When you look at me
I freeze
Caught in a moment unable to breathe
But then reality strikes like a punch in the stomach

When you look at me
You may be seeing
But the thoughts on your mind wander far beyond me

But still when you look at me
My heart pounds with hope
Hope that you might feel the same about me

But deep down I know
When you look at me
It's not with feeling
It's where your eyes have landed

But when you look at me
Can you not see
The feelings I express
In just one simple glance

I sit across from you
Holding my breath
Searching your face
Your eyes
For a sign

I have laid my cards at the table
Without any apology
Holding nothing back
Leaving myself
At your mercy

You can get up and walk away,
Stare me down into submission,
Hold my hand in empathy,
Or embrace me in acceptance
I am defenseless, vulnerable...

"We accept the love we think we deserve..."

Plunging feet first, head last
Immersing myself completely in your atmosphere
Impulsive,bold, and open
With no reservations, no pride
All caution thrown to the wind

A meeting of minds that are attuned perfectly to each other
A melting of kindred souls
The thrill of my falling into your gravity
My lover, my precious.
How do you make me burn for you?

A passionate combustion, a sweet torture
An illicit warmth, an aching pain
There is a longing, a desire so strong it is almost palpable
A longing to be close, to touch and be touched
To find meaning and warmth in another's embrace

You make my heart melt, You set me on fire.
I drink the soul from your mouth,
All your pleasure and pain and everything you feel.
I won't let you go until I have it.
Taking your anger, your rage, your hurt
Turning it into an apology, a pardon, a penance

And when my heart is sated, I take you in my arms,
I hold you close and kiss you and tell you what you mean to me,
Kiss your lips and eyes till you fall asleep,
Knowing tomorrow is another day for us.

Don’t let this ruin your night. You can’t control it, you never could control it, and that’s the reason why you went crazy.

Don’t go back to being that girl who lets her sadness define her.

The pain isn’t going to go away overnight and you know that is why it is 2am and you are still awake.

You have so many people in your life who love and support you. I’m sorry that the one person who should be there isn’t. It’s not your fault and I wish I could make it stop. I wish love could make people better but it can’t.

Don’t let this ruin you. You have to remember how strong you are capable of being because you have to get through this. Somehow. I wish it was easier. I’m sorry.