Emily Crews

Emily Crews Mar 2017

little lies become

big bruises, become

stashed secrets, become

****** sheets...again, become

tearful apologies, become

“i promise I’ll do better”.

But then

arms that held you become

arms that push, becomes

head first down the stairs, become

broken ribs, become

ER visits full of

little lies.

Emily Crews Feb 2017

2/17/17

There are days when I swear I am a hundred feet tall.
And then there are days when I swear the world has slipped out
from underneath my feet.
God help me be enough for me
Because I can't keep ******* in water every time I try to breathe.

Emily Crews Mar 2015

Wake Up

Exhausted
But I can’t sleep.
I am terrified
Because every time I let
My eyelids fall shut
You are there.
A daydream
Once, now you are a nightmare.
Comfort
I can no longer find
In your arms.
You
Clung too tightly
To the bottle and to her
(I bet you thought I didn’t know).
Haunted
As you were,
Now I am haunted too.
Desperation
Takes new form
On the bathroom floor
Pills keep me awake
Keep me awake
Keep me awake.

Emily Crews Jan 2015

Untitled

Take your lovely words and go
Just go.
I have no need for your pretty goodbyes
Pretty lies.

Emily Crews Jan 2015

Drunk Again

I'm drunk
Again
And I know I said
I wouldn't call
But
**** it
I miss you
And
If I'm being honest
I don't
Know how to
Be me
Without
You.

Emily Crews Dec 2014

Untitled

She told me empty wasn't a feeling.

Empty is the feeling at the bottom of every bottle,
Its the tone on the other end of the line.
Its the cold side of the bed
That I'm afraid to sleep on anymore
Empty is the feeling I get every time the door closes
Its Ed Hardy cologne and nikes.
Its love notes that I still find in my truck.

She told me empty wasn't a feeling.

Emily Crews Dec 2014

Dark You

Last night I saw the dark you again.
You talked of girls, ex lovers
And ghosts.
You clung to the bottle
Like it was all you had left in this world
While I held your hand.
I'm terrified of your scars
And what they might mean.
I'm learning that you are broken
beyond repair.
I can't kiss your broken heart back together
But I promise not to leave.

#poetry #sad #depression