Evergreen Pines: Favorites

Jul 2013 Evergreen Pines

Djs

One simply
Cannot
Fall in love

Just an illusion
Emotion
Craving for
Adoration

Is it a verb
No
One cannot
Perform love

It's a noun
A silly
Invisible
Object

Do people
Feel it
Some do
Others
Fake it

If it's only
A feeling
Why
Do we all
Want
It

Why
Do our
Lives
Depend
Massively on
It

When they say
Love
Is all you
Need
They're wrong

Aren't they?

They have to be
Wrong!

But
Your soft hands
That secure
Mine
Carefully,
Your hands say
The opposite

No
They must be
Wrong!

But
Your caring eyes
That sincerely
Blindly love,
Your eyes say
The opposite
Too

Maybe they're
Wrong?

And
Your carelessness
Unawareness
And all
That's funny
About you,
They say
The opposite

So maybe they're
Not wrong?

And
Every little bits
Every piece
And
Every reason
Why I admire
You,
They too
Say the opposite

Are they really
Wrong?

They can't be!

Maybe
They're right
Maybe
I myself
Had fallen too

And maybe
I do need love
I do desire
It

Maybe
I'm wrong.

*-djs

Jul 2013 Evergreen Pines

Writer's Block

Jul 2013 Evergreen Pines

Djs

Writer's Block

ink running low
callus on my fingers
my rhyme with no flow
frozen creativity
limited words
blank thoughts within me
writer's block
my common enemy
brainwork in a rock
my mind unable to function
stuck and lost
no motivation
it's not that i cannot write
or brainstorm or draw but
i simply just cannot think tonight

*-djs

Jul 2013 Evergreen Pines

& i adore You

Jul 2013 Evergreen Pines

Djs

& i adore You

I wish i could
Mend Your heart
And heal Your wounds
And little by little
Fix You too
I wish i could take You away
From here
And block out whatever it is
Causing You pain
But the sadness is not
In Your surrounding
But in Your brain
And i wish i could give You
A sense of joy and comfort
Remove all the unpleasant things
And give You the happiness
You've ever sought
But this devastation isn't even
Just a train of thought
It is a part of who You are
And i love that about You
I wish i could help
But admiring from afar
Wouldn't do

*-djs

Jul 2013 Evergreen Pines

lost sanity

Jul 2013 Evergreen Pines

Djs

lost sanity

he's back,
again..
here to haunt me,
once again.
he's back.
i can hear him!
footsteps:
running up my spine.
goosebumps:
masking away
his shadows.
making his way
up to my heart,
punching!
kicking!
till it rips apart.
shutting off my brain.
again,
unable to focus.
and he sits,
for a few minutes,
at the dark corners
of me.
laughing,
hysterically!
at how weak i am.
and without a pulse,
not even a signal,
he starts..
jumping!
and shaking!
and screaming!
whispering.
and he screams!
again.
and again.
and again!
pause!
silent, shaky pause.
pulling the trigger.
pushing the knife.
he'd done it,
again.
he'd won,
again.
i didn't fight,
again.
he wants me.
and i want to come,
with him.
so he can leave me.
alone..
and dead.

*-djs

Quick write; can't turn down a brilliant thought in the middle of the night.

Jul 2013 Evergreen Pines

"Just Friends"

Jul 2013 Evergreen Pines

Djs

"Just Friends"

Talking twenty-four-seven
Kissing like there's no end
Being around your presence all the time
And you say we're just friends.

You forbid me to see other guys
Yet I could just see jealousy in your eyes
Wanting to be my only one
Then you toss me away, is that so wise?

Crossing the lines of being protective
With me, you're just beyond possessive
But when we get down to business,
**** you're more than aggressive.

But the way your eyes travel around me
How your hands linger all over my body
Doing the exact same routine twice a week
Making love, just friends, steadily.

One night you treat me like a princess
And the morning I wake up you say I'm a mess
We've got to stop this, whatever this is
We're too loose, fragile, and reckless.

And aside from our enclosed relationship
We still manage to keep a friendship
But whenever you mention your other "friends"
It just makes my heart rip.

Within our complications and misfits
We're still each other's favourites
And you say we're just friends?
I'm tellin' you, that's bullsht.

-djs

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