Feeling lonely
And kinda tired
Of living
But not of life

Once I thought
My time had come
To leave this world
For the next

Life was trouble
Not worth the pain.
I tried to die, then
I had to learn to live again

I longed to live
A life full of joy
I never thought
All I had to do

Was to just keep
                    Moving on

I know you spell it with an i
But that would have been to easy
You know I had to make it rhyme
I had to make it cheesy

Dragging my body outta bed
Remembering the night before
Getting back at 3 am
Never wanting to stop
Kissing good bye
Remembering every sore muscle
Being rubbed out
With hands that were strong
And impossibly gentle
Remembering a new soreness
In places that are secret
Remembering that
There are no secrets left

Getting outta bed
With 6 hours of sleep
Smiling like a fool
Walking to class
Because I was remembering
A night with you.

The tears softly clouding my heart and my mind
Slowly burning endlessly, like the agony of time
My face was beaming brightly, then filled with despair
I was so close yet so far away. I tried not to care

But tears will fall to stain my eternal pain
Jast as I fall to restless sleep only to dream of you again
My dreams are the reality I wish my life could be
A tangible love surrounds us as I hold you close to me

I do not want to dream though, it reminds me of the times
I used to hold you, our love making me blind
One day my dearest angel I will come home to you
And al the things I wished and dreamed will come true.

Running free
Through the grass
Through the trees
Breathless yet steady
In the warm summer breeze

One last time
May I say that I love you
One last time
Will you hurt because of me

One last time
May I call you my own
One last time
Will I say "come home"

You once heard
All the music
Of the coming night
Of the whispering winds
Singing psalms and ballads
With guardian angels
Singing the gentle lullabies
Of a loving mother
You held a dream
Once upon a time
You held a dream of hope,
Singing beautiful melodies,
Of a family
Of never being alone

Now you hold only the shattered dream

Of never being alone
Of a family
Singing beautiful melodies
You held a dream of hope
Once upon a time
You held a dream
Of a loving mother
Singing the gentle lullabies
With guardian angels
Singing psalms and ballads
Of the whispering winds
Of the coming night

All the music
You once heard.