touch & out of focus.
No Hocus Pocus.
You stand in a line up.
A finger points you out.
Without any doubt.
Go ahead and pout.
No one will care that you're sad.
You're getting so mad.
The system is glad.
No parole.
Thanks to the tax payers bank roll.
Pay karma's toll.
You gargoyle troll.

Gaze at the gigantic moon.
See how it illuminates the room.
The sky so foggy & dark casts shimmer of light,
The night grass soggy.
The dog still barks, moonlight glows bright.
A silloutte shadow of a black cat jumps a fence.
My heart beat intense.
Spooky images move.
My vision improves.
Owls are bad luck.
If you hear one at midnight it means someone is going to die.
Say " goodbye".

Unable to attain.
Impossible to obtain.
A reason so lame.
They don't want to know who I am or my name.
Discrimination is all the same.
There is nothing wrong with the mentality of my brain.
A hiring process shouldn't be such a strain.
I am able to be trained.

Walking to the mailbox through the snow.
Mailing things I buy off eBay to work so my ex don't know.
I spend all my money on me.... So!
I am glad back to California I go.
In my new clothes I look so radiant I glow.
I will never again be your ***.
Your morals in life are so low.
Low life with junk cars that get towed.

Goodbye wither & die.
I promise I won't cry.

You tried to strangle me to death.
Because your addict *** smoke ****.

Be alone.
I'm done pretending we had a home.

You are a bad guy.
I wish we never had met or said. " Hi".

I found someone better after I left you.
Someone you never knew.

A chance with me you forever *******.
A portrait of a better future I wrote & drew.

Your *** crack is showing.
The whole while the neighbors never knowing.
You lay in a stale rancid puddle of ****.
Not to be near you is what I wish.
Your **** sag to your waist.
Dead flesh you love the taste.
Your mama's boy son is fat.
But nobody cares about that.
Old, bald, & grey.
You can't keep your stench away.
You are two of a kind.
Poor & miserable, with a brainless mind.
You burden me with disgust.
You are no one to love or trust.
You live in a **hole.
Poor people eat cereal in a bowl.
Your existence is shattered & not whole.
You shuffle around barefoot.
Things get lost where they are put.
You love to pakrat & hoard.
Being here just makes Ariel & I bored.

I have noticed a lot of my poem's words, ideas, & titles,
Are being inserted, reused, & recycled In other people's poetry on this website.
Can't people form there own original ideas & plots?
Without re-wording other's to make it sound new?

Will I get one last supper?
Pass the bread.
A prayer before slumber.
Busy with bible study you read.
Walk on water?
Hailing brimstones...
Confessions to a father.
Spying ghomes.
Sacred wishes, granted.
Class dismissed go home.
Written lies slanted.
Evil curses & spells chanted.
Bad nurses banned from a paradise enchanted.
Blessed is he who is with me.
Bring me an angel.
Their name was cupid.
Love created what he did.
Goddess of love sent from above.
Granted me a solid connection.
With a united ressurrection.
Formed to perfection.
A true delight shining like a prism bright.
Deflecting sin, reflecting next of kin. Metallic rainbows will win.

A yearning hunger.
A devastating ******.
A road hogging hummer.
Denim jeans
A baby Tee.
Rainbow sandals.
Desert gear.
A trip to nowhere.
A camp fire with no one.
Waiting for nothing.
In the wrong place.
At the wrong time.
For the wrong reason.
For no reason.
Bad Karma.
Why me?
No one to care.
A ghost haunting nothing.
A view of nothing.
Acres and Acres of nada.
No warmth on a cold night.
A sandy hell.
Cactus and sand dunes.
Cacti, lizards and sand blizzards.
Camels and llamas.
No buried treasure.
No water.
Take a chopper.
To the ocean.
Coves, seagulls, shores, seashells, wind, Seaweed, saltwater & a blind panic.
Like you know the end will happen.
Stranded with no hope.
Who can teleport to the mountain?
In a porthole?
Snowflakes, rocky mountains.
Not a perfect place not here not anywhere.
Isolated and alone.
I hate it so much more than life.
I ran a red light on purpose.
For no reason
Not wanting to stop.
Why?
There could have been a collision disaster.
A good happy ending to a bad bad story.
Dumb luck.
Detour.
Mount Soledad.
Pacific Beach.
Lake Murray.
Row your boat.
Climb every mountain.
You can't tame a beast.
You've to fight your demons.
They won.
Somebody please find me!
Help me out of here!
I never wanted to be here.
In the middle of nowhere.
With nothing & no one.
There's nothing to look forward to.
Nothing here to keep me alive.

A daughter I cherish.
I never want us to perish.
She is so pretty, not someone to ever to pity.
Sent here from heaven.
She is 16 but I wrote this when she was 11.
She makes me proud.
Even though sometimes she gets loud.
Next year she will be old enough to drive.
An experience I hope she will survive.
She will be done with school in two years.
I have complete faith that independence will take place.
Will be glad even though she never had a dad.
I have alot of fears I may even cry some tears.

© Harmony Sapphire . All rights reserved,

I said you weren't my type.
I just dissed.
You looked like my brother.
So I didn't want another.
A mistake
my heart you would just break.
Real love you can't fake.
I didn't make myself available or saleable.
99.9% of Americans are stupid.
I know Ariel and a part of the 1% that isn't.
America is filled with drug addicts, homeless bums, perverts, ******, nuts, thieves, tramps, cons, ******, pimps, stalkers, greed, sin. ignorant, immoral, bad, cheating and low life people.
Who are liars, sick, mentally deranged, angry, crazy, *******, poor people.
European, English, British, Irish people
seem different, better, hard-working, proper, classy, distinguished, polite, considerate, thoughtful, moral, high class, honest, rich, intelligent, generous, caring, loving, good, modest, straight, wise, home owning, business managing, educated, family valued, sane people who are not corrupt or worldly.
Homebodies, farmers working class, civil, helpful, fearless, strong, nice, friendly and secure.
I hope to know some of them.
Get their luck of love and wealth.
A peaceful, quiet, happy home.
Of family & love & security.
Friends, money, fame, respect, loyalty, trust.
Land, bank, work, food, shelter, & clothes.
Shade from the Sun,
Warmth from the cold
A hand to hold.
Love to share with somebody who will care. Somebody to adore.
Who doesn't make me their *****.
Someone who gives me gifts.
One who doesn't just drift.
A guy who acts with swift.
One who puts me first.
Who never makes me feel the worst.
I want them to be number one.
Someone who's not dumb.
Not just together for the fun.
Not after a few years will be done.
One who will last forever.
One who is clever.
One who doesn't say never.