I'm just going  
To hate                            tomorrow
                        ­                          So
                                    ­           Much...
Stupid *******.

                                                       ­                                  Why did you have to leave?
We were so close

                                                          ­                                  We were doing fine
But you ****** it up.

                                                            ­                               And you broke my heart.
                                               Thanks
                                                    So
   ­                                              Much.

I wish I was older.
I wish I was a little bit bolder.
I wish you were single.
I wish you'd come and mingle
With a single who wishes she was older.

Your eyes,
A light shade of blue.
You smile,
And butterflies flew.
My stomach twists
Every time you talked.
My face,
Turns red
Every time you turned your head
In my direction.
Adrenaline
Pumping through my veins
Every time we touched,
Every time we talked
And every time I got a thought,
Of you.
Now it's all changed,
The thought of remembering this brings me pain!
Will I ever be the same?

Strangers
I hardly knew you;
A guitarist,
A good singer,
A song writer
And Hannah's current boyfriend,
Was all I knew.
She'd dump you,
I knew it,
So I talked to you after the break up,
You were nothing special at the time,
So,
I moved on.
Didn't talk to you.

Becoming Friends
A few months later
When one of Hannah's friends
Was dating on of her ex's
I thought,
You were one of her ex's
And you were really nice and cute
Why not get to know you?
We shared random conversations on Facebook.
You were really funny.
So a number was given and texting happened.

Best friends
We texted everyday.
We enjoyed each other's company.
We had both needed a good friend to talk to.
And we got along great.
Perhaps a little too great.

Falling hard
I found myself liking you more and more
Each day.
Small jealously
When you talked about perhaps liking some new girl.
Secret joy
When she had been taken.
I knew I had a crush on you
And soon enough,
You did too.
But we established
A long distance relationship couldn't be made.
Too far apart,
In age and distance.
The tears that fell
Because of this
Made me realize,
You were making a big impact in my heart.
And I needed you.

More than friends
I'm not sure when,
But we started to not care about the things we established.
I met you
And before then,
We both knew how much
We liked each other.
Maybe we'd steal a kiss or two
When we met.
(I wish we did)
Meeting you,
Made me so nervous,
Yet extremely happy.
Heads were rested on shoulders,
Fore heads were kissed,
We became the cutest couple we knew.
Soon we decided this was love.

Broken up*
Three weeks,
I guess you didn't love me
Like you thought you did.
In fact,
You lied.
Saying you'd never stop loving me,
But you did.
I needed your love,
But now she does.
She needs you,
I need you,
But you only have room in your heart
For one love,
And that's her.
I wish you had waited,
Till you could see me;
Maybe there's a feeling still there
But you don't realize.
I want to see you
So maybe there is a feeling
The only hope I have
Even though you'd never take me back.
But I'd take you back
Any day
Any minute
Any second.
All's you'd have to do is ask,
Even though you never will.

Now you're all alone.
She left you,
Like you left me.

There's a hint or irony
And bad karma;
For the way you hurt me,
She hurt you.

Maybe you deserved it
Or maybe I just don't care.
I can have you now,
So why am I not chasing after you?

Maybe I'm waiting for the right moment...
Maybe I don't want to seem desperate..
Or maybe
I just want you to care enough
To make the first move.

Hold me tight,
Kiss me in the moonlight.

Caress my face,
Close in on my personal space.

Whisper in my ear,
Make all my fears disappear.

Play with my hair,
Tell me that you care.

Hold my hand,
Because I'm your biggest fan.

I never really cared for blue-eyed people.
Bright or pale;
A common color for the male or female.
But let my tell you a tale
Of a blued-eyed boy
Who never toyed with this green-eyed girl.
He put her head in a whirl.
Love is what they called it.

She'd look into those blue eyes;
The color she never cared for
But now she could never be bored
Of looking at these blue-eyed people,
Who were more abundant than she thought
Maybe they fought
For the same thing she was looking for;
The Love of a boy
Who wasn't the one to toy
With that green-eyed girl.

I finally cracked.
My world came crumbling down around me.
Finally.
And even with my loved ones around,
I'm still alone.

I pluck the dandelion from the ground.

A deep breath,
Wind blows the tiny seeds away
And I wish to be like them.

To fly free,
Being taking away
By the wind,
To strange
Yet beautiful places.

Where nothing matters;
No one worries about Love
No one worries about Hate

It's just me:
That floating dandelion seed.
That was blown away
Just by the very air you breathe.

