Eyes meet
Forbidden treasures
Hands touch
Sunken souls
Bodies reach
Euphoria
So much to come
So little left to see
Insanity ever present
Instinct urging
Minds racing
Ever empty
Soft whispers
Audible to one
Only one that matters
Movements intertwined
Perfectly timed
Euphoria

I want someone who wants me for:

My eyes
The way they light up when I talk about music
And movies
And the person I love
And when I'm excited

My lips
When I'm talking too fast and nothing can stop me
When I'm singing horribly
Or singing very well
When I make stupid faces
When I smile
And when I frown

My hair
When I haven't showered in days
When I took hours to make it just right
When I'm too lazy to brush it
When it's up in a bun
When it flips around when I get really excited
When I'm running and it sways with every step

My hands
When I'm signing something that you'll never understand no matter how many times I tell you what it means
When I'm writing and they're flying across the paper
When I'm texting too fast or too slow
When I'm tracing stupid little shapes on your arm or leg or stomach because I just want to feel you
When I'm cold and they're balled up in little fists
When I'm holding on to you because I'm scared or nervous or tired
When I'm hold your hand
When I'm playing with your hair

My legs
When I shave them
And when I don't
When they're intertwined in yours
When they're wrapped around you
Or draped over your lap
When I'm running
When I'm hiking

I just want someone who wants me for the stupid little thing I do without realizing
And everything I do to try to impress them
And everything in between.

I'm dry
I'm empty
I'm a barren land
Long ago abandoned
No inhabitants
No water
No love
No light
No sound
No air

I'm an abandoned castle
Once full of beauty, hope, light, and purpose
Once full of love
Every wall
Every stone
Every centimeter
Hand crafted
Loved to bits
So loved I'm falling apart

But now I'm dry
I'm empty
I'm bitter
I'm worn
I'm old
And I'm tired
No love lives here
No love will come again
Only hate and destruction

Every storm is another stone gone
Washed away

Every dry spell is more cracking in my bones

Every sad and misfortunate tear shed is another piece of my hope and innocence gone

I'm torn to shreds
I've been ripped at the seams
I'm lifeless

But I'm mostly just dry

When I walk down the halls
all I see is wild beasts.
Crazy kids roaming about.
All yelling to each other in their cryptic languages.
No sounds make sense.
No actions have meaning.

The girls squeal,
the boys grunt.
The girls hug,
the boys high five.

I look down and carry on.
I ignore all of their fatal attempts at talking to me.
I don't understand them.
They don't understand me.

I don't try.

They're all just wild beasts.
Out to get me,
to sabotage me.

Poetry is like a silly little dance
The twirl of your pen on the page
The leaps between each word
The tap of your fingers as you think
The steps and turns for each word

So if you think about it poetry is a dance
Not any dance a man could do
But a complicated routine only a pen in the hand of a wise man can perform

People call me insane
They say my brain isn't right
I'm a calamity
Pandemonium
A walking **** wreck
Ups and downs happen in a split second
One second I'm higher than ever
Two seconds later I want to cry for days

Insanity is inevitable
Insanity is irrelevant
Insanity is life
We're all insane
We're all lost

What we need is someone else's insanity to balance our own

Searching for my space my perfect little escape my hide away from the craziness the craziness of everyday all the ups and downs all start to feel like a straight line it's crazy I know I've got no where to go still searching everyone's got their place their place to call home while I lay here alone all alone
and I stay here not looking not searching but hiding hiding away away from the pain of thinking of seeing never wanting to be afraid never wanting to feel pain
It's the worst feeling around crying and knowing no ones there you're the only one that cares but even you've given up on yourself there's no turning back the second you start you can't cease the tears keep streaming they'll never end and you know the pain is back this time more than ever your whole body shuts down
and I stay here not looking not searching but hiding hiding away away from the pain of thinking of seeing never wanting to be afraid never wanting to feel pain
All alone no ones there all alone none to care all alone your years to your self all alone all alone
and I stay here not looking not searching but hiding hiding away away from the pain of thinking of seeing never wanting to be afraid never wanting to feel pain