We are all connected.
The smell of chapstick & playdough.
Pillsbury Dough Boy has to go.

Tomorrow we will make a side trip.
Errands & appointments we can skip.
The right shade of purple & pink for my lips.

Some accessories are necessary.
The right heely shoes of styles so few.
Straight or wavy long hair.
About my appearance I always care.

I want to always look my best.
Hair, makeup, wardrobe, & all the rest.

To age older one day at a time.
Youth & my prime is no longer mine.

Liquid eyeliner to enhance & make finer.
Foundation to even the tone of my ****** skin.

Mascara for my lashes.
Finding clothes that matches.
Some eyeshadow for my lids.
Revealing jewelry where it's hid.

The swan promised me a destiny.
To marry what is left of me.
To love me with your whole heart.
A life together as a pair to embark.

At the lake moonlight dimly lightens.
A horizon white owls brighten.
The wolves howls at the moon.
It will be morning soon.
You can't see the stars in the afternoon.

Sunrise through cloudy skies.
The tears on my pillow dried.

Since the dawn of time.
Elements of creation are a mystery to find.

Gravity has a grounding power.
It's hold lasts more than 24 hours.

The sky, planet, & galaxy can not fall.
The universe is not that small.
A message is delivered to us all.
The blue jays sing their call.
Shadows move across the cabin walls.

The trees stand still.
As butterflies land on the windowsill.
Garden snakes & lizards slither underneath shrubs.
As I lounge in the hot water of the bathroom tub.

The constant cackling.
Absolute silence in this place is lacking.

Annoying laughter.
Never living in harmony everafter.

It's quiet time when I write & read.
A creative outlook arrange words I need.
To record a thought on paper.
Like my sister & how a molestor ***** her.
Or about deception or lack of trust.
Or of happiness, joy, & devotion.
A witch's hex in a mystical potion.

How crime touched our lives & ruined our childhoods & how the laughter bothers me in this neighborhood.
Even though laughing is good.
Sometimes I don't feel it even though I should.

My mind suffers bad memories.
Of parolled *** offenders with felonies.

Sometimes it can be rude.
Blunt & evil invades & intrudes.

I write & speak the whole truth.
From the past to my roots.

People say I have a way with words.
I never leave out a fact or something I heard.

Dad I loved you.
Your the only father I knew.
It should have been just us two.
Our memories are so few.

You showed me I could trust a tomcat or a puppy.
To pet him & make a buddy.
I still can't cook.
To find the right food.
Caravores are selfish, sick, & rude.

My vegan species is divided.
Separate dwellings unspecified are hided.
Recipes unconfided.

What is for lunch?
Besides rootbeer, cola, & fruit punch?

Is there no vegan chefs left?

Not enough vegan restaurants here.
Nothing close by or near.
To become extinct is something I fear.
Too many taverns with beer.
Vegan establishments this town & city needs to build.
In malls & shopping centers to be filled.

Vegans don't know where to look.
I want to write & publish a poetry book.
"Innocence Unattended" is my best work.

This table is taken.
What is the cafe making?
I will have a buttery croissant.
A chai latte is what I always want.

My daughter has always been my only real family.
We deserve respect.
But judgments is all we ever get.
Some faith on us no one will let.
For us to fail is what they all bet.
Her academics reflect.
Our credibility is what it affects.
A recommendation they still don't regret.
The schools & courts don't know I am what is in her best interest & always has been.
Just because I list my case & did not win.
To take a child away from a good mommy is their sin.

Broken hearts with paper they deliver.

To be labeled insane on court manuscripts is ridiculous.
Logic is something they entirely missed.
They need to give Karma a kiss.
Revenge crawls & may hiss.
The mediator, judge, & minors counsel, along with all the attorneys can drink serpent's ****.

They wasted half a year of my living expenses on their wages.
They didn't care at all about my declaration pages.

I passed the evaluation of my brain.
I took pointless parenting classes in the rain.

What they really believe is I am unfit because I am unmarried.
Ariel is my baby which I carried.

Nobody talks to me.
I am a loner as you can see.
To be my friend no one wants to be.
But that is okay.
I do my life my way.
I have a place to stay.

My cat identifies with my mind.
A true friend in him I find.

Light beams show rainbows it seems.
Shines on areas that are dim.
Holding hands with him.
Uglyiness sees no romance & gets no kisses.
Rejection ignores & disses.

Sadness & loneliness excel.
Hope & happiness lay broken where it fell.
Frustration alone still yells.
****** in this stench hole of hell.
Describes the story I always tell.
Never to understand.
This is like a ghost land.
Where civilization had been banned.

No friends....dwelling no where.
No people near....no family here.

Acres of space & empty dirt.
Above thee earth.
Not the last or the first.
Respect all life's births.
Hell is alot worse.
All species are equal but diverse.

