Why am I falling for you?
The man with the cold hands
And whiskey smile
We drink wine and watch movies
Fall asleep under the moon's dim light
I wake up in the morning
And you are holding me close
You cook me breakfast as we drink green tea
What are we going to do?
I'm scared and can't stop thinking
Believing every word you say
While you're still talking to your old love
But you look me in the eyes.

Drunk conversations
When the truth comes out
Our awkwardness and anxiety
Holding back tears
God I hate feeling alone
You tell me I'm pretty,
You like my eyes and teeth
That I am a rare find
I thought when we first kissed I'd never see you again
But here I am, at your house almost every night.

It's not ok to mess with two hearts if you can't handle your own.

I feel something when I'm with you
Something I haven't felt in a long time
I'm ready to let you in
I'm scared as hell
And my hands are shaking

But when I'm with you, it almost feels right
I know we've both been hurt before
And I know the feeling that you get when you are anxious
And the feeling that I get when I am scared
I don't want to be alone

You are not here and you are alone
I cried in your arms and you told me things you can't remember
You talk in your sleep to the demons of your past
I'll help you fight your demons if you keep me warm at night
I know we both don't want this
But it's happening and we're not in control

True love with a stranger has turned into something else
Spending my nights in the room that's too cold
The birds nest is on the shelf
As you slur your words
You say you're going to disappear
Please don't disappear.

Surrounded by couples
As we rang in the New Year
The ball dropped and so did my heart
Looking around for the one with the cold hands
Nowhere to be found
Do you really want to be disappointed tonight?
There's a familiar feeling
As you're with friends old and new
You want him
The one that makes that you feel again
So this is the New Year
I hope that it gets better
That luck will be on our side
And someone will want to be with only me
Save me from the past
Make me believe love isn't just a hoax.

I'll never forget that look you gave me
As I rested my head on your chest
After we saw each other raw and real
You couldn't handle emotion
And I don't blame you
Because I feel that way now
I still remember that late July night

That squeaky clean hotel room
With the curtains slightly closed
As the moon shone through
After you had me all to yourself
You were ready to let me go
Why didn't I tell you:
I liked you
Your thrill for adventure,
Your contagious laugh, and deep gaze
Kept me up at night
Wishing you could be by my side.