Our past seem to be sculptured by the same artists,
Our hearts mended by the same glue,
Our realities filled with the same bumps and twists,
And our happiness becoming something only felt by a few...

if I'm being honest,
You fill my entire being with butterflies,
You're the moment in my day that's best,
You give me clarity to all the lies,

You make me bite my lip,
And get my heart beat to skip
And I know this is all new to you and I
But I guess the best things in life are the moments when we try

- E.A.F

I wish my opinions would echo out
Clear as the dj doing a shout out
See my words make the sound of silence
My thoughts are seen as an act of defiance

I sit back in the dark
Scared I'd leave a mark
Scared to make a squeak,
The only time you'd hear my voice is if I were forced to speak

But I'm done with that
Its time I start swinging back
defending what I believe
Not caring bout what you perceive

I'm done with the wall flower persona
Cause I'm about to go super nova
I'm bursting out with this revolution
'cause I'm tired of living this illusion

The make believe image of peace
Acting like crime isn't obese
Pretending that the skies are blue
'cause these lies are far from true

The lies of our country
Like how there is real equality
But as long as we see this as reality
We can not be seen for our humanity

And only When
When more than a few see it as priority
Then we can really live in a true democracy

A place we are able to call home
With honor and dignity
So we don't have to roam

I don't want ppl seeing us as weak and cheap
I want them to follow us like sheep
I want us to be history makers
Not generation breakers

I see other people turning their heads
Wondering if I should be on meds
'cause my ideas are crazy
But if you ask me, they're just lazy

They don't have the energy
to fulfill our destiny
So I'm here to give you a needed nudge
Its time to stop walking and trudge

By any means necessary some seem to say
But their actions tend to stray away
'cause there is no easy way out
Unless your willing it bow out
But I refuse to quit
Who would that benefit?

So instead of sitting back in the dark
instead of being Scared I'd leave a mark
Instead of being Scared to make a squeak,
Instead of you only hearing my voice when I'm forced speak

I'm going to stand in the spotlight
Make sure my mark is a winning fight,
Make sure my squeak is a roar
And that my voice is accounted for

If you feel you want this hidden anarchy
Feel free

But don't expect me to take the back door
Or to play possum on the floor
'cause I'm bursting out with this revolution
Cause I'm tired of living this illusion

- E.A.F

I want my life filled with a feeling of happiness,
a feeling that replaces this loneliness
A feeling that makes me awaken with a smile
A feeling that shows up and stays for a long while

But even if it so happens that it won't last
Because of our twisted past
I would at least know that it was true
Because of what you did and felt too

I know I'm asking for more
Than I've ever asked before
But when do I ever ask for any assistance?
Never,
So now I'm just hoping this will make a difference

I'm not asking for perfection
I'm asking for protection
I'm not asking for a knight for my arm
I'm asking for a person who is my good luck charm

Just for someone who loves me
Someone to set my mind free
A person that's worth loving
A person that deserved all my hugging

- E.A.F

He's got those hazel eyes
He's got the perfect lies
He makes the world go round
He's like a king just crowned

He stands front and centre
He'd never need a mentor
He has that natural swag
He makes me want to gag

He's everyone's everything
But they don't see a thing
They don't see his cruelty
Or his true dishonesty

He may seem just perfect
But that's incorrect
He's a thorn to a rose
Its his true pose

Yet he somehow thrives
I don't understand how he survives
His life isn't independent
Yet it seems so splendid

He always lies and cheats
And always somehow repeats
He makes my life so difficult
So much so, its makes me see every fault

- E.A.F

a pillow full of tears wasted on you
a box full of tissues no longer new
a bundle of emotions finally set loose
a waste of a chase for a fabled goose

i never thought I'd be the girl to fall
but i fell hard, i nearly lost it all
i lost the sight that holds my foundation
i became blindly bounded by your affection

i know i lot my common sense of direction
but i now no longer consider you a destination
you are a pass-by town on my route
this is my one surety, with no doubt

- E.A.F

Your life was like a shooting star
A broken ray unable to be fixed
Here one moment, gone the next
But now I'm just wondering where you are

Are you out there saving the world
Are you out there heeding my plea
Are you out there thinking of this little girl
Or are you out there finding the key

Something that can save us in the end
so that we don't have to fall hard
A special something that will help us fend?
Or are you hiding in the sky so starred?