Who is she?
That would have him propose on one knee.
Being single for two decades continues.
To meet the right person I had not yet knew.
Beautiful is not how I feel.
While alone & unhealed.
Outside through the window I see people in love together.
Inside these walls true live never occurred.
A fantasy dreamed is too blurred.

Anger is content.
It took up residence but don't pay rent.
It's presence dwells here in horror.
Evil growls....roars & howls.
A horrid stench so foul.

Heaven don't save the ******.
Pitchforks are not an olive branch.
In hell you don't get another chance.

No harps or halos it angel wings.
Only screams angel voices don't sing.

Your forced to learn your lesson.
A game you lost & can never win.

Depths of hell echo & haunt.
Obscenities expose & flaunt.
Blood splatters on the wall.
Where he killed my hamster & threw him to his fall
Like scenes from a haunted house.
Tears your skirt, shirt, dress or blouse.

Dictate your fate in a bottomless pit to fall.

Clackling devil hooves across the floor of stone.
Hammers to crush & break every bone.
Skulls decorate cave walls.
Horned red skin with an evil grin stands 7 feet tall.
Death, destruction, torture & corruption.
Hell that is what's it's about & all.

Pitchforks stab & slice.
Evil does what is not nice.

Not flame retardant.
Hell fire burns is how it is meant.

His sadistic nature needs to die.
For making me & my sister cry.

Evil & crime so predictable & stale.
Stupid how arrested suspects get bail.
Convicted when their victims tell.
Prison is where some stay & are jailed.
They have to communicate by mail.
Sometimes their focus goes in another direction.
Where probation happens after correction.

Child & spousal abuse, drug use, & rehab that is no use.
History repeats
Wives & children still get beat.

Their isn't always a Superman or Batman to be your hero.
With a sword or crossbow.

Details of armed robbery , drug dealing & smuggling.
Stabbings & muggings.
On the inside homosexual love with cuddling.
Human trafficking & prostitution.
Violating amendments & constitutions.

They are how they are from how they were raised.
If their victims could speak from the grave
Or had they been saved.
They could explain & describe how their rapists & killers behaved.

Male & females do their time.
Years in custody for their crimes.
Seriousness of their offenses vary.
Some educate, get jobs, or marry.
Behind bars is where violence belongs.
To be punished for all that they did wrong.

Some from death row are now dead.
Similar to the wildlife in a zoo behind bars they get fed.

Shriveled & shrunken.
Intoxicated & drunken.
Hung over & agitated.
Mild to moderate brain activity.
Common sense & basic reason lacks mental ability.
Bad with money & squanders financial stability.

Passing a psychological mental health evaluation not quite.
Kept in a straight jacket & sedated in isolation they do spit & bite.
They go through everyone's trash day & night.
They panhandle at the street lights.
They have tempers & pick fights.
Nothing they do is legal or right.

Slobs with no jobs.
They lack work ethics.
The sight & stench of them is sick.
They're sad story is lies & tricks.
Not a truth that sticks.

They cuss & their pocked face oozes ****.
Their frontal lobe is filled with dust.
About telling your teacher the truth they get homicidal & make a fuss.
They drive a ******* car consisting of smog & rust.
Getting arrested for 365 × 3 + 2 counts of child **** is never a bust.

Keep your children away from drunks.
Some drunks get violent, beat you & lock you on a trunk.
Most pedofiles & rapists are drinkers.
Not religious or moral thinkers.
With shingles, hpv virus, ****** & boyles.
Zero morals as hideous as an ugly *** gargoyle.

Enjoy arguing,  screams & shouts.
Daily drunk driving & behind the wheel blackouts.

The hex of unwanted ***.
A curse never to publish a verse.
My songs uncomposed. & unrecorded. Undiscovered written talent unread.
Thousands undelivered & never said.
My manuscript hidden in a box under my bed.
Sometimes think through my head.
Putting words to music to produce.
Express a message of simple use.
Rap, hip hop, pop, country, or rock.
At concerts people huddle like a flock.
The doors & entranced are locked.
This a reason why I have never been to a concert & I never will.
It ain't that chill.
Herded like sheeps & lambs.
No parking only traffic jams.
Noise & screams reach the rooftops.
Elevates levels of hysteria.
Silence is something I now miss.
Calmness & tranquility no longer exists.

The lens of the camera shutters.
Paparazzi mutters & shouts, camera crews clutter.
Screaming your name.
In awe of your presence.
To get a piece of your famed essence.
Magazine photo shoots you for the cover.
Photographers stare & hover.
Fashion photography or obscene *******.
Best eyes, best hair, best clothes or best bare.
Best lips or best hips.
Fashion victims & icon vixens.
Dressing room trailers for hair, makeup, & wardrobe.
Traveling for pictures circling the globe.
From actresses to recording artists, producers & directors.
From television & big screen projectors.
Velvet, lace, silk, or satin?
For divas white, black, or latin.
A flowing gown with fans all around.
A populated town with limos surround.
Hands, feet, & autographs splash with rain.
Thee walk of fame on it has your name.
Your aura has potential & appeal.
To worship, adore & kneel.
A red carpets beneath your heels.
Life,  fame, success, wealth is unreal.
Happiness & joy you can feel.

