I strike matches with burning flames trying to ignite you
thinking maybe you'll want me again
I set you on fire only to burn myself over and over
my fingers are black
my heart burns blue
my body is up in flames
I knew you were never to be tamed
yet foolishly, I tried, like the child I am
so now my mind is twisted and bruised
screaming out for you.

You write depressing poetry
you lay in your bed for hours wasting time
rocking yourself back and forth with tears streaming down your face
you cry until you can't
you stare at the ceiling
you go crazy
you want to scream and punch things
you want to hold a gun to your head and pull the trigger
you want to die
you want to hurt them but you want to hold, love them at the same
you want to shout
you want to throw things
you ignore it
you don't ignore it
you sink into your darkness and let it consume you
you burn because that's all you have left to do
you burn with each memory and laugh as it sears your skin
fire rips through your veins
your heart thuds in your chest and you can't breathe.
I don't know I don't know because that's all I know how to do
I can't tell you how to stop *loving someone or how to heal from your sadness because I'm still searching for that answer myself.

Time seems to be frozen and flying at the same time
as summer months creep closer to
You and me, I feel my stomach start to churn knowing
these months, for you, I will yearn
Time seems to be frozen and flying at the same time
I lie here and stare at an expanse of cracking white
for I wonder, if this, is all out of spite?
The coldness seeps into my bones and my fingers burn
knowing these months, for you, I will yearn
Time seems to be frozen and flying at the same time
I stare at the sky and how the clouds make love to fiery towers of leaves
My heart is cold
my veins burn blue, bold
Breathing in slow heaves, for you
I know
will leave
****, **** me for you
I wear my bitter heart on my sleeve
Time seems to be frozen and flying at the same time
Incessant love pours from my being for you
Ineffable sadness consumes my aching frame
and these tumultous feelings of shame
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In these months, for you, I yearn
Time is freezing and is no longer flying
For you, I yearn
Time is frozen and no longer freezing
Time is frozen and so am I