These things I love about you
They're the things only you can do
Like the edited photos you create
Or how your touch feels like fate

But don't ask me how these feelings came true
All I know is its because of you

So I love the way you wear your cherry lip glass
I love the way how you have the cutest of laughs
I love how you give me that adorable coy grin
And how even if I lose, it feels like win

I love your long brown hair with a tinge of red
I love how in photos you always tilt your head
I love your relaxing and cheerful companionship
And how this has been the best relationship

I love the way you get mosquito bites so easily
And how you fish for compliments so rarely
I love all those random ***** jokes
And all those silly, but cute, facebook pokes

So with all this in mind think back one year
Back to when I finally overcame that silly fear
The one of you not liking me as more than a friend
All I can say is I'm very happy you said yes in the end.

- E.A.F & Dan van Gool

As my tears rolled down my cheeks, I heard the song of heaven sing his name…

I saw feathers rain down upon me as I cried out his name in sorrow. Oh, how I wished he had a tomorrow. I wished I had one minute, I wished I said what needed to be heard, and I wished I had awoken earlier the day of his demise.

I wished my tears were not real and my smiles were not fake. That I awake at dawn to realize it was all just a nightmare… I wished this was a fairy tale, but instead of a prince, I would have my Dad every step of the way. That if or when I was charmed into marriage, he would tell my groom that his shotgun was just a quick stop at the local shop.

I wished I had him to kiss me good night once more. I wished I had a drive in his car one more time.

I wished I had you… I miss you more than plants would water or the earth would the sun. You were and always will be my angel… tattooed to my heart and imprinted to my soul.

Watch over us.

I wish you knew

The tears hidden behind these eyes
The fears deafened with this laugh
The pain numbed with every smile
It has been years since either all have shown

And to tell the truth
It is all because of you
I would like to think I am better off without you
Because you may have lifted my spirits high

Which left me hang up and dry
Everyone thought I would not coupe
Well, I guess they were right

Because these eyes are finally showing their tears
The fears overcame that laugh
And the pain ripped away each smile.
The fake has faded into black

And I only wish you knew

- E.A.F

To see his name written in anothers writing,
To hear his song sung by anothers voice,
To feel the hole that he once filled
To seek the comfort he once offered
To think I won’t see him again

To see my world continue to spin without its orbit,
To hear the emptiness behind this laughter,
To feel his cold cheeks as I kissed goodbye one last time,
To seek the warmth that once filled his body
To think I won’t hear him again

To see his smile would cause tears of joy to arouse,
To hear his voice would sound like heavens gates opening to the ******
To feel his arms hug me once more
To seek the music we once shared
To think I won’t feel him again

To see new memories won’t include him,
To hear the beating of his heart would be a miracle
To feel like my smiles are forced and my tears flow
To seek that this wasn’t true
To think I won’t have you…

- E.A.F

He appeared at my bedside yet again, His eyes an ethereal blue, Filled with concern and sorrow… He spoke to me as I faked my slumber, I watch his shadow upon my pale brown wall, While he said how he wished he could be seen, Be heard and to be listened to by me…

He cried his sorrows to me as the clock ticked ever so slowly. Every night I awaited his arrival and when my cream curtains shifted, so did my breathing. My heart ached for him, for him to understand, that I too know his sorrow… Even so, he continued to speak…  

He started with the same words every time, “I’ve always been the one to protect you, Nevertheless, I may be in need of protection soon… From the heartache I feel every time I cannot hold you… Every time, I cannot look you in the eyes and say ‘I love you! ‘Every second of every day that I cannot be with you…”

His voice floated in the air as I listened to his repetitive harmony. I had already memorized each angelic feature, each shade of light to his shadow…
He always seemed to continue with, “Even if my heart breaks, you are still the light to my darkness, the stars to my night, and the gravity that holds my sanity.” He always sighed this with his head held in his hands.