Your fake concern.
Your lying heart I had unfortunately had to learn.
Your cheating ways how it cut & burn.
My trusting chance you wasted.
My sweetness for a moment you tasted.
My broken heart can't be taped, glued, or pasted.
For a while you have become a permanent ***.
Holding up signs at an intersection don't get my pity.
Not here or in any other city.
Our "relationship" was like a play.
You just used me so your miserable *** could have a lay.
With you I never wanted to live with or stay.
I promise in the end karma will pay.
Be presentable, admirable, & commendable.
Independent, & capable.
Not needy & dependant.
Pay your own mortgage or rent.
Be far enough away so I can't smell your odor.
Deodorant, soap, & cologne is not expensive.
Use toothpaste, mouthwash, & a razor to be nice.
Wash, shave, & brush so you don't get lice.
Your a stench & a disease
I would never touch, embrace, or squeeze.
You will forever be a two timing ******.
Your ticket punched.
A non productive drunk.
Your whole life is a problem unshrunken.
No thanks with you I wouldn't eat lunch.
I have lost my appetite.
Your a eye sore in my sight.
Now that your homeless, old, ugly, diseased, stench of liquor & tobacco, & unemployed.
Your status is void.
Who are your prospects?  
Who would want to be with you?
Not me.

A wanted & desired presence.
A warm soft baby hand.
Big baby eyes.
Chubby cheeks with a personality so meek.
A precious soul to complete your life whole.
Babyfood in a bowl.
Let's go to the park with others.
So if we are together or not people won't wonder.
Impatience is driven.
Of how you visualize living.
Creating your own vision.
Happiness, peace, & love you envision.
An existence chosen.
An occupation worked & you got paid.
To finance a home we stayed.
A tax return brings opportunity of independence.
So living with "mommy" is no longer a dependence.
My own things is what dollars bring.
An oven, a stove, a refrigerator, a bed/futon, a closet, a toilet, a tub, a faucet, a sink, blinds, & a carpet.
All things that aren't broken & work.
My own food, toaster, pots, pans, cups, & plates.
I want to stay inside.
Sit here, write, watch DVDs & hide.
To the paper with my pen my feellings confide.
A bigger online world opens wide.
The internet cultivates while hope waits.

Playing games
In your childhood seemed the same.
My disowned parent is who I blame.
For the next bad thing that came.

I used to be happy & sweet.
Until "mommy" introduced us to a stranger to meet
There is no justice on the street.
Police never arrested him after everyone he tortured, *****, & beat.

For the yard a tree swing,
Joy & excitement is what that brings.

I have inside knowledge with insight.
The true meaning of fear & fright.
The difference between wrong & right.

My past ruins my future & damns the present.
In my life one by one enemies are sent.
To **** joy & make me their toy.
To ****** every girl & boy.

I hate the house where I grew up.
Bad memories invade & erupt.
Sickness spreads & corrupts.

Never trust everyone in this world.
On it's finger evil twirled.

Generous & giving.
To me I she will be out living.
Probably by more than twenty years.
I have my paranoia & fears.
I wish us never to die or age.
To earn more than minimum wage.

Delicate, fragile hearts still beating.
A will to live is undefeating.
Kind, sweet, innocent, pure, & golden.
A life, birthed, loved, & chosen.
A protected memory shielded frozen.

Letters of hoping remain unopened.
Unhealing & never coping.
Trauma & damage, somehow we will manage.

Burning passion melts the ice from my rage.
Feelings go unsaid.
Words written erased & unread.
Warm in our beds resting our heads.
Stress weighs on my heart like lead.
Sometimes we go unfed.
My love or *** or is never wed.

Grains of sand fall through the cracks.
Gritty & hot between your toes.
Squishy & mushy in the salty water.
Waves crash forward one after another.
During the winter & the summer.
The rocks near the shore have seagulls.
They are waiting for the fish.
Their silent daily wish.

At the beach it was just us two.
I couldn't are anyone else there I knew.
The color of the water was green & blue.

The ghost voice speaks, but can it see?
La Jolla Cliffs is haunted.
On video tape in 2008 I recorded it's voice that taunted.
Then it said ' Ha ha, I found you".
Spooky right? It wasn't like Casper saying "boo".

It said " Ariel come closer".
It's like it chose her.

Seashells wash up on the shore.
Like little presents from the sea floor.
The relentless sun bakes your flesh.
Sunblock or sunscreen works the best.
Feeling thirsty to drink some ice water.
Under the shade from the trees just me & my daughter.

Repel & bind evil you find.
Forsake & return everything it takes.
When thee earth crumbles & quakes.
It makes it's presence known.
Sometimes it even calls you on the phone.
Never trust a cheater.
Don't marry a wife beater.
Stay away from the perverts.
Psych wards is where they medicate the berserk.