Deep
Within the recesses of my
Being,
Is the young
Innocent girl
They used to know.

Deep
Within my
Mind
Are the
Thoughts,
I used to think
When I was young.

Deep,
Within my
Heart
Is what I used to
Feel
Before I met you.

But on
Top
Is a wild,
Bad,
More mature girl,
Daring to break the
Rules.

She's new in these parts.
She doesn't belong here.
This isn't what I'm used to.
Who does who think she is?
Waltzing in here,
Making me do things,
I used to never agree with.

Maybe this is apart of growing up,
Or maybe this is what crazy people do.

Either way,
I'm a bit scared.

I
                    Can't tell what you're holding back. Do you
Love
                    Me? Am I the only one who feels this way about
You . . .?
                    Is there some who you
Do
                    Love? Does she love you? Or is it
You
                    Who's afraid to confess his feelings. When you
Love
                    Someone, how long do you wait to let them know? With
Me
                    I've always loved you. But will you ever love me
Too?

I
                    Can't tell what you're holding back. Do you
Love
                    Me? Am I the only one who feels this way about
You . . .?
                    Is there some who you
Do
                    Love? Does she love you? Or is it
You
                    Who's afraid to confess his feelings. When you
Love
                    Someone, how long do you wait to let them know? With
Me
                    I've always loved you. But will you ever love me
Too?

I'm just a girl lost in dreams.

Dreams that can never be.
Dreams of things that aren't known.
Dreams of places unlike home.
Places you've never seen.

Dreams where the impossible happens.
Dreams where love is passion.

My dreams consist of things that could never be.
So why do I dream of things that cannot be?

The answer is simple;
You'll never get a zit or pimple;
You'll never be sad and alone,
Or desperately miss your home
In this place we call dreams
That always seem to be
An escape for mankind
Where you go places you'll never find.

I see you there in the distance.
You're broken,
Fallen in the dust.
I want to help
Even though
You
Left
Me
In the distance,
Fallen in the dust,
Not too long ago.

But you'd be there to help
Me
So I want to be there to help
You.

But you're falling hard.
I'm trying to catch you
But,
You don't notice my hand
Reaching out to help you.

You're hitting the ground
You're feeling hopeless
But if only you'd notice me there,
Trying to help
Even though,
I don't know how.

Go.
Just leave my mind.

I wish I never met you,
So I wouldn't have to hold back the tears now,
As I look at how she changed you.

Get the **** out
Of my heart!
You've over stayed your welcome.
I want you gone.
I wanna stop wasting my time loving you.
But I want you so badly.

I can't figure out how to get you out.
I can't tell you to go.
You've already seemed to have left on your own
But that boy who I fell for is still there.

He encourages me to stay.
He tells me I'll have him someday.
He tells me to keep striving.
He tells me it's going to be okay.
He tells me not to forget about him.

And it's not him who says it,
It's his personality,
It's his old words,
It's just him existing that tells me to hold on.

So who do I listen to?
The ******* who can't last forever?
Or the one I fell in Love with who must return someday?

You've made your way
Into my heart and Mind
And not matter how hard I try
You won't leave.

I wish I could back,
And be with that person
Who you used to be

I wish I could back,
To that December day,
When everything was perfectly okay.

I wish I could go back,
To that December evening,
Where the Love between us was just beginning.

I wish I could go back,
To that December week,
When you were so cute and meek.

I wish I could go back,
To that December month,
Where I found you, met you, and loved you a whole bunch.

I wish I could go back,
To the days before we talked,
So I could stop myself from talking to you,
So I wouldn't have to wish for the days,
Where you were the person I loved,
And not the person who I'm beginning loath.

It only you had been a little closer;
If only we stayed together a little longer;
If only she hadn't come along;
If only I was a little less nervous;
If only I had the courage to kiss you;
If only you could handle distance a little better,
Maybe we'd still be together

Maybe if that kiss happened,
You'd still love me.

I'd cross mountains,
Plains,
Ride trains,
Swim the seven seas,
Fly across the skies,
Run the distance,
Walk the length,
Drive on rough roads,
And to be completely frank,

I'd do anything to be with you.
I wonder if you'd do anything to be with me, too.

I'm not sure if you would,
That's okay,
As long as you let me stand by your side today,
It'll be worth it anyway.