I have wondered. However, I had never ventured beyond the slumber that sheltered me. Never able or rather, never courageous enough to do so. No… I would never find out, but at least I knew that, you are the comfort to this pain, the soul to this body And the love to this heart…

- E.A.F

His words and body language had been imprinted on my mind, his grin that played on his lips, those dimples that caused my mind to go high.
Although, each time our eyes meet, my heart fluttered, my stomach filled with reawakened butterflies and all I heard was the song to his voice, the melody to his movement and the tune of our synchronized heartbeats as the seconds passed us by. My ears rang with each glance; my heart escaped its cage with each thought. Yet his smile was what made my toes curl and my nose wrinkle when it appeared.

His voice played music and that smile offered a dance when seen. I gladly accepted every time. As we swayed left, then right, and left, again… time slowed to a standstill. Laughter filled the air and he caused my heart to enter my throat with each note to his song, but time never stops for anyone, so we had to apart.
Although, my heart prayed, begged for another song to be sung, another dance to be done. Alas, the moonlight was bright and the stars were my comfort, until we said our last good nights… for his kiss upon my cheek was my delight.

- E.A.F

Each characters story and adventure has,
Not the same plot,
However, the same emotions.
Their laughter fills my air,
Their first kisses make my lips tingle,
Their happiness leaves a constant smile upon my face,

Their wit and courage bring tears to my eyes,
Their fears and ambitions make reality seem plain boring,
Their delay of reactions and disorientation's help to remind me that their only human...
Everything about them seems so real,
That when they concur obstacles beyond their abilities
All I can do is smile knowing that I had the faith to continue reading their tale.

- E.A.F

The flame to this fearsome beast, shifts with the wind,
This flame in our darkness, glows until unable,
The flame to this monster, changes from hope to despair in seconds
This flame is as humans are…
Destructive, yet inspirational.

- E.A.F

If I were beautiful, would you love me more?
If I were magical, would i be the only one you'd adore?
If I were boisterous, would you laugh until unable?
If I were settled, would you feel more stable?

If I were spontaneous, would we have an adventure?
If I was fast-reacting, would our life move in a blur?
If I were lonely, would you kiss me at the kissing booth?
If I were mysterious, would you want to know the truth?

If I was rude, would you think of cursing?
If I wasn't me, would you fall for this person?
If I were me, would you want to be my joy?
If I were me, would i be more than your toy?

If I was optimistic, would you seal the deal?
If you had empathy, would you feel what I feel?
If I were a star, would you see how you make me shine?
If I were your love, would you see beyond the lie "I'm Fine."

- E.A.F

I no longer had the words,
I felt vulnerable and unarmed
My heart ached and was constantly alarmed
As if, my fight ended with the destruction of my swords

Treasure were within the reach of my trembled nerves
Severed footsteps on hallow ground,
Walked along the narrowed corridor curves,
Ran further and further away, screaming without saying a sound.

- E.A.F

As the cherry blossoms reached for one another
A lady filtered through her memories of yesterday
From her first concert to her very first lover
To the first time she was forced into the fray.

As the winds blew and the leaves danced
Her memories became something of the past
Faces became a blur and unrecognizable at a glance
And all she felt was hidden behind a sorrowful mask

Everything she once knew was fading out.
Replacing confidence with a fearful doubt
Each step, each corner changed in a haste
Each word, each breath became a waste.

No one to help her anymore
All she could do was change her window to a door

- E.A.F

I miss the wish that came true,
I miss the arms that wrapped around me,
I miss the love I received by you,
I miss the comfort that use to be…

I miss the cheerfulness in life,
I miss you when I see a smile,
I miss that you loved my mom, your wife
I miss your hug every once in a while

I miss everything to do with you
Like the peeks on my cheek
All the times you said, “I Love you”
And the part about not being weak

I miss not hating myself,
I miss that wish that came true.