Shun your eyes from their exposure.
Regain your calm composure.

Don't bargain or compromise.
Death's eternity without pity & no where to hide.
Justice juristiction is wide.
In the end they will get their demise.
See the truth through their lies.
Use all of your mind & be wise.

Don't waste your time with the queer.
Listen & have a good ear.
You can hear them talk through the walls.
Behind the doors in the bathroom stalls.
Various messengers deliver a warning.

The streets will be flooded.
The grass & dirt mudded.

Don't entertain the boring.
All night until the morning..
Outside the rain will be pouring.

One day your there the next day your not.
My life hasn't been how I had thought.
I remember everything for me you had taught.
For us not much you ever bought.
Our ****** you never fought.
Growing up we didn't really have alot.
In the grave pedofiles need to rot.
Everything I seek I have sought.

Because of the events that transpired I loathe.
From then on I always slept in clothes.
Do few photos together we had posed.
I remember naps daily you would doze.
Like a thorned rose resentment froze.

You were always proud of us.
Even though for years we took the bus.

You were my only real dad.
The times we had shared made me glad.
Your death in 2009 made me sad.
In the past things happened to us that were bad.
At least until age 10 for us a Dad we had.
"Mom" divorcing you made us mad.
Child molestor wore a flannel shirt of plaid.

I am always aware of who is out there.
Who doesn't & do really care.
Stalkers that lurk & stare.
People who are loyal, honest. & fair.
Beauty in the length of your hair.
Attention, affection, protection. & correction.
Traits to have to be a good husband or a dad.

Don't ignore every *****,
Who appears fully clothed at your door.
Single & independent.
A 1 bedroom vacancy for a tenant.
My own place...
Gets us to home base.
Four decades living with "mom" what a waste.
Freedom.....you should have a taste.
Always use mouthwash & toothpaste.

If your desire is to impress people.
From the smart to the feeble.
Old, young, female, or male.
Look & smell your best so they don't bail.
You don't want relationships to get stale.
On Amazon I always order stuff through the mail.

Your eyes linger in my direction a moment too long
The feelings I feel for you are wrong.
I am thirteen years older.
You were three when I graduated high school.
Twenty years later I could be as old as your mom.
In school my senior year I never had a prom.
In class like at work I am no one anyone likes.
Even though I am straight & not a ****.
I guess to me males aren't attracted.
They treat me like waste that's been extracted.
On the phone or Facebook I am never contacted.
Disgust, loathing, & rejection is how it's reacted.
Never be someone's *****.
To scratch their needy itch.
Be the boss of yourself today & make the switch.
Work ethics were bended.
Selfishness from a user needing rides we both tended.
Charming, friendly, & admiration isn't mended.
Complaints about me is what you sended.
Enemies in the workplace who vandalized your Ford focus you befriended.
Your dark brown eyes look offended.
Toward me a favor or compliment is never lended.
Politeness & sincerity is just pretended.

Through the desert on the clouds we fly with your angel wings to carry me by.
Am I still alive or did I die?
Did my daughter or Co worker's even cry?
Since they are my only family & friends.

Death is not a free release.
It is a bump in the road or a crack in the street.
Protect life & shelter yourself from harm.
Embrace your healing with your arm.
Your a guardian from the stars & clouds.
A presence ghostly & quiet & never loud.

A luck for you as my guide.
Survival is what we tried.
A princess of the sky like royalty.
Through the stars & moon.
You glow throughout the room.
Strength & loyalty.

I am blessed with your essence.
A sweet majestic presence.
Mystical & ethical.
Miracleous & magical.
I praise your power & ability.

What rhymes with forgiveness?
Death's kiss....torment of hell's eternal bliss.
She walks beside me, my darker side.
A duel person a shadow divides.
Traveling in the same direction with a parallel flow.
My shadow like a carbon copy of my spirit.
But less transparent & hollow.
Quietly it follows.
We are a team an essence through light.
Like fog or steam the silouhette doesn't gleam.
Passing cars change it's angle.
The image abscurred & mangled.
Darkness entangles.
Creepiness chokes & strangles.
My consicous mind out of my body.
Hovers above my bed like astro projection.
In a life after your dead.
You can't escape death.
Live your life until your last breath.
Children are sacred should never die.
My daughter is precious I would give my life for her.
It doesn't matter how much you have in cash.
You can't buy back your life in dollars or cents.
Your whole life you work to pay rent.
Death is sudden, life is gone in a flash.

Dishonest & Untrue.
Breaking hearts is what you do.
The right guy is so far & few.
Commitments is not something they knew.

Who is me?
A transparency & essence you can see.
Feel & touch me you will see I am real.
My voice chooses words.
None of which you really ever heard.
Our time for you of us together is blurred.
When your drunk your speech is slurred.
Flashbacks & nightmares.
*** with people that don't truly care.