[Misses]
I miss the way we used to talk.
I miss the way we both liked each other, but wouldn't fully admit it.
I miss how cute you were.
I miss the fact that you'd say something cuter than the day before.
I miss the fact that I wasn't just some girl you talk to every once in a while, I was like your number one.
I miss the cute questions you would ask.
I miss how we'd make each other blush.
I miss how we'd make each other nervous.
I miss how you'd stay up, just to talk to me.
I miss our 4 hour long phone conversations.
I miss how we said, "Lovers" instead of Love.
I miss how the age didn't bother us.
I miss how the distance didn't bother us.
I miss how we cuddled together.
I miss how it felt when you hugged me.
I miss your smile.
I miss the sound of your voice as you said those three words you'll never say again.
I miss how we became best friends then fell in love.
I miss the rush I felt when you told me you loved me.
I miss how excited you'd get to see drawings I did.
I miss listening to your song.
I miss how I could trust you so well.
I miss hearing you say you wouldn't stop loving me.
I miss how we would play truth for hours and have the craziest questions.
I miss having the feeling of safety just because I had you.
I miss the week from when I met you to when we started dating.
I miss the smile I'd get from talking to you.

[Hates]
I hate the fact that we've drifted apart.
I hate the fact that I didn't get to see you this time around.
I hate the fact that I'm afraid to talk to you.
I hate the fact that I don't even know what to say to you.
I hate the fact that you're so nice, I can never tell if you really mean what you say.
I hate the fact that I never kissed you.
I hate the fact that you never told me about her.
I hate the fact that you led me on.
I hate the fact that you never even loved me.
I hate the fact that you can't even tell what your own feelings are.
I hate the fact that you told me you'd wait three years.
I hate the fact that you pretty much lied.
I hate the fact that you can easily charm me.
I hate the fact that everyone thought we'd last so long.
I hate the fact that you couldn't even wait three weeks.
I hate the fact that I don't know if she's the reason.
I hate the fact that you only waited 3 days.
I hate the fact that you asked her.
I hate how you confuse me.
I hate how you broke my heart.
I hate the fact that I fell so hard.
I hate the fact that I love you.

[Loves]
But I love how you're giving me your sweatshirt.
I love the way you still want that bracelet.
I love the fact that you still want to be my friend.
I love the fact that you'll still visit me.
I love the fact that wouldn't change anything about me.
I love the fact that you opened up to me, and as far as I know, and only me.
I love the fact that you know you can talk to me about anything.
I love the fact that you give me advice...when it's about you.
I love the fact that you'll play along when I talk about, "Him" and you talk about, "him" too.
I love the fact that you still find a way to put up with me.
I love how you're considerate and won't boast about your new girlfriend.
I love how you still like me.
And I love the fact that you still call me, "***."

But
I'm falling
Deeper and deeper
Into a hole.

A hole that's called Love.
And I'm so scared.

I don't have you this time.
You're not going to catch me.
I'll fall deeper and deeper
Till I hit the ground and
I'll never be found.

My eyes well with tears
As I write
Of the sadness and sorrow
That fills my heart.

I'm not going to cry
I'll say
But to my dismay,
The tears come anyways.

I'm not going to cry.
I shout.
This isn't what falling in Love is about!

You're supposed to catch me,
Like in the books.
But she took away!
**** her!
I'll say!

I'm falling deeper and deeper
Hitting the ground.
Yet the only thing that shatters
Is something that really matters.

The thing you were supposed to save.
The thing you're supposed to steal.
But I don't even know how you feel.

So I'll fall deeper and deeper.
All alone.
Till you come,
And take me home.

I apologize,
For Loving you,
For Caring about you,
For ******* everything up,
For being so Stupid,
For ******* you off,
For causing you obvious irritation.
But did you accept my apology?
No.
Why?

Maybe you need to man up;
You need to realize it wasn't just me that made me fall for you;
It was you, too.
You've given me false feeling.
And it made me fall harder.
You have to accept that I desperately want to be apart of your life.
I want you to be happy, so badly.
But making this happen,
Is really making my life ****.
You need to start setting your feelings straight,
Rather than letting me think there's still feeling
When there isn't.

Tell me how it is,
Before it's too late.

I remember;

The way we used to talk.
The promises you made.
The sweet things you said,
That I'll always cherish.

I remember;
The cute crush you had
On a girl like me.

I remember;
The cute crush I had
On a boy like you.

I remember;
How you wanted to be with me,
And how you wanted to show me off
Because I was, "Your girl."

I remember;
How much you said you loved me,
How you said you would never leave me,
And how you said you'd never stop loving me.