- E.A.F

Valentine, oh, valentine
How I hope you hear my rhyme.
So that it is perceived correctly
And spoken, with words formed by me, directly
And for you to understand my love for you
It is no joke, or form of mockery,
but one felt by, not many,
but a few

- E.A.F

A boy said to a girl,
Something that made him her world,
He said, “In every book, in every tale,
They say the hero is always the male,
However, times are changing into a new
And my true hero will always be you.”

- E.A.F

I am a person with a heart that is in need of mending,
A person that feels weak and tends to fail when it comes to self-defending,
But I can’t lie and say that I don’t have some good,
Because when no one else would,
I tried to help the frail
Even if it turned me to become weakened and pale…

I always try to take one-step further,
But to be honest, I am still a learner,
I don’t know what I should be doing in this life,
This era filled of darkness and strife.

A place where you can’t always think things through,
Where not everything you’ve been told is true,
But one can only try to change the outcome
Because, before named victor, you’d have to run.

- E.A.F

I never know if I should be moving on
Or staying strong
I never know
how to control
these feelings
That are whispering
In my ear

The feelings that ignite
The moon and stars
Just because I’m willing to fight
Even if I don’t know where you are

I don’t know how you feel
I don’t know if you think this is real
I don’t know when you want to talk
And I don’t know if you’ll stay or walk

But I do know
that I think I like you
'Cause I feel the sting of Cupids’ bow
And I’m hoping you do too

I feel the sting of that never ending bow
I feel the angel wings surrounding me
I feel that mysterious glow
I feel like I’m okay with only you and me

But I wish upon a star
Every night
That I’m right bout you who are
Oh how I hope I’m right

'Cause I know how I feel
I know I wish this were real
I know when I want to talk
And I know I don’t want to walk

'Cause

I feel the sting of that stupid bow
I feel the angel wings surrounding me
I feel that mysterious glow
I feel like I’m okay with only you and me

But I don’t know if you’ll stay or go
I don’t know if you’ll walk that walk
I don’t know if you feel this too
And I don’t know if you ever really want to talk

But most of all

I never know if I should be moving on
Or staying strong
I never know
how to control
these feelings
That are whispering
In my ear

- E. A. F

Are my tears forced or real?
Are my emotions truly what I feel?
Or do I just stand and wait?
As if to say my heart will take any plain, old bait
As if the only happiness I will ever see is that of others,
The ones with a happy mom and dad, a sister and of cause those annoying brothers.

The ones who haven’t felt this level of pain,
Maybe the kind that the earth feels when hit by the rain,
But not the kind to make a notebook and pen become a best friend.
Not the kind to make solitude the only thing you’d defend.

No, not the kind to make you feel lonely in a crowded room.
Not the kind to take your reason to life away with a great, big boom.

I envy those that have what I do not,
I hate those that can love what I can not,
I miss those that left me behind…
I wish those memories wouldn’t haunt my mind.

The memories of walking into my first stage of hell,
Tears that could overflow a bottomless well,
Screams of help that could make a deaf person cringe
And teardrops so acidic they could cause my skin to singe

All apart what I am, both strong and weak.
Parts of the past that will always cause a tear to roll down my cheek

And you ask if I’m doing well?
If you must know.. I’m in my second stage of hell.
Seven more to go from here
I’ll let you know if I ever get back to where my heart is near.

