Em - Hello Poetry

Em Sep 2013

I'm not okay.
I'm not alright.
Every breath I breathe is suffocating me.
You said you'd always be there.
But now, you don't seem to care.
Were you ever there?
I need to get away from you.
I'm tired of being used.
I can't be around you and think straight.
You're too late.
I can't do it anymore.
You don't care, so why should I?

Written 8.28.13

Em Sep 2013

I'm so, so sorry.

I'm sorry I'm not alright.
I'm sorry I can't fix me.
I'm sorry you don't care.
Please stop pretending everything is fine, when it's not.
Its not your fault you're never around.
It's my fault for thinking you would be.
I'm sorry I'm not your perfect girl.
I'm sorry I can't do anything right.
I'm sorry I love you.
I'm never gonna have all the answers.
I'm never going to forget about these years.
I'm always going to be broken.
I'm sorry you don't know what you're missing.
I'm sorry I care.
I'm not perfect.
Good luck finding someone who is.

Written on 8.14.13

Em Sep 2013

Back to the start.

I'm trying so hard not to fall apart.
Trying to find the pieces of this broken heart scattered across the floor.
As tears run down my face.
I search for a state of grace.
Foolishly I let you in,
Gave you all I have to give.
You left with a piece of my heart.
I'm just trying to go back to the start.

Written on 8.13.13

Em Sep 2013

I'm tired of everything.

I guess I'm too ******* up for you.
I'm not 'normal' enough.
I'd be the first to admit I have a shitload of problems.
I don't feel like I can trust anyone.
I'm not good enough for crap.
I'm way to nice to people who don't deserve it.
I'm tired of being walked on.
I'm tired of apologizing.
Sometimes I wonder why I'm here.
I'd hate to bother you.
I'm always here for you, but where are you when I need you?
I should stop expecting you to show up.
You don't care.
But did you ever?
I'm' tired of pretending everything is fine.
Cause it's not.

Written on 8.12.13

Em Sep 2013

I'm tired

I guess I'm too ******* up for you.
I'm not 'normal' enough.
I'd be the first to admit I have a shitload of problems.
I don't feel like I can trust anyone.
I'm not good enough for crap.
I'm way to nice to people who don't deserve it.
I'm tired of being walked on.
I'm tired of apologizing.
Sometimes I wonder why I'm here.
I'd hate to bother you.
I'm always here for you, but where are you when I need you?
I should stop expecting you to show up.
You don't care.
But did you ever?
I'm' tired of pretending everything is fine.
Cause it's not.

Written on 8.12.13

Em Jul 2013

Forget.

Who gave you the right to be so perfect?
I'd love to be mad at you since you're an ***; but, whenever I'm with you..
I forget.
I forget how to feel pain.
I forget how to smile in vain.
I forget about the scars.
How I feel like I'm behind bars.
I forget about all the things you've done.
I only think about how you've won.
Won my heart.
It's crazy, I know.
But whenever you look into my eyes,
They no longer feel the need to cry.
If I could relive those moments over and over, I would.
Then I think about it... and
You're not mine to love.
You're not mine to have.
You're not mine to hold.
But please..
Be the one to help me forget.

Written on 6.30.13

Em Jul 2013

I'm so Blind.

Why do I have to fall so hard,
and crash so easily?
Can't I see that there is no one there to catch me?
Why am I so blind when it comes to love?
Why do I have to be so naive?
Cant I see people for what they actually are,
for what they actually do.
Constantly seeing the good in people tends to always leave me broken,
Hurt,
Alone.
Because in all honestly, no one cares.
No one is there.
I have to find a way to make it on my own.
Survive all alone.
It's a big world out there.
It's about time someone showed they cared.

Written on 6.28.13