imagine
how good it would feel to give up on society
no longer follow the bis rules and regulations the human race has demised
leave all the judgement and hate behind and retreat
to an island in the middle of the pacific
or the dead center of the amazon
just you, a loved one and a lifetimes worth of art supplies
youd no longer have to suffice in this demented world
where guilty rapists lies are believed and they are let free to walk the streets
where the police that are quote unquote there to protect us
**** the innocent and abuse materialistic a badge now gives them
a world where every country is divided by color and ruled by one person that is given so much power
this leaves me speechless as why one man can have so much influence even though he is no better than the rest of us
im getting carried away in modern days many flaws
anyway its a nice thought
a peaceful life ha
a thought thats all itll ever be

every morning i awaken and sigh
with dismay i have to live another day
friends as if I'm okay
im fine
i say
you see the thing is i could try open up
but i would not know where to start
no words can describe
this emptiness and loneliness
hey the list goes on but why bore you
ill say I'm okay and you can cary on with your day

the scary walk home part one
part one i step off the bus and am instantly hit with fear
will this car hit me as i cross the road
i cross my fingers and step ahead
ah part one complete part two
part two i slowly near the darker abyss
each car i pass i look inside
just to ensure my murderer is not right beside me
part two ***** you part three
part three the ******* trees
my heart skips beats
i struggle to move my feet
forward these trees are staring at me
they want to eat me someone help me
i cant escape them they are never ending
never ending like this ******* journey someone rescue me
i look back for the sixth time have the trees move
i walk a little faster
my heart beats a little faster
ah finally i see my driveway
my home my safe place my bed
i am scared of this world it is evil
i m safe now but still convinced the trees are out to get me

its been 3 months
why does your name still dampen any trace of positive emotion inside of me
i go from the happiest man to the emptiest man during the small time frame that those 3 ******* syllables are said
memories flood
the pain floods
the loneliness floods
i am drowning in my own emotion inside of me
why do you still do his to me
will you always do this to me
will this pain this excruciating pain
ever leave me
ever fade

the same blue chairs
the same smudged whiteboards
the same ****** teachers
for 13 years
its not preparation for life
its torture
pure torture
your brain in molded
to think the way society wants you to think
the lack of freedom to think in  this world
is what holds us back the most
we must be normal
well what if i dont want to be normal
theres more to life than a nine to five
a wife and two kids
a church wedding and a mortgage
live with no regrets
fufil your every want and need
live to experience
and die with content

i am a wallflower
a useless decoration
that nobody notices