- E. A. F

My page seemed to be blank
I looked at the emptiness and my heart rate sank
I felt the unfilled lines creep off the page
coated with a fearsome rage

Refined with the rejection of my pen,
Enough to end the lives of a thousand men
The lines danced around my throat
Tempted me to start what I never wrote

It started,
“There once was girl, faint-hearted was she,
For her first love was forced to flee
And now dreadfully parted
Her heart beat ached and flickered
For their love and lust still lingered…”

I sat and stared at the twisted sentences
And reread these words of emphasis
The lines sorrow set flight
Allowed my pulse to sleep that night    

- E. A. F

The tune that sets off my alarm
The notes that carry all of my charm
The shivers that make my heart flutter
And my essence melt like butter

The breeze that seeps through the wind chimes
The echoing instruments that full countless lifetimes
The fingers that move against the threads of the soul
Compositions that leave a person feeling whole

The sighing highs and the weeping lows
The breathless moments to the shows
The fulfillment to the crowds screams
The fuel to my fire, my dreams

The mystery behind the composer’s movement
The magic within this fulfillment
The love I entrust with the soul of the music
This feeling leaving me static

I can feel cloud nine within my reach
Don’t make me sit and preach
About my past experiences
And all the consequences
That have left me on my knees
Begging father please
Be rid of my sins
And treasure my wins

Let me Follow what might be
The future me,
my true shades and shape
For this is my one and only escape

- E. A. F

I’ve been left with countless memories, moments of us
All the feeling we once shared, like love, happiness and trust

But my heart is aching
Its breaking
I don't know what to do now
I don't know when, where or how
No, not anymore,
I’m too sore

I can see the fork in the road
I’m taking its as the code
To see if I live my happily ever after
Even if I can't hear the laughter
Or see the smiles
'Cause I’ve traveled far away, for miles and miles

Out of sight, just like I wanted
But I can’t help but feel haunted
By what u left me
By what we could be

I’ve walked bare foot in the rain
I’ve tried to control the pain
But I can’t contain
No, no no
What I’m feeling
No no no

'Cause I Thought you loved me
But turns out I was blinded by glee
this fork lightened the shadows
And opened all the doors and windows

And when the light seeped through
I realized that we were finally through

- E. A. F

You’re my ark to this overflowing flood
Shepard to these lost herds
The sun to the unwanted mud
The teacher to these needy nerds

You’re the foundation of my pillar
The plot to a best-seller
You’re my number after zero
And my one and only superhero

My point is, you’re the skip to my step
The reason behind my pep
The dew to my summer grass
And the springs chirping birds that fly pass

But I guess you already know that
With all the winks and kisses in our chat
You’d be blind to not understand
That you’re apart of the life I have planned

- E. A. F

When I see you, I can’t help but bite my lip and twirl my hair
To feel no care in the world and it only seems fair.
I can’t help but lower my head as my heart rate heightens
And to have all my inhibitions disperse as my sorrow lightens

And when we speak, I can’t help but tuck a curl behind my ear
And smile like an idiot while your near
To cross my arms
As if to shelter myself from your charms

Even if I try hid it
And there’s no point trying to deny it
Because, I still giggle like a child on a sugar high
And I would never want to say good bye

‘Cause I get butterflies only wen I see you
I feel longing only when I hear your voice
And I only need you to be the one to say ‘I love you”
And to be your one and only choice
You may be clumsy and a bit of a goof
But one day soon I hope you’ll make you move

For Wen I see you, I can't help but bite my lip and twirl my hair
To feel no care in the world and it only seems fair.
I can't help but lower my head as my heart rate heightens
And to have all my inhibitions disperse as my sorrow lightens

Somehow, We both seem to have a problem with a few things
We stutter and sweat over the smallest of things
Like your mumbled hello and my hushed good bye
And the in between where we’re only able to try…

Even if I try hid it,
there’s no point trying to deny it
I still giggle like a child on a sugar high
And I would never want to say good bye

- E. A. F

Door ways locked ahead
Windows banged shut instead.
Footsteps echoed along
Voices of mockery sang a song
Shivered from head to toe
Awaited a dreaded foe

Stillness replaced the moment
Emptiness overcome the fulfillment
A laugh of vengeance screeched
Until that limit was reached
Shivered from head to toe
Awaited a dreaded foe

Sat down, not willed to fight on
Knowing that they’ve already won
Last breathes taken away
Fore today was my last day