A devotion with pure emotion of promise is unfamiliar.
Cheater's mistakes are so similar.
My eyes see who you really wish to be.
To be okay, if you sleep over & stay.
Yesterday, tomorrow, & after this day.

My ears hear, the truth has no fear.
Food for the hunger.
What is for dinner? I really wonder.

I wish to avoid dying the one true mortal death.
A human woman of mankind of a mortal shell.
Captivate a miracle power to immortalize.
Thee entire living enterprise.
To seek & find eternal life.
To never die & become a wife.
A true love of happiness unbitter.
Our's is a destiny lived so much bigger.
A blessed union will deliver.

Our bodies to always be present.
A future never to resent.
A cycle to always pay rent.

To shield from death & peace never to rest.
Living each & every day.
To be free & always stay that way.
Banish death & nourish to nurture life.
Never to leave or miss.
A life immortal is holy bliss.
Never dying with a loving kiss.
A presence this earth to forever exist.
Is my only true & real wish.

I love her with my whole heart.
The old broken hunchback can never keep us apart.
My daughter is a perfect creation from the start.
A sacred soul to teach, protect & love.
Descended from heaven to dwell below from above.
Precious earthly energy, breathing & alive.

Tell me you love me & mean it.
Prove your promise with a commitment.
A husband should provide.
A privacy to hide.
Our best interest is not to go or leave.
To stay put & conceive your seed.
*** will fulfill it's need.
Calculated no mistakes.
Give what you take.
Fix what you break.

Nothing or no one is secure.
My daughter remains untouched & pure.
I don't know what I will do if any perverted, soulless, & mindless ever defiled, ***** her, or molested.
My sanity would be tested.

A cosmic joke.
What is a yoke?

Inside everybody is a miracle being.
Guardian angels are present.

People trepass through these grounds.
Rapists are all around.
These doors don't lock you will resent it.
The gates are broken.

Sometimes the universe sends us spirit guides.
To fulfill our destiny.
They appear as animals like a white horse.
Or speak to us as small children to keep us on course.

She did nothing as he ***** us.
She did nothing as he murdered the neighbor's dog.
She did nothing as he whipped us.
He drugged us & knocked us out.
He ***** us & tried to **** us
The torture & torment.
He got away with it all is how that went.
The gun "mama' got him was for his own protection.
I still remember I have recoalition.

So he had it everytime someone called the cops.

It would be in his left hand behind the open door.

Law enforcement knew nothing & still don't.

It was 1988 to 1991.
The sick ******* had his fun.

Now "mother" just lays in a puddle of ****.
I am sure the past is not something anyone would want to live over or miss.
Everyday all day with no ambition or goals.

The filth & stench surround her.
Nothing beautiful or eye pleasing.
Just stale air & wheezing.

She is almost 80 & she doesn't care how she looks, smells, or feels.
The same with her house.

The only time she felt he had to go was when he threw a knive at "my brother".
After all that I no longer wanted her as a "mother",
I disowned then all by changing my name in 2008.
To control my own destiny & dictate my own fate.
Choose myself who I do or don't want to date.

He put alcohol in our drinks.
As minors so we could not be concisous to consent or think .

A disgust I could not stand.
He made me carry their dead bodies by the handful to the toilet to flush with my bare hands.
He kept dead fish in the freezer.

I was 12 & my sister was 9.
As children with my dad we grew up fine.
Until the day my "mom" kicked him out he lived in his van.
Then she decided to move in a child molestor man.

If we were out with our friends after 5:00 he beat with his belt.
Abuse, fear, & hatred is what we felt.
He disrespected, abused, & ***** us.
He was an infectious disease he did as he pleased.
My sister told her teacher.
The police or paramedic never did reach her.
She died several times.
She is still alive....us he has not returned to find.
I couldn't save her she was 9 & I was 12.
He told me if I tried to save her the same thing would happen to me.
He tied "my brother" to a chair.
With a rag over his face he poured water there.
I think he tied, gagged, & locked "mom" in a closet where she peed herself for I don't know how long.
He said she was at work but her purse was still there so something seemed wrong.

"My sister" he spent hours punishing her by strangulation & recessesiation repeatedly because he is sick.
No body wanted his ****.
He strangled & killed the dog next door.
For the next three years or more.
All three of us became his *** slave "******".
"Mom" got him a loaded gun even though we were poor.
He would **** on our toothbrushes.
As soon as we fell asleep to **** us to our beds he rushes.
He would spit in our cereal.
It was unbelievable.
Abuse & evil inconceivable.

Dangerous damage uncontrolled.
Cloaked invisible & unwhole.
Hours wasted turned into days.
Strength to protect.
Regrets confidence can't let.
Degraded & hated.
Sadistic & overrated.
Real fragile feeling.
Broken shattered lives still healing.
Summoned evil & unearthed a demon.
Void of sense, logic, & reason.

Damaged & broken.
It was my throat the devil man was choking.
My words are true of that I am never joking.

