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Elizabeth Thorn Dec 2013
I built myself a cabin
A cabin by the sea
I found myself a place
Where my old self couldn't be

Some people sat in wonder at why I'd run away
But no, they did not see
I simply wanted closure
For a life that could not be

There's lots of world out here
This is where I'm free
So I build myself a cabin
A cabin by the sea

But in running from my life
I discovered me
Elizabeth Thorn Dec 2013
I can do it, Mama
I can get the demons out from my head
Just watch, I’ll starve them out
I don’t think the demons can outlast my hunger
I can count my ribs
One two, one two
I can count each section of spine
Look how pretty I look in my pretty blue dress
Can you see, Mama?
They’re still in there
Still wandering in my mind
Don’t you worry one second, Mama
I’ll bleed them out
Just watch, Mama
Not gone yet?
I’ll just cut deeper
The demons can’t outlast the blade
Just look how pretty pale the scars are, Mama
Just look how they clash so beautifully
All over me
The demons still haunt me
I still hear their whispers
Don’t you fret, Mama
I’ll cry them out
No demon can outlast my tears
Just look how the water streaks my pale face
Just look how the droplets twinkle
Aren't I pretty, Mama?
Still there, still there
They don’t go away
Don’t be upset, Mama
I’ll dose them from my mind
One, two, three pills
Why not them all?
Don’t you see how the colors dance in my eyes, Mama?
I can still feel the demon’s breath on my skin
Don’t you scream, Mama
I’ll drown them out
No demon can outlast the depth
See how lovely I am beneath the waves, Mama?
Why do look at me that way?
Why do your eyes fill with tears?
I’m trying to be beautiful
Isn't that what you wanted?
I’m trying to be good
Like all you longed for
Why do you only see
The devil within?
You’ll never worry again, Mama
As I sink down deeper
The last of my breath now free
I can promise you
The demon is gone
Because the demon was me
Elizabeth Thorn Dec 2013
Nothing left unread
Nothing in my head
Only left for dead
Grieving in a bed

This darkness will ensue
Nothing left of you
We cannot renew
A hatred born anew

Driving in the nail
Trying to tip the scale
Forever destined to fail
Falling off the rail

Blood spilled on the gravel
I'm starting to unravel

Unwinding
Unwinding

Time to go

Unwinding
Unwinding

Don't let it be so

When there's nothing left of me
And nothing left of you
Our doom will be inevitable
Our death will find itself true
Elizabeth Thorn Aug 2013
I never used to be broken
I never meant to end this way
To be so shattered
Chilled from the inside

I tried to survive
I played along with the lies
Each second leaving me farther in despair
Each minute bringing me closer to death

Some tried to save me
Some tried to help
You cured the need
But the sadness stuck

I'm haunted each day
As I slowly pass away
I'm sorry for the tears
But the sadness is stuck
Elizabeth Thorn Aug 2013
Fogged eyes
Brimmed with tears
Legs welded still
By remnants of words

I stare into a void
Where you once stood
Ten seconds
Or ten hours

At some point you had to leave
You wouldn't stand there forever
Waiting for me to accept
That you would leave forever

You did not come to comfort me
Shield me
From your own words
The ones that ended us

Shattered the memories
The emotions
This isn't us
Not anymore

The promise of forever
Lasted only as long as your interest
I was only a toy
Entertainment for passing time

Used
Abused
This is not what I wanted
This is not what I expexcted

It's too late to fix it
It's too late to care
You can't mend
What isn't there

The silence
It will haunt me
I won't be what I was
I can't forgive what I had
Elizabeth Thorn Aug 2013
You gave me heartache
You gave me heartbreak
You took all you could take
And gave only what was fake

I recall what you'd said
When you knew I'd bled
I took to the knife
Fake love could never suffice

You wouldn't save me then
You won't save me now
You'll never be sorry
So give me a reason to live
Elizabeth Thorn Jul 2013
Dreams
The wings that carry me to freedom
Nightmares
The chains that tear us from that sky

Dreams have been my solace
My sanctuary
My haven
My isolated hideaway

Nightmares have been my hold on reality
The reminder that I cannot escape
The sole reason keeping me from my sleep
The name to my torment

Both good and evil
A balance so shaken
Corrupt as my mind
Time so forsaken
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