- E. A. F

Frowns of sorrow raise,
No one stands to praise
Joy merging with the carnage
Warriors trapped in their own cage
Fleeting maidens seek out aid
While souls turn dark and start to fade

A kingdom crumbles to dust
Fir the king could not contain his lust
Which lead to a witch crowned queen?
She who is never truly seen…

He mistook her as a truthful wife,
Even though she was destined to take his life,
A stab to the chest and betrayal occurred
Yet, his death was not enough to cause her black heart to be cured

Still old and weak,
She saw a frightened tear run down a little girls’ cheek

Her black hair, pale skin and red lips screamed beauty
The witch walked over and explained her death was her duty

A scream echoed through the hollow halls,
Blood smeared and stained these dreaded walls

For, her skin as pale as snow,
Her body still in need to grow,
Her hair so dark yet it seemed to shine
And her red lips glistened against the light, as if to say, “I’ll be fine.”

Its as simple as that
Its the down to earth fact
That I only have 3 words
To make all the birds
Go chirpidy-chirp

To make all those nerds
Crumble at your feet
With their pocket protectors, awaiting every meet

These three words
Cause all of my sighs
And the regret to those goodbyes
The butterflies to the sweet hellos
Cause your not like all the other fellows

These three words have been held inside me
Unsure of what will be
Unable to set them lose
Afraid I’d being chasing a goose

But with every word you’ve said
A truthful smile followed suit
With a kiss upon your forehead
And something cute

And when things became clear as day
I just wanted to say
Something that close to me and true
I love you

- E. A. F

You may see me as an eagle
Soaring just above the scarlet sunset
But you don't see my inner struggle
So much so its as if we've never met

Friends in theory
Strangers in practice
My minds corrupt and scary
Yours moralized with a sense of justice

I look at you and see civilization
You look at me and think we are the same
And I know you just haven’t come to the realization
That in this tragedy I am to blame

You look at it all and still see a silver lining
But all I see is the eye of a hurricane
Even though you see a light ever so blinding
I’m struck with a swirling gust of pain

But in a perfect world
Parallel to that of our own
My hair would be naturally curled
10111 wouldn’t be set on my phone
And I would be content
I wouldn’t have to repent.

- E. A. F

I see you for your light
I see you shining bright
For when I look at you
All I see is something new
For when I look at you, I see it all
From summer to fall

The autumn winds and the summer rays
The youth to these days
The lush meadows
The oach tree’s flowing shadows
And the streams in the cracks of the concrete
Even the radio signal’s greet

For when i look at you
I can’t help but sense a clue
A clue to our happiness
The key to end our sadness

Its as if a rush from outer space,
a extreme car chase
Or adrenaline racing through me
Which all this caused
These echoing heart beats from me

- E. A. F

We’ve known each other for far to long
We’ve stood together through thick and thin
For instance, you hugged me when I cried during king kong
And I’ve admittedly lost to see you win

And you my friend have got it all wrong
Yes you my friend think this is a friends forever song
but no (x3)
this one (x3)
is for you

You see my friend, I don’t want to be friends
You see my friend, your my someone

My someone to do crazy things with
My someone to dance and sing with
My someone to cry on
My someone to wipe my tears gone

My someone who’d say my name and rejoice
My someone who’d crumble at the sound of my voice
My someone who’d think “wow, she’s beautiful”
My someone who’d say “a life without you would be sorrowful”

We’ve known each other for far to long
We’ve stood together through thick and thin
For instance, you hugged me when I cried during king kong
And I’ve admittedly lost to see you win

And you my friend have got it all wrong
Yes you my friend think this is a friends forever song
but no (x3)
this one (x2)
is for you

You see my friend, I don’t want to be friends
You see my friend, your my someone

- E. A. F

I see no need for this violence
Its crazy, stupid and senseless
It turns the capable to powerless
And the strong to defenseless

It screams are the killings from the merciless
The shots in the air are the shells becoming a known emptiness
The cold bodies in the mud, left lifeless
And the wounded left homeless

And I can’t begin to pretend to be sightless
I can’t turn a blind eye and fake righteousness
And I won’t sit by ideally and say I’m fearless
When, if I were, I would be out there do something to priceless…

If I were I would be saving the lives of those left behind
And I would search for what generations before us could never find.
Peace.

