i spend so much time biting my tongue
to keep from saying all the things i want to say
that i taste blood
every time i hear your name.

The nights have grown cool again, like the nights
Of early spring, and quiet again. Will
Speech disturb you? We're
Alone now; we have no reason for silence.

Can you see, over the garden-the full moon rises.
I won't see the next full moon.

In spring, when the moon rose, it meant
Time was endless. Snowdrops
Opened and closed, the clustered
Seeds of the maples fell in pale drifts.
White over white, the moon rose over the birch tree.
And in the crook, where the tree divides,
Leaves of the first daffodils, in moonlight
Soft greenish-silver.

We have come too far together toward the end now
To fear the end. These nights, I am no longer even certain
I know what the end means. And you, who've been
With a man--

After the first cries,
Doesn't joy, like fear, make no sound?

Something about souls
Maybe we knew each other in a past life

Maybe we were trees in Eden
we grew next to each other
our roots tangled
our branches touched and when the wind blew through
our leaves whispered the same tune

Maybe we were teardrops from a great poet's eyes
we met and formed a stream down his cheek
as he shed us for his lost love
and mourned the death of his heart

Maybe we were penguins
winter time; I'd fish, you'd nurture our egg
come spring; we'd meet by the sea,
you'd call out for me, I'd find you and
our bodies would move clumsily in a perfect rhythm of happiness

It’s not by coincidence that we’re both here, in the same place, feeling the same things.
Realize this soon, because I’m growing tired of reliving old memories.
What more is there to say? We’re running out of time.
Everything will return to you and you’ll be clouded again.
And I’ll be standing in the back, out of view, waiting like I always am.
For things to change, that would be great.
For things to change in my favor, now that would be something.
It’s all there, all there is left to do is ask.
Say something soon, or it’s going to be gone.
Back, where you refuse to look.
Out of view, where you can’t see.
Waiting like I always am.

i know  you mean nothing to me.
i know you wish you did.
it's unfair for me to call you
to bring you in from the cold
promising a warm bed and
a body to sleep next to.
i promise arms
and lips
i put on perfume
and lipstick.

i tell you
what you find tonight fades in the sun
you say you dont mind
but the rest of you
sings a different song.
i choose to ignore it.

tonight
we love each other
tonight
we are everything
we would
ever
need.

i wish it was this easy
and sometimes i think
maybe the love will come later
with some work.
but we both know
such lies can
ruin lives.
so we take it one night at a time
making no promises
nothing sure
nothing steady
plunging heart first
into a tornado
hoping it will spit us out on
a sunnier side of the world