A delicate & fragile child.
Abuse suffered & never recovered.
Cursed never to marry a significant other.

No one hears my screams.
No one can cleanse my body clean.
To return what was taken & make it pure.
To shield & create & patent it's cure.
To make me as I am & were.

Waiting to get paid so we can be fed.

No to care.
It is not fair.
That for me no one is out there.

Bored, neglected, & ignored.
Bitterness & conclusion is stored.
Show me who is boss.
Marry me no matter what the cost.
Make a promise about me you will forever care.
To stay in my life & always be there.

Everything about you I could know I already learned.
I have noticed your concern.
Too much sunshine my skin will burn.
You have become my sole attraction.
There is competition.
A minor distraction.
In the end I will get your reaction.

Good luck charms...
Wrap around me your arm.
My love is disarmed.
By your presence my senses are alarmed.
You are handsome, tall, & strong.
I am completely seduced by your charm.
I see trust in his eyes.
An intelligent mind that is wise.
His smile enchants & I am mesmerized.
An image like the light of the first sunrise.
Magical & sacred.
Blessed & without hatred.
You are absolutely the best.
You pass the test.
My mind relaxes & my fears put to rest.

Windows with no holes in the screens.
Countertops & tables surfaces that are clean.
Sinks with no ***** dishes.
My own bedroom & refrigerator to put whatever we wishes.
Our own closet with a security deposit.
Without dust or mold.
No cobwebs clinging in the heatless cold.
An oven that works with a toilet that flushes.
With maintenance that rushes.
A fridge that don't leak.
A bed that don't creak.
A household that is organized, clean, & neat.
Trash taken out daily & never overflowing.
Spacious & roomy with people adoring.
Without mold, stench nats, or ants.
Nothing to complain about rave or rant.
To be able to have a friend over.
To have a clean bath tub for my body to get washed.
To be in charge & be my own boss.
Head if the house with my own address.

A moment to savor that froze.
No foul stench up my nose.

In the salty sea air,
Waves are crashing loudly over there.
Only less than 30 minutes in the sun.
So we don't get sunburned.
A sad lesson we already learned.
To avoid premature aging & heat stroke.
Dehydration is not a joke.
The beach is beautiful for a moment.
But don't be there all day.
Or you will age more older in a day.
I try to preserve my youth.
A photograph will last.
It can capture the past.
A daily view from a window.
Is a wealth I wouldn't know.
Whining seagulls glide across the surface of the water.
Getting her feet wet at the shoreline is my daughter.
Going down the boardwalk on her scooter.
At ten years old could she be any cuter.
It has been over twenty years for a marriage I still wait.
At thirty seven I'd it too late.
I have never even been on a real date.
To be a couple I guess is not my destiny or fate.
To forever remain single is definately a curse.
The wind whispers it could be worse.

His soft, warm lips.....
With his hands on my hips.
Holding hands & making plans.
A fantasy of a desire unsatisfied.
Words untold with thoughts that lied.
A secure embrace...
A man with an unseen face.
A touch you can't erase.
Mysterious insecurity...
Shameless fear & uncertainty.

Our eyes meet.
Our intentions are not discreet.
We **** ice cubes in the summer heat.
Breakfast toast on rye & not wheat.
I fantasize he'll propose at my feet.
To live in a home never messy & always neat.
I write with my pen & take a seat.

Misunderstandings in the candlelight.
A conversation without a fight.
Honest & truth in your love at night.
He kissed my lips in the moonlight.
Reality is not what it seems the day is bright.
I awaken from my dream in the morning light.

His brown hair uncut & fair.
He knows I am there.
Because at him I always stare.
I wonder if he ever imagines how I appear bare.
About my nakedness would he even care?
Someone to trust who I he would never try to scare.
To be bold enough to kiss me would he even dare?

A desire for his love burns so hot.
As sweet as a sugared gum drop.
A cursed rejection so real it rots.
A dream only a nightmare could stop.
An ending with snap, crackle. & pop.
The floor has flooded again, where is the mop?
In the workplace or after in the parking lot.
We deserve all that we got.
Food or presents to imagine he bought.
To visualize it by thinking the thought.
To share his bed & never again sleep on a cot.
A story to tell about with a twisted plot.

A composition so well crafted.
In it's first & second drafted.
A  Masterpiece of letters form words.
None of which you really read or heard.

Maybe someday in music or a song.
My poetry will be loved & belong.

A connection unfolds and is not lost.
My dignity would be all it would cost.

He ignores my words.
They never reach his ears.
He turns his back on me.
Without no apology.

The trees hide whispering birds.
Karma on your car lands a ****.
Through the cloudy skies they steer.
Like little tiny specks on the horizon you see.
Shapes of signs from zodiac astrology.

A friendship never formed.
Sheltered from the unpredicted storm.
A family still unborn.
Independent & private in a dorm.
No one generation is mourned.

