FA12AMstorm

FA12AMstorm Dec 2015

Everything goes hand in hand
Just to tear me apart
And I'm alone with my thoughts again

#alone #thoughts #tornapart

FA12AMstorm Dec 2015

I'm Done With You, and I'm out of the Town

I know no ones perfect
But you keep making the same mistake
Aren't we insane

Cause your on my mind
While her nails are dragging down your back
And for some reason we think it won't turn out the same **** way that it always does

And eventually I confront you
And you turn the tables
And I go ahead and flip them
So you go back to her
And I drive out of this town

For some reason I always come back
Then you come home one night
And I know you're still intoxicated by her

With your hair messed up
And know you still taste her on your lips
And just started over again

I confront you
And you turn the tables
And I go ahead and flip them
So you go back to her
And I drive out of this town

This time I'm going on a road that can go anywhere
And I don't think I'm coming back
I hear my phone ring and it's you

You say you want me back
But I reply saying I'm staying away this time
After he yells and he screams he finally says you always come back and hangs up

But I'm already three hundred miles away
And I've never felt more free

I realize I don't have to confront you
And you don't have to turn the tables
I don't have to flip them
You can stay with her
And I'll keep driving to my next town

FA12AMstorm Dec 2015

You Promised

You promised to not let me drown
And then you pushed me where my toes couldn't reach and the waves took lives

You promised to not let me burn
Then you laughed and watched as the fire consumed me and all I was

You promised to shelter me from the storm
Then you ran in fear when the storm took hold and stirred in my eyes

You promised to be my solid ground if my world shook
Then when it gave its first rumble of a warning
You ran like the coward I now know you are

You promised forever
I tried to catch your eye the next day
But all you did was walk away

You promised a lot of things
You lied
I got to thinking

Maybe it was just me
Then I realized:

Love is like water
I could have been your ocean

Fire is passion
Passion is what I live for

The storm is intense
And I hold one in my eyes

I am the earthquake that shakes
Leaving you with nothing to stand on

Forever wasn't supposed to be with you
Because I'm looking for a man
And you are simply a boy

FA12AMstorm Dec 2015

Simple

I can, I will, I have written about anything
Everything is up for inspiration for a new story, poem, or song
But I want you to know that when I write about how you walked away
I didn't write with a voice of pain
You walked away and it was simple
Yes, I thought about how my life would be different without you
Yes, I realize it would have been a lot different
Yes, I realize you changed me
No, I don't think I'll ever forget you
No, I don't think I'll ever run out of ways to write our chapter
But that's what you have to realize:
You were only a chapter in my volume of a life
The sad thing is I don't think you ever read the chapters already written,
and yet I listened to every one you were willing to tell me
Maybe that's my fault though
I don't really tell people things about me
If you were trying to get me to miss you
Then you need to try a LOT harder
Because I don't think I've cried over you once
I don't plan on it either
Because as I said before, you leaving me was simple
It was the cut that you don't feel
The one that heals without you knowing it was there in the first place

FA12AMstorm Dec 2015

Sleepless Nights, Screaming Minds

I sit awake at night
With my mind screaming No
My heart, the fool that it is, listens
So I stare at my ceiling
Waiting for SOMETHING to happen
Realizing only then
That the scream that had been in my head
Has now passed down to my lips
Where it waits to slip into the world
But I keep my mouth firmly shut
Unlike I am able to do with my mind
I still don't know what I want to yell for
Maybe because I so desperately want my voice to be heard
Or maybe because of one of the thousand other reasons I can't remember because I'm too tired to think at this moment

FA12AMstorm Dec 2015

Easy Come Easy Go

I'd tell you who I am
If I thought you would care
I'd show you my flaws
If I thought you wouldn't tell
I'd give you my all
If I thought you'd do the same
I would put down my walls
If I thought you would be there for me
I would express to you my dreams
If I thought you would listen
I would tell you my passions and who I want to be
But I have been betrayed many times
I've given so many people a shot
And all they've ever done is pulled the trigger after I gave them the bullet

And that is why it's easy come easy go
I've before done this before
So don't you think I'll cry
I'll keep both my eyes dry
Because I'm done with you
And there's no way you can get me back

FA12AMstorm Dec 2015

Collective Monster Belief

I think everyone has that poem about them
The one where they believe they are monsters
Some people are either brave, or stupid, enough to tell them
And while some only have enough describing words for a three minute song
Mine has enough for the musical you can get a full nights sleep to
If you're not afraid of the nightmares that follow