You used to cower at the smallest scent of trouble at your doors other side, and you'd run for the harbor to escape the land whenever storms headed ashore were soon to arive, not caring about what you'd leave behind or the people who wouldn't get a goodbye, suffering self-inflicted ruthless alienation every time fear found its way into the center of your mind, you'd kick and scream and swear you would die, just to put an end the terrors that only your eyes could find

You are doing better

i am in despair
withering in the cold depths of
passage of time
a trail left behind
with a winter to spare
and as i stare
into the memories
that never lay bare
a soul
i am reminded
how cold it must've been
to have a dream
when it wasn't yours

“Buying condolences again?
A free tract traded for a clean-cut crystal no doubt.
Set in a refurbished invention too.”

“A passer-by is nothing more
Than that it seems
No heart, no soul
No rhythm or greed to spur their empty chest.”

“To make a silver from a copper
Is good business as you well know.
To make a copper into gold
Is the work of a cheat.”

“Agonies are another’s obligation
Pain is the duty of the poor
Risk, is a mother’s transfiguration
Not life nor love nor wanting more
For indeed is life not overrated?
With all we see infatuated.”

“Just leave it to us
We’ll keep you cheap
So you’ll never need
To fall asleep.”

“Oh,
I just thought.
I will.”

If I had the privelage,
Of knowing your every thought,
I can only believe that I would cherish it.
We all see dark things,
Our minds are angry.
We all have nightmares.
But as long as we don't have to face them alone,
We will survive.

I just spoke with my mother,
She is helpful when she doesn't talk about me,
When she talks about me its on how funny I am that I mess up so easily,
On how funny my disability is,
On how funny it is that I don't get something that a "normal" kid would get,
On what a 9 year old gets and I don't,
On how much I can't do,
On telling me what I can't do because I can't adapt,
On telling me why I can't do something when I don't want to hear it because I always know why,
On what's basic knowledge of a 2 year old I still don't have,
So I talked to my mom today and I feel a lot better about myself.