I remember;
How you left me,
How you went on to her,
And how you broke your promises.

I remember;
The tears that fell,
The words that were said
And the apologies that were thrown around.

I remember,
My miserable weeks;
Feeling sad and alone
Because I had lost you,
And you wouldn't come back to me;
You wouldn't return my love.

But now I sit here and remember;
The things you said last night;
Those words in those texts.
You want me;
I want you;

I sit here and re-read those words in my head.
I said we both wanted each other
And you agreed.
So why you're still with her
Is a mystery to me.

I sit here and remember,
Those old nervous feelings on when we first met,
And I sit here and re-live them.

These nervous feelings of possibly sharing a kiss.

But now I sit here and think,
*It's more than sharing a kiss, that's making me nervous.

I think,
You're gone forever,
But then you come back.

I think,
We'll never be together
But then you'll speak your crap.

I think,
You're serious
About liking me still.

I think,
You're serious
About the ***

I think,
Maybe you'll be mine
In the years to come

I think,
It'll be okay.
But who knows?
Maybe I'm wrong.

I wish I could hold you in my arms again
I wish I could squeeze your hand in mine.
I wish I could look in your eyes
But maybe it's high time
I give up.

But I wish I could taste your mouth.
I wish I could feel the sensation of your touch.
I wish I could feel the rush
Of you looking me in the eyes
And telling me what gets me high.

I wish I could tell you this.
I wish I could make her leave
I wish you'd love me
I wish you would chase after me
I wish you would come and see me
But then it may not be
My specific dream.

Because I just wish I could hold you in my arms;
I wish I could squeeze your hand;
I wish I could taste your mouth
And feel the rush of your touch;
But maybe I'm hoping to much.
I know you'll be together for a long time
So why do I try?
Because
I just really wish you'd love me

I won't forget;
I'll always remember;
It'll never leave my mind.
It will always stay,
Even if it's to my dismay

Memory loss isn't possible;
My thoughts are unstoppable
When they consist of us two.
And that's why

I'll never forget you.

The worst happened.
You left.
And found someone else.
In less than a week.
You,
My best friend,
Broke my heart.
I was told
Not to talk to you
Anymore.
Told to forget about you.
Told that I didn't need you anymore.
I was going to say goodbye,
Considering how hurt I was.
Considering how royally ******* I was.
But it's just too hard.

You made a big impact on my life.
I can't think of one without you.
I've become too attached.
I've fallen too hard,
To just leave.
For you to just leave.

Your note to us was
A wake up call.
That I could be the one
Shoving you away.
But that's not what I wanted.
So,
I apologized for my
Ignorance.
I let my Anger
Cloud my original thoughts of you.

You're too good for me.
Though you still care,
And you still talk to me like you always have,
Which is all i need.
I'm sorry Dear.
Be happy with her as long as you like.

I miss you.
I love you.
And i want you to always be happy.
Even if it's without me.

The knife has been placed in your hand.

You look at me and know what will be done,
You'll know the tears I've shed,
You'll know the pain I'll feel,
You'll feel sorry for what you did.
You'll feel guilty, the way you led me on.
You'll feel like a thief for knowing what you've taken.
You'll see the hurt in my eyes every time we'll speak.
The disappointment.
The reality of it all
Scares you.

The knife has been placed in your hand.

And with all the bad you've already done,
You can't bring yourself to plunge it down,
Deep,
Into my core.
Where life begins
And where you've made all your sins.

Sometimes in life,
I pause where I stand and take a breath,
Forgetting about my sorrows and strife.
For once not fearing death.

Sometimes I live,
Like the seed of a tree,
Not needing to forget, or forgive,
Just flying around; free.

Sometimes I lie,
Just to get people off my back.
I'm feeling upset because of a guy,
But it's not like many people really give a crap.

Sometimes I cry,
Because I want to let out the stress I have
Over that one guy,
Who is just a chav.

Sometimes I smile
Because once in a great while,
He makes my happy
Even though at the same time he makes me life ******.

Sometimes I shake,
I can't handle what's really at stake;
Loosing someone like you,
Is something I can't live through.

Sometimes I want to scream;
You did break my heart
And I'm only happy in dreams,
Where we're not living worlds apart.

Sometimes I want to yell,
Because you feel compelled,
To keep secretes from me,
As if it'll keep from making bad memories.

Sometimes, I feel the pain
You caused with a knife,
Through my heart's vain's.
Nearly ending the meaning of my life.