- E. A. F

You may not be in the crowd tonight,
But you will be with me on stage,
For you are apart of my spotlight,
And the makers of who I am to this day and age

You are the molds to my sculptures,
The notes to my music
The mystery to my adventures
And the person who leave me static

You may not be at every show or event
And you may not be there when wanted,
But you are there when I’m in need to vent
And when I feel like I’m being taunted…

When I can’t help but shed a tear
And when I feel like my whole world is about to disappear
When I feel as if I may collapse
Or have a mental relapse

You hold my hand and comfort me
And set my worries free

- E. A. F

I see the demons
Surrounding me
Choking me
Just over taking me

these feelings never been set free
Feelings of hate and misery
Like a boom created in chemistry
Tick, tick, boom

Used for the suffocation of society
promised to end its entirety
Carried out like life’s philosophy
Only to end in tragedy

The lives of millions become history
For you all live in idiocy
Unable
Untold
Unbelievable

You all are blinded so easily
Not willed to act freely
You have been misguided so eagerly
Your lack of education appalls me
Why you even sit here is clueless to me

I can see that you disagree
But I can see me in you to a certain degree

I see the hate and misery
I see the boom you and I created too easily
I see the fuel to it, all too clearly
And Its not me

I may say it as I see it
But that’s because
That’s a portion of me,
I’ve looked into that mirror so thoroughly
I’ve lost track of what was me
But I’m back finally
And I’m ready to be free

- E. A. F

Let me fly into the sky
With my head held high
these broken wings
Can’t carry me

So I beg you please
Resurrect me
Bring me to life
Once again

Level the plain
Be real with me
Is what I did so wrong
Even if our love was so strong?

A smile that holds my heart
A person not willed to play the part
A creeping feeling that makes me sink
A thought that causes me to over think

A hug that steals away my affection
A face that seems too close to perfection
A stupid text that gives me hope
Only too tie my throat with a rope

A set of eyes that have me
A voice that sets me free
A note of a final goodbye
One that made me cry

Gorgeous is
What she is
Gorgeous is
What I’m not

Yet your smile holds my heart
Even your not willed to play the part
A creeping feeling that makes me sink
A ****** thought that only makes sense in ink

Gorgeous is
What she is
Gorgeous is
What I’m not

Your hug still steals away my affection
Your face still seems too close to perfection
Your stupid text still gives me hope
Only too tie my throat with a rope

A set of eyes that have me
A voice that sets me free
A note of a final goodbye
One that made me cry

- E. A. F

This air so dark and unsanitary
It reeks of smoke and carbon dioxide
Yet breathing it in is mandatory
And there is no place to hide

And if we don’t soon start a revolution
We will continue to curse and sentence this world to death
This generation may not see its extinction
But our descendants will feel it taking it’s last breath

- E. A. F

We laughed and cried together,
We danced and sang together.
We did everything together,
But I think we’re no longer together.

I think its
Too late now to reminisce,
To second guess,
For you to care,
even if you’d try to dare.

Because you made your choice,
You chose her quietness over my noise.
Her beauty over my personality,
Her clarity over my blurred reality.

You may think now that your mistaken,
But my eyes have been forced open.

You may have had me whipped from beginning to end,
Had me spun like a thread,
And had to pretend,
But I can now see through all you said.

Even if at on stage or another,
We laughed and cried together,
We danced and singed together,
We did everything together,

I think its
Too late now to reminisce.
Too late to second guess.
Too late for you to care
Even if you’d try dare..

