nightmares and demons
creeps in the dark
lurks in my bed, in my head
pills, they gave me pills
to make them go away
oh doctor, your prescribed
medicines don’t help
the monsters are at bay
sometimes they are quiet
but fck, they never go away

rest your head
on my lap
the ocean waves will
sing you to sleep
sigh my friend
cry if you must
those tears are
the way to comfort
those tears will
cleanse your heart
let it all out and come to rest
for when the sun rises
flowers will bloom
from the tears you shed

you’re still here
why do i miss you?
but the words are trapped
afraid to reach you
if there’s a place
where unspoken words go
it’ll be crowded
with all the words
i wish i can tell you

all i ever wanted is to hear
you say that you’re jealous
secret love, when you do
i’ll stop this madness of
baring pieces of my soul
to people whom i tried
comparing you

i love you
so savagely
that i pluck
you out
of your roots
only to plant you
in my heart
and water you
with my love
but my love
turns out
to be lacking
so slow
you suffocate
in my ribs
you start
to wither
so i water you
with my blood
my tears
but still
not enough
so slow
you wither
so slow
you die
caged in my heart
i loved you
so savagely
yet my love
you died
.

i’m jealous
of the kid
who once lived
in this heart