i dont know if i call you.
i'd sound desperate .
i dont know if i text you,
i'd look shameless.
i dont know if i must tell everything to you,
but what if,i sound clumsy and confused.
i dont know.
anything
absolutely nothing.
you complicate me.
all the time.
wish it could all just be
clear
that i wouldnt mind
writing ,
spilling
all thats inside me
to you.
but its hard.
because i have to
keep in mind
image i make of myself
on you.

i dont know
when i could just be free.
free in front of
you.
i keep saying
i'm only me when i'm with you.
but guess its not true
i do take my steps
cautiously.
i dont know.
why
just why?

How is it possible
To wake up
With no recollection
Of shared words
But with a feeling so strong
You can guess what they were

I have seen you many times
never realising the true value within you
not till that day
when we did speak

for since then i have thought about you
about what we spoke about
how you feel
what you feel
what you think

a natural beauty i see you as
so much potential there is
that within you i do see
so much to offer

it seems you are not truly happy
love is what you make of it
happiness comes from the truth within us all

be truthful to yourself
be true to what you want in life

how do you really feel
only you can asnwer that

From our car journey
i did tell you
so much of what i see and feel
that now time has gone by
i think about you
and see you are still in the same place
as you were that day

For now i have seen you
a few times since
each time so different but so alike
for each has been unannounced
so i have seen your natural beauty

I wish i could take your hand
to lift you up and show you
that there is more to you
you are worth more than you feel
right now

To offer you what you have lost
to take what i see
A natural beauty
so much potential
so rare an individual
that has touched me so

With you comes happiness
Truth
Love
Free spirit

To see you smile
to hear you laugh
to smell your aroma
to touch your heart
to feel your touch
to see you for you

A natural beauty you are to me
for there is more than what the eye does see
a depth that has been closed
turned off to those that do not see
for feelings are trapped
emotions are off

Little it truly known
A small part is rarely seen
Taste of you is never felt
Caress of such softness is not fully appreciated

Limited is what you have felt
from words once spoken
your mind body and soul
have ceased to value
their true potential and happiness

Freedom in you
is sought but not found
fear of future may be held
darkness of what is to come
for every step is the same

so i ask of you
come take my hand
see what there is
feel what is not
sense what has been lost
find yourself
find what it is you seek

My hand i offer you
a life is what you have
take it if you look to the future
and see you for the Natural Beauty you truly are

S

hellbent livid heart
touches ugly her body
blows hard leaves shiver

Is it such a shameless sin
To fall in love with who you are within?
No one ever speaks of how beautiful they can be
If they didn't put an entire focus and energy
On artificial eye pleasers
To tease the mind
To define beauty
With a worthless dime & an impossible size
If you keep depending on everyone else to tell you you're lovely
For who will you perform when crowd leaves?

You count the calories
Instead of the stars
For the world to see
Another beautiful body.
To run the long mile
So your thighs don't touch
Will who you really are ever be enough?
You've wandered down a street
Where the washed up women are all so cheap
For red lipstick you are a thief
Who will you be
When the audience retreats?

Once the whole world disappears
Into meadows of flowering fields
And numbers are but an illusion so far
All you'll have left to count on are those ******* stars.

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?