i‘m overcome with doubt
my brain numb, i‘m about to finish it
can‘t go a second without wishing it
sought out suffering, can‘t keep it off me
feel the earths pressure on me
about to crumble but i keep on

seems like everyday i got a new problem
no time to even solve the last one
my concepts clash
don‘t know what to believe anymore
cant trust others nor myself
nor my thoughts
they dont linger around
and i just move back and forth
my mood swinging
no progress
got no time to process
all this ****

my mood shifts, drifts till im worn out
my brain about to check out
in vain, i write to find balance
true pain, can you feel it?

problems so heavy
my pen breaks
my heart aches
day after day
headaches and migraines

under all this pressure
do i crack and sink lower
or
take shape and start all over

a bittersweet time
with a deadline
i know what it was
from the get go
still don't wanna let go
quick like ready set go
so much more to say
so much more to do
i count day after day and
before you move away
promise me
ill stay on your mind

sloppy wrist
snotty nose
teary eyes

i laid there
and realized
i gotta let go