The anger fills the room in terse silence
With clenched fists and ground teeth
No words are spoken
But a fire starts somewhere
And another
And another
Until the spitting and crackling
Devours the silent stern faces
Of the violent hearts gathered here

You are a coward
The kind that flees
Before the danger
Can rear its ugly head
I lie here on my deathbed
And realise of all the promises
That you have made
And broke
There is one that stands
you won't be able to forget me
And no, i have not
But you are ingrained
In memories full of ash
And tar, from trying to burn you
Out of my brain
You, and your cowardice
And your fondness
Of the cold
That, too, I remember
For it was a bitter winter
When you held me last.

I never fell in love with you
Falling implies disillusion
As if i didnt know exactly
What i was in for
When i looked into your eyes
And found constellations
That i had searched for
My whole life

It implies a failed understanding
Like i had walked off a long pier
And suddenly found you there
In the water, holding me
Instead of rushing to the water
Knowing you would be there
To catch me when i dropped
And never drowned

I never fell in love with you
I grew love for you
A slow budding bloom
That became a vibrant blossom
Ever growing, ever changing
I swelled love for you
It rising and falling
Like an unsure tide
On a new-formed shore

I built love for you
A home of it
All bricks and mortar
In the sacred parts of myself
Where you are always welcome
To walk through the door
And never fall.

Concept: i don't cry myself to sleep anymore, the only noises are the passing cars and soft breathing. There is no more muffled sobbing and i dream in colour.