How I think of this feeling
This so called happiness
I try to remember when was I like this?
It just doesn't seem
That it will happen again
Because they both are gone
And I mean dead
They were my rocks
To hold me up
I guess they still are
But this whole ghost thing is hard
I wish I believed that they could be there
I wish I knew how they felt
Where they are
Is it actually really hard
Because it seems like it's the only way out
But I have a family that loves me and that's no doubt
It just gets hard considering my past
But live for the future
And hope the happiness lasts

I can't think straight
My life is a mess
My mother's full of hate
It gives me much stress
My momma's in treatment
I'm in foster care
My daddy lives near me
But he's never there
What do I do?
In this small world
I just have to tough it through
It would help if I had you..

I can't think straight
My life is a mess
My mother's full of hate
It gives me much stress
My momma's in treatment
I'm in foster care
My daddy lives near me
But he's never there
What do I do?
In this small world
I just have to tough it through
It would help if I had you..

I feel so different
I just can't sleep
I feel so different
Because he's not with me
I made a mistake
My heart is dead
I just lay here
Alone
In my own bed
Hoping to die
Sad and alone
No reason to cry
Because nobody will know

Please pray for my uncle, he is in the hospital OD'ed right now

I may eat meat
But I can't help but think
Why would we do this
What if they turn on me?
We don't eat dogs
We don't eat cats
What's the difference between that
And a rat?
Someone please explain it to me
Why we eat animals
Just 'cause they're meat

You ever feel like you're always there
But then turn around and they don't even care?
Well that's just how the worlds gonna be
People may "love"
But all I see
Is the hidden pain
It never goes away
Just a dream of life
Doesn't even strive
They just expect it to come
As does the wind
But that's not how it works
For me I just might as well quit