sometimes she would stand in my doorway
bright blue lace ******* that she knew were my favourite
and a little white shirt that was just a bit too small.
she'd enter my room ever so gently, after brushing her teeth in the morning
and pass me a stick of gum
to sweeten the taste of red wine and beer from the night before.
she would stand there in the doorway, with the cutest smirk on her dimpled cheek
and give her ***** a shake
as if to say
"yeah I'm cute, but how do you like me now?"
(she was always watching in the mirror anyway)
i would lay there and smile, and extend my reach
as she lightly pounced into my arms, and my bed
as if to say
"welcome home, sweetheart."
even though we'd just spent the night drunkenly dreaming
and warming each other's souls.
she would rest there smiling as i looked down from above
and tucked her hair behind her ears
i would kiss her 3 times; on her third-eye and on her crown.
once because i loved her.
and twice more in case she didn't feel it the first time.
some days there was a look of wonder
an unknown amazement shining from her eyes
a look so indescribable, i can't help but think she wasn't real
couldn't have been real
but here she was beneath me.
staring up at me, as if i had the power to magically whisk us away, to a far away place
and here i am, convincing myself she wasn't real.
this is why i can't have nice things.