We mask the pain we feel
With bottles and pills
Smudged all blue to teal
as we coated the sadness.

We lose ourselves in the process of masking ourselves
Because
Every now and then you wake up as someone else,
And
That someone might be someone you hate
Or
Someone you could never recognise
Until
You finally lose yourself
And
Forget who you really are.

I want to love you the way I love the stars. I want to stare at you with pure admiration, inspired to think about the future and let the moonlight dance a little on my skin. I want to love you in a way that I'll be afraid to blink because I fear with a single blink I would see your beautiful face and in another blink I would see your back as you walk away. I want to love like I would be afraid to go on without you. I want you to be my breath of air, my drink of water, my means of life and my everything. I want to love you to the point that I would crumble if you were to let go of your grip, I would shatter and break. I want you to be the adhesive that holds me together while at the same time I will hold you together. I want you to feel your hugs with the sun's rays, I want to feel your kisses with the sea water drifting along the winds, I want to feel your happiness from everywhere that I walk and I want to see your smile twinkle with the stars of the night.

The first time always hurts the most darl
He whispers into her ear while slowly rubbing her back

I'm sure it wouldn't hurt as much as you say?
She says placing her open hands on her lap.

Falling in love for the first time always hurts the most
He mumbles holding his chest in his arms.

You'll be ok, you will find love again
She speaks the first thoughts in her mind.

I will always love you

I really thought you were in love with me.

For the longest time, that was what I
Wanted to believe.