And yet,
Somehow. . .


Somehow in life,
I pause where I sit,
Taking a breath, no longer feeling the knife,
Planted there by some twit.

I wish life was like the old days.
When Love was real
And Lust didn't exist.
When you'd communicate by love letters,
And not cell phones.
When a kiss on the hand meant so much.
When boys and girls didn't, "Hook up."
They just loved each other.
When parents didn't have to hate your boyfriend,
Because he wouldn't be an *******; He was a real gentleman.
He'd treat the girl right.
And then boy would ask the Father for permission to take the girl's hand in marriage.
It'd be wrong to steal a kiss or two but they might anyways
Man, I wish life was like the old days.

Our look of Innocence
Could be true
But we both want so much more
From each other

We never even stole one kiss,
But I can see more being
Stolen
In the future.
My innocence;
Your virtues.
Could they be gone,
So soon?

I can't be, "Just friends."
With you.
I don't think you could be with me
Either.

For me,
It's out of
Love.

For you,
Could it be out of
Lust?

I could know,
If you stole
More than just
My Heart.

You need to man up and face me,
Come and say good-bye to me,
If you hate me.

You need to man up and face me,
Come and tell me you care,
If I'm a Dear Friend.

You need to man up and face me,
Come and hug me and kiss me,
If you really feel bad because I love you so much.

You need to man up and face me,
Come and tell me we'll never be,
If you really don't like me.

You need to man up and face me,
Come and tell me you like me,
If that's even true.

You need to man up and face me,
And tell me the truth,
If I mean anything at all to you.

You need to man up face me,
Before I cry too much over you,
Before my heart is much too scared,
And I won't be able to move on.

You just need to man up and face me,
And tell me everything that I need to hear,
Whatever that is,
So, maybe, I can move on,
Leave you behind
But that seems so hard right now;
I don't think I could do it.
But,

If you maned up and faced me,
Maybe I could.

Please dear, you  know I
Love you, and that I need you.
Everything in my life has gone down hill,
As this bad luck
Streak persists.
Even though it all went bad, I was

Still happy I had you. But you've
Taken it away from me. Well, perhaps not completely.
Amorous activity kind of engaged, and
You said, "Maybe

It doesn't have to end."

Now
Everything has gotten a little better, yet I have this
Eerie-like feeling.
Do

You really still want me, just as much as you previously did?
Obviously, you still have feeling, but I'm
Unsure if its the exact same as before.

Music is a passion.
Not a describing word for your fashion.

Music is an escape,
To some other beautiful place.

Music is a form of expression,
That keeps you away from that depression.

For some people, it's an obsession,
But that doesn't give most a bad impression.

Music is a wondrous thing,
All it needs is a person to sing.

Music is a dream,
A piece of cloth, bursting at the seams.

It drives us to be who we are,
It drives us to go that far.

We walk the distance,
And run the length,
Of persistence.

All because of the melodies and notes;
The beats that play in our ears,
Those rhythms that wash away our fears.

My
                    Dear! My
Love
                    It is true. Love
Has
                    Returned to my mind.
Come
                    And see me, my dear. I've missed you so. Come
Back
                     And give me hugs. I want a kiss
And
                    Your sweatshirt. I want your love.
He's
                    So perfect. Perfect for me;
Here
                    I am, perfect for him. It won't take much
To
                    Get him to
Stay
                    I just want to be interesting, **** and fun
For
                     Him. I want
More
                    From him. I want more
Than
                    A kiss from him. I want
A
                    Relationship in the form that we have. Only a
Few
                   Weeks have passed. In only a matter of
Days
                   We've began a certain relationship that's put my brain in this haze.

I want a guy
To Love me.
I want a guy
Who caresses my face.
I want a guy
To hold me tight when I'm scared.
I want a guy
To call me Beautiful.
I want a guy
To hug me and tell me he never wants to let go.
I want a guy
Nothing like you.
So why,
Oh why,
Do I still want you?

One Boy
One Girl.

One healed heart.
One never been touched.

One new friend.
One new hoping-to-be-his-new-girlfriend.

One with a crush.
One in Love.

One with an interest.
One with none.

One in Love.
One already there.

One out of it.
One who still cares.

One with another.
One without.

One forgetting about her.
One can't live without him.

One maybe committing a sin.
One wishing to begin.

One losing interest.
One losing her appeal.

One not knowing how he feels.
One wanting to tell him everything.

One not caring;
One who wants to be daring.

