Dizzy with pleasure
‘Cause you needed something good
Calm and tired finally
Not happy but at least pleased
Maybe it’s okay
Well... we can pretend
Feel your heart pound
And gently drop back down
Take your time
You can try again
Anything... just a taste is worth it
A flash of bliss...
I should feel guilty
But in my defense
I don’t feel much anymore

I lust after anything
That offers so much as a hope
That it could quiet the chaos
And ease the pain

You’ve tried to protect me from everything
How futile an effort...
You could’ve just told me!
I wouldn’t need it like this!
I crave what you’ve hidden
You’ve applied so much pressure
Wound me so tight
A band about to snap

Hahahaha
I’m being torn into pieces
Everything within is in agony
Does it even matter
Why would I want
To go on
lol.

There’s a storm coming
That these pages cannot contain
There’s too much
All tangled and fused
Webbed together in a mass
I’m going to survive the calamity
But I’m not going to want to

please just don’t leave me alone
that’s when they come for me
monsters, demons
dark shadows from the abyss
my smile melts away....

when i’m alone
i have to face them, fight them
i struggle for my every breath
for they all want me dead

i’ll do what it takes to distract myself
tricks, games, sabotage
anything
i’m so **** desperate
i’m weary
i’m weary

CAN’T YOU SEE I’M WEARY

i’m suffering alone
grasping blindly in the dark
for anything
to take my mind off it...

there's a cage
or a room
or... something....
can't seem to remember now
it's been so long
since there was light
enough to see by
all i know
is there is no escape
i will stay here
breaking
rotting
dying
i will sit in my sorrow
in this prison
begging
praying
for the mercy
of one
final
breath