oh my belle, my beautiful belle
you mourn in front of the mirror
each night you feel queerer
so you bury yourself, clutching the trigger

oh my belle, my pretty little belle
beauty you deny yourself
you’re afraid for the world to attest
so you shut your eyes to the rest

oh my belle, my lovely dove belle
you died when you put that mask
why did you do that to yourself
do you hate your skin that much?

oh my belle, my poor sad belle
you were once my sunshine
lighting up my world with your smile
you don’t even have to try

oh my belle, my beautiful dead belle
i’ll never forget the way the light left your eyes
and my only consolation is i’ll never hear your cries
oh my precious belle, flickers and fades and dies

a cloudless sky as clear as your eyes
ohh i see you are a belle in disguise
in you, there is quiet and hurricanes
flowers, rainbows and rains
ohh you a belle in disguise
tiptoeing between truths and lies
don’t let them take whatever remains
don’t let reality put you into chains

i see a glow in your eyes
despite the sad songs you write
i see dreams and fires
and all your brilliance
you glow, you shine
you bring light and warmth
yet you do not know it
i’m writing this letter to you
you the belle of my life
in case you forget
you are loved, very much loved

she sings of broken dreams and loneliness
she smells of *** and cigarettes
she takes me high, she takes me low
she is the belle i can’t let go
she dances for me when she is high
she tells me she loves me but it’s a lie
she gets me high yet she let’s me down
but still she is the belle i can’t let go

93
it can be a drop of clear fluid
or a cut, a rip, a wrench
but when you said your last goodbye
oh darling
my heart bleeds through my eyes
and suddenly, tears
it means saline solution
and at the same time a laceration
and my heart, oh my good heart


it tears...

87 Black Magic
what kind of black magic
did you cast on me
that no matter
how many lips i kissed
it’s still your name
i spell on my lips

73 march 14 11:16 pm
“i have forgotten her”
he whispered to me
but my love, you don’t
you have hidden her
within your words
and fragments of your love
oh i see them in your poetry