One ignoring,
One's eyes full of tears.

One happy.
One will be sad for years.

Life was good.

I liked him.
He liked me.

He caught me
As I fell for him
We were in Love
Or at least I was.

Soon he grew distant
And I felt the pain of
Ignorance at times.
And then he finally admitted
He just wasn't in love
With me.

Dropped,
I was desperate to
Hang on.
Only being held by a hand.
I felt stronger
But I started to
Slip when she came along.

You caught this other girl,
Who must have fallen for you
And yet you never
Let go
Of me.

Or maybe you tried.
Though I still hung on.
Desperate
And
Heartbroke.
I need you now more than ever.
I hope you won't let go.
But now I seem to
Fear
The end of a friendship is
Near.

I wish for you to,
I hope you will,
I need you to
Hang on.

I'd be
Lost
Without you.

It's not an
Obsession.
I just
Love
Too much.
And I hope you
Understand that.

I'm desperate,
Dear,
For a good friend in my life.
Don't leave.
You almost left
With too much
Hurt before.
Please, don't do it again.

I still need
Your help,
In guiding me
Through this,

For it isn't over
Yet

I make an effort to rid you from my heart.
And it works quite well.
Though you still dominate my mind;
You're still a part of my soul.
You'll never be completely gone
For I don't want you to be.
Because I still day dream of the day
When we reunite
For I know it will happen someday,
So I'll wait.

Patience is Virtue
Something you once said.
So I take that to heart
And as a hint
To wait for the day
We meet again.

The petals have been plucked away.
Leaving only one left;
He loves me...
He loves me not...
The last one left
Makes it clear
That he no longer loves me.
As I guessed.
Yes, I should just accept it
Though it has made me a mess.

She sat on the pier,
Kicking her feet as they hung over the water;
Smiling,
Sarah looked at the sun setting
Oblivious
The young boy behind her.

Brendon,
His name,
Loved Sarah so.
But Sarah was off in her little world;
Unaware.
Smiling
Because she just didn't care.

Oblivious
To the
Obvious,
Sarah smiled as Brendon approached her,
A bright red blush blossomed on his cheeks,
He awkwardly sat beside her.

Formally normal,
He was a young kid
But after laying eyes upon her
Velvet lips,
And deep eyes
He knew that his Destiny
Lied
With her.

Every time I think about you,
I wish I could talk to you.
I wish I could call you,
Or text you,
Just to see how you are.
What are you up to?
How's your life?

I'll never know.

Do you still think about me?
Do you hate me?
Are you still annoyed with me?
Are you willing to still be friends?

I guess I'll never know.

What would happen if I spoke to you?
Would you ignore me?
Talk back, but not be happy about it?
Talk back because you want to?

I suppose I'll never know.

Do you ever miss me?
Do you think of me with a smile on your face?
Rather than a frown?
Do even remember my face?
Do you keep our memory?

I will just never know.

I'll never know,
Until I try,
To talk to you,
And see for myself.

I smile every time I think of the days we were happy together.
But then it disappears as quickly as it comes
Because I know you're happy with someone else now
Instead of me.

Sometimes,
My heart
Beats so hard,
That my shirt moves to the
Beat of the sound.

Sometimes,
My hands
Shake like crazy
When I await
Your reply.

Sometimes,
My cheeks
Feel as if they're
On fire
When I think about the things you
Used to say.

Sometimes,
I get really nervous
When I think I'm
Loosing you.

Sometimes,
I get so
Angry
When I think about how she's
Changed you.

Sometimes,
I wanna
Slap you
So you snap out of this *******
Trance.

Sometimes,
I want to cry
When I think about how you probably don't even
Care.

Sometimes,
I want to go back in
Time
So you could have never even been
There.

Really
      Just
          Wishing; [for]
              Hoping; [to get]
                  Wanting;
                      Craving;
                          Needing;
                              Him.

Thank you
For telling me you loved me.
Even though it turned out you didn't.

Thank you
For catching me
When I fell.

Thank you
For being a charming boy
And letting me fall into your arms.

Thank you
For teaching me what it's like to truly
Feel safe.

Thank you
For making me
Blush all of the time.

Thank you
For making me feel what a
Genuine smile feels like.

Thank you
For being the sweetest boy
I've ever met.

Thank you
For letting yourself be my
First Love

Thank you
For teaching me things about
Life.

Thank you
For doing all of that
Without realizing more than half of it.

Thank you
For being the
Greatest Mistake of my Life.