I held her the way i would hold a cup of water,
Firmly around the sides,
Ready to catch each drop that falls out.
But at the same time, i was driving down a rocky road,
I made it a bigger risk that a drop may fall out.

I thought of her the same way i thought of my home.
A get away from the world,
And where i spent my whole day wishing i could be.
But i guess i stayed too long cause i made the house a mess.

I listened to her the same way i listened to my music,
Ignored the rest of the world,
and hummed to the tune of her voice.
But perhaps i hummed too loud and drowned out her voice too much.

I looked at her the same way i look at each star,
Tilted my head and was shocked
by how something could shine so bright.
But the light got brighter and brighter,
And i could no longer see the star as a whole.

I tried to treat her the way i do with my glasses.
Becuase if i broke them,
I'll never see what I've done.
But i didnt not break them, i have scratched it just enough that i cannot clearly see where it is that i am standing.

I awake from a dream into a nightmare.
I gain my sense of feel and rise into reality.
It's sad and gloomy to me.
It seems only in my dreams i can truly be happy.
It didnt always seem that way.
You stepped out of my life
And ripped out the dreams
From my reality.
I feel hopeless and lost.
I see my life spiraling down.
I cant find the courage to step back up
I'm forever affected from what was once your love.
Welcome to depression.

The sun opens our eyes to a fresh start

And we let the day rot.

We beat the clock demanding more time

And burn the wicks of our lives with anger.

Hope is overlooked

As our vision turns to darkness

And life without light becomes truth.

All light appears as a tease,

So we lay in the dark 

In fear of being let down.

Trapping our thoughts in negativity may be easier,

But by reaching for the light, 

We find the strength to free our souls

Yes i can swim
strokes through the sea
but the swordfish is better
much better than me

Yes i can fly
my eager engines burn
nothing to the falcon
simply done, once learned

Yes i can run
toss my legs in front
leisure to the cheetahs
three fold faster on the hunt

Oh but did you know
just how few of these?
When we left the gates
map and guide made me

as a whole body i shiver
i can feel the cold fear run up my spine
as my hands hold my arms
i run
far and fast
it feels as if the world
and everyone in it
can not touch me

down we sink
down we go
i don't want to leave
but down we must go
we will drown in tears
of broken souls
down we sink
down we go