A perfect formation
Sacred & purposely placed in this nation.
A face unknown.
Homeless without a number for a phone.
Harmless it freely roams.

A past corrupted.
Innocence & happiness is interrupted.
Evil & sin in this house has erupted.

Justice does not protect & serve.
Criminals never get the incarceration they deserve.
To do unspeakable crimes they have the nerve.

In Mexico....
To be some perverts ***.
Unreported child *** crimes bestow.
Law enforcement will never know.

Low priority cases never made it to the Hall of Justice.
Uncredible witness unrecommended.
My custodial declarations untrusted.

Too many  crimes to count on two hands with fingers of five.
Low lives with cheated wives.
In jails they are still alive.
The queen bee of their hive.

A trust destroyed & betrayed.
A little girls self-esteem frazzled & frayed.
In danger she stayed.
Clueless friends with daily she played.
In my bed at night beside me his sickness laid.
To sell my *** so he could get paid.

My heart had a murmur.
My ***** had a tumor.

Your image is pleasing to my eyes.
I don't believe any of your lies.
Mama has always lived in a filthy sty.
Feeds us only butter on rye.

Nothing more but always less.
Ariel & I deserve everything that is the best.

My psychological evaluation was normal.
A haunting vision of the paranormal.
Words that lie.
With baby eyes that cry.
A weeping willow beside me on my pillow.
A room to feel safe.
With you when I am alone no one can replace.
I already know you I saw your face.

Attraction so savage like a vicious hound.
Can I trust you to be around?
Betray me once & another chance won't be found.
Not desperate or on the rebound.

Rain clouds with thunder that's loud.
Snow fall with snowflakes for all.
Sun rays through lazy days.
A chilly breeze across a still horizon.
Sunsets in the evening.
Promise you won't be leaving.
The early morning sunrise.
Through lonely misty dew foggy skies.
The mountain tops with frosty drops.
Sparkles & glitters for all the first critters.
A creepy cave a on hillside.
The shoreline cove open wide.
Seagulls whine & hide on the missed.
Never to forget.
Everything destined not to let.
Threads so transparent & fine.
Through fabrics of time.
His lips I long to kiss.
A silhouette shadow tall & with form.
A faded desire perfect & undeformed.
A sliver of hope he may be back.
Eye contact & a caress that lacks.
My bottle in the seas casts an ungranted wish.
True love my life has untouched & missed.

Impossible miracle.
To bring the dead back to life.
To be a Saint.
A miracle worker.
To me you never talk.
People believe I only stalk.
There have been misconceptions.
Lies & rumors of deception.
People don't really know me.
You can change your mood.
Choose to conversate & not be rude.
The family I disowned continues to intrude.
They only see what they want to see.
Their habits conflict with my moral values.
I wasted my love on alot of mistakes.
I won't waste another minute while I am awake.
Spending my time being productive.
To be happy & loved everyday I live.
Insanity is not in my mind.
Nobody ever really looks for it to find.
Nobody ever devoted their time.
To a living commitment to be mine.
Just because I suffered ****** trauma.
Doesn't automatically mean I have psychological drama.

A ghost voice has spoken.
The key is to use the token.
An invisible shield.
A sign to stop or yield.
Caution of the crosswalk.
Ignore the beggar's talk.
Focus on your destination.
Along your path to avoid devastation.
Use common sense & use safety.
Have a buddy system.
To a friend you should listen.
Beware & be aware of your surroundings.
When you drive don't speed.
Devise a plan & take the lead.
A certificate in the mail.
A person to know.
A family to grow.
Wings or halos.
Without horns or tails.
Male or female.
An image two of the same.
D.N.A. is your mark to carry your name.
Your ***** is your seed.
Never drink, or do drugs, or smoke ****.

An old heart unused & rusted.
A sinister mind ignored & untrusted.
Don't turn your back on evil.
Your instincts is to trust what you feel.
Use your eyes to detect who is wise.
Use your mind to search for love to find.
Use your heart to become someone's sweetheart.
Use your voice to make your own choice.
Use your ears to lead a path you steer.
Use your nose to attract who you chose.
Use all your senses to dissolve your fearless fences.
Value your original thought.
Cursive is no longer taught.
Happiness is a joy for a girl & a boy.
Respect is not a persuasion.
Self-esteem to let your aura gleam.
Anger is hatred with steam.
Peace is your soul's release.
Suicide is not a lesson.
Loneliness is depression.
Strength in yourself you have to find.
Fear is a weakness of a feeble mind.
Love is a feeling of admiration.

The moonlight shines through the trees.
Like a mysterious treasure released.
Our existence fails to cease.
My Feelings are at peace.
Unshattered & undeceased.
Beautiful memories unfading.
My tearful eyes keep waiting.
Uncertainty of a connecting future.
A broken heart is neglecting.
True love needs correcting.
The moon casts a glow.
Through spooky shadows we all know.
In the chilly air being with a guy to care.
With a concern & stare.
Just knowing you are there.
Acknowledge my essence,
with a diamond for a present.

