It's okay not to be okay. There's progress in that.

Something inside was stirring
Something so deep i couldn't come back
A feeling that was deemed to be unacceptable
A feeling that was taking me into the dark

Eventually the light became a small speck in the darkness.
All else failed to bring me back.
Until you gave me the light and guided me back.

My heart aches for those who don't care

Someday you'll realize that
we're heading two different ways.
That we've reach our borderline and there it lays,
the future in which we are about to embark on.

Its inevitable and unpredictable,
but the path we're on will someday cross.
And you'll say "you look great" and i'll say "you look good"

'Till that day comes i'll be waiting
and reminiscing about the days
when we lounged around thinking about our future ways.

Every time we meet up
Just to talk, play, or hang
I'm always happy and at peace.
When it's time to say goodbye
It aches.

The post-hangout is always sad.
Sad to think that it won't be for another month or year that I'll see you again. Thinking about the conversation we had after you leave is alway what eases me out of my sadness.

But every time we meet up, it's always worth the wait.

When my heart is crushed
And my heart is heavy
I look to you to
Fill up my life with light
Fill it up with your love.

I open my heart to your words
I open my mind to your worth.
I put my all in all in your hands.
My worries, my doubts,
My fears, my dreams, and
All that I am in you.

Your beauty within wasn’t at all what I expected
The winds blow so freshly cool as the season change once more
The air smells as though the world is anew but within is thunder and rain
Thunder and rain I named the tulips in my room
Darkness a stepping stone into the unknown
Certainty lies in the wind
Hope lies on the floor
The wind blows and hope flies
The motions of life takes on
Beauty within beauty without

sow the seeds

My heart calls out your name
Since youve left I've been in pain
Its not all in vain
It ain't no game

I miss you
But I'm gonna let it pass through
I'm gonna stand tall like a bamboo
But I remember you
when I see a barbeque
Forgive me but I have failed you

Don't get me wrong
I've been a ping-pong
lifelong
I see us playing mahjong

But i know it can't be
I should flea
I've been screaming a plea
"please come back to me"

There's a huge disparity:

Of how my life used to be and how it is now.

Of how I thought it would be and how it is now.

Of how I dreamt it to be and how it is now.

Of how I expected it to be and how it is now.

I'm staring at a photo of you
I'm drowning in those eyes.
And it's merely just an old photograph.

Those eyes draw me in.
Draws my heart to you.
Those eyes. Those eyes. Ohh those eyes.

I daydream about you and me
Whether it'll be
Its just another fantasy of mine

And in an alternate universe
maybe my dreams comes true
And I'm looking at those eyes infront of me

Cause Those eyes draw me in
Draws my heart to you
Those eyes. Those eyes. Ohhh those eyes

The day those eyes changed
Started to look away
My heart couldnt handle the pain

But like a sunflower I'm gonna stand tall
And just like a tulip my love for you is eternal

Those eyes draw me in
Draws my heart to you
Those eyes. Those eyes..... Ohhh your eyes.

When I tell you I love you
It has the weight of the world with it
When I tell you I love you
Best believe it ain't no feather landing on water

When i tell you I love you
Don't take it as a grain of salt
When I tell you I love you
Its like a blue whale landing on water

When I tell you I love you
Its not a mall during the covid-19 pandemic
When I tell you I love you
Its worth more than gold

When I tell you I love you
It has worth. It has meaning.
Nothing but that... I love you.