This empty feeling in me does not want to leave
Refuses to pack its bags
don’t see what it’s trying to achieve
Made a home in me
right in my heart
turned it cold and dark.
I used to run away
                             I was weak
                   I gave in
fell to my knees
I let this darkness overcome and here I lie, broken inside.
The will to fight dissipates
as it     whispers            its convincing
                                                          lies
That here, where broken and empty
reside
Is so much safer than letting myself feel happy inside.
That being this is so low
there is no
                fall or receiving                         blow
I used to run away
      I was weak
                 I gave in
                              fell to my knees.
Now when you come knocking, know that there is no me
I’m gone
this is broken and empty’s home.

Everything in over drive
I never felt so alive
Than with you by my side
Stars collided smashingly bright in the dark sky
Every time I shut my eyes, it’s a sparkling dark sea
No one compares to you
I’m so crippled with fear that when I surface you won't be near
Everything in over drive
Your love so intoxicating, asphyxiating
Making it hard to breathe
Your eyes always twinkle like starry night skies
But like I had feared, that twinkle had soon disappeared
Left with an empty, cold stare
Gone with the wind
Burnt out flames
and only ashes remain
Of what had once been.

Running through wildflower fields
With daisy chains in our hair
Your hand in mine, as we ran for our lives
The beat of two hearts
never apart
You turned to me
gasping for air
laughing aloud
I smiled, I’d never let you get away
Made you promise to stay
That very night still burns in my mind to this day.
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Your words ripped through me
Flowing through my blood
Like the veins in my hands, twisting in my mind
Your heart always invisible to mine
Our daisy chains wilt and die
Just as my heart did when you uttered “Goodbye.”