Enter at your own risk.
Into an unknown abyss.
Seduction of the sun kiss.
An ungranted wish.
Fate with a twist.
Darkness shadows, echos fades.
You I want to follow.
A choice I made.
A occupy my time.
Gather my thoughts.
Be greatful for what's mine.
Reflect on what I bought.
Music draws me in to bind unfought through each chime.
Coldness clings to the voice that sings.
Fear & haunting is not what it brings.
Intriguing & capitvating trapped in a hypnotic trance.
Irresistable & unescapeable ****** in.
In a personal bubble. I fall & tumble.
A uncontrollable cycle.
I trip & stumble. Without bearing or direction.
I chose a path with further neglection.
Without a guide.
My heart openwide.
My uncertainity subsides.
Through the foggy light I glide.
Parallal to default to seek what I sought.
Senseless relent it was there I was sent.
Calling me to it.
Fragmented bit by bit. Reforming a whole to the other side. Teleported through a watery tide. Plasma fluid like sewage.

Explore who we adore. Implore a devotion.
Not an unheard of notion.
Just pure emotion.
***** gives you the blues.
Alcohol is flammable & doesn't freeze.
It ruins your liver with ease.
Another shot of whisky, "please".
Refuse to self abuse.
Just brings bad news.
Choose to confuse my muse to amuse.
Tattoos can't be washed off with shampoo.
No use with your lame excuse.
Nice try.
Lost your shoes on a cruise?
What else is new?
Santa cruz or peru? How is the view?
Transfuse but do not misuse.
An olive branch was the tool.
It was what you drew.
An art to accuse.

A Shock from reading alfred hitchcock.
Is it true a shrine displaying the brain of albert einstein?
I feel so revived when I wear chanel #5.
Titanic created chaos, confusion & panic.
The white house is where the president Is a four year resident.
Christina aguilera wears mascara.
Madonna doesn't smoke marijuana.
Cher has beautiful hair.
Vivian leigh can scream as loud as a banshee.
I never met marilyn monroe I would have wanted to say hello.

Climbed a mountain to reach a fountain.
Shivered from getting drenched in an ice cold river.
The pond past a hill to a field beyond.
Great emotion from an image of the ocean.
Sprained an ankle.
Eatting dessert don't hurt.
Oared a canoe to peru.
Guaranteed a jet ski.
Everyday we snow sleigh.
In june one afternoon.
Went up 1000 feet in a hot air balloon.
On friday night we ice skate.
We went to reno.
To gamble at the casinos.

Fiction in the kitchen.
Claire & Blaire were aware of the mean stare.
They swear it was there.
She cared about despair.
She said a silent prayer.
She declared how it was unfair
& dared their unwillingness to compare
to share it is rare,
To have an explict affair anywhere.
To avoid rude glares.
Tempers flared.
Try to prepare to fix & repair.
Does pierre have some tools to spare?
The pair went to the shopping square.
They to the mare.
At farmer's market got some pears.
And did there nails & hair.
Let's have a seat in this here wicker chair.
What a cute teddy bear.
Her dress had a tare.
Her cheek a tear.
What should she wear?

Crush

He said blondes aren't his type.
Invisible tears I wipe.
A love not yet ripe.
I mope & gripe.
Sorrow takes flight.
To a higher level of height.

I am in control of my own soul.
It is my goal to keep it whole.
Within the hour all my power will devour.
Turn the world sour.
I need to bathe & shower with flowers.
I strayed far away to a place that portrayed to betray today.
I don't pray to any gods.
Animals are who I obey.
Telepathically their wishes are conveyed.
Furry friends are holy vessels.
I like to hug, kiss, pet, & nestle.
Everyday to anyone's dismay.
My love & affection for animals is always on display.
Without delay.
Earth is where they should stay.
To be a mother & a father not sent to slaughter.
Not breeded.
Just food & water.
Until I am old & grey.
I got caught about forgetting a lot.
Yesterday I had nothing to say.
An old foaggie went too a buffet.
He was not okay his toupee fell on his tray.
He was not happy or gay.
Everyone said "hey"

My goal was to prevent war.
Not to go on anymore.
To explore the peace corp.
Don't ignore who you adore.
I was known as a diva.
The wild, alluring achiever.
On stage I danced in a cage.
My career was made.
Every night I would parade the audience always paid.
Lap dances I would never engage.
To their relentless rage.
It is a fact you won't see in my contract.
Because of my young age I received A higher wage.

Western dental trys to be gentle.
By acting sentimental.
I am too judgmental.
It's just coincidental.
My teeth are not expertimental.
That's typical.
What's the hype?
It's all stereotype.
Don't just let me laugh on your behalf.
Your dental staff isn't worth half.
See I will make a graph.
Your payroll is down the hole.
Try to focus & maintain control of your objective goal.
Your career is over this year.
I am.
Sincere is that all you fear?