- E. A. F

Our freedom will be the outcome of what we are fighting for
You may feel as if we are crawling on this blood stained floor
But we have just a few more steps to take before we can soar
So, stop the tunnel vision, stop this war,

’cause we also have what we believe in now
This imprisonment should end no matter what they allow
Our belief should stomp their efforts against us
We should not let them come between us

We should fight until our last breath
Maybe one day, we can stop
But only when we feel that we’ve done enough
But this should never end with our death
Maybe one day, when we feel that we’ve done enough
For this thought should consist of both hope and love

Hope for an ideal that can change a country
Love for a sense that can only bring unity
Awareness for the fact that we have a common enemy
Hate for the fact they rain upon us in vanity

Their actions have an aftereffect
Ones that not one person can mend
We need, now more than ever, to no longer JUST reflect
But to make this all come to an end

- E. A. F

We’ve all lived in that dark dark place
Where no one ever came face to face
I saw everyone’s walls as they rebuilt
I searched for the answer to what we all felt

I felt myself fall and tumble
And watched as my own walls began to crumble
Yet I couldn’t help myself
‘Cause I wasn’t myself

And even though they said it gets better
Why did it feel like I was sleeping on a stretcher
Or the cold concrete floor of lives gutter
‘Cause I couldn’t find my way out of that clutter

Until I was pulled to side
And told it was no time to hide
It was time to stand up
And recognize we were all fed up

Fed up with society
Fed up with our anxiety
Fed up with their priorities
Fed up with most of humanity

So we smashed our walls to dust
We began to learn that the key was trust
Trust that we will never again go down that *****
Trust in one anothers hope

-E. A. F

I need you far away from me
I want love as vibrant as can be
I need a shelter from the storm
I want a set of arms to keep me warm

Not yours,
No, not yours
I tried my best to please you
But you still shoot your words like bullets
Isn't that true

You shoot me in the heart
But that was only the start
You shoot my pride
You made me want to run and hide

You shoot me in the head
Just with the simple words you said
You shoot me to end it all
But never let me take that final fall

You mistreated me over and over
You abuse me time and again
Your words hit like a stone to glass
Yet your fists stayed quiet
like a student in class

You butcher me
Motionlessly
You ended me
So emotionlessly

I took all the of the abuse
I let you hit me for the simplest of bad news
You hit me with your words
Yes you did !!

"Stop!"
I would shout every once in a while
"Stop please, I don’t want to fight!"
And you’d just smile
You made me think there was light

But that’s when the belt left your waistline
That’s when you said I had to pay my outdated fine

My fee for standing up
My fee for even looking up
My fee for trying to be free
My fee for attempting to flee

So I felt the sting across my back
I felt the buckle that made contact
I felt the whips, as my soul left me
I felt myself take my last breath while he chocked me.

- E. A. F

I want my mirror to steam up
I want my heart to shut the hell up
I want these tears to go to hell
All I want is for you go there as well

See if my mirror steamed up
I wouldn’t see the reflection that’s so ****** up
But If my heart doesn’t stop aching
I think I may end up faking

Faking the smiles and laughs
Pretending I’ve put up glass
Instead of this 10 foot brick wall
So no1 can see my pain at all

I know that I may be more
More than a friend to you
But I feel like you’d kick me to the floor
If she ever came running back to you

So I love you
And I know you love her
so guess I’m just another you
Hoping for a miracle to occur,
Falling in love with someone who won’t love me 2

And I may be mad
I may say you should go to hell
But its ’cause you drive me mad
You make my pain disappear into a well

I don’t know how to deal with this
’cause all it took for me was one simple kiss.
although, even before that night
You fulled my darkness with light.

So I love you
And I know you love her
so guess I’m just another you,
Hoping for a miracle to occur,
Falling in love with someone who won’t love me 2

- E. A. F

No distrust my friend,
But I’ve been to the other end.
Where we are unable to breath,
Where we’re seen as just part of a weave.

A thread instead of a person,
A metaphor taken literally,
Only to have our lives worsen,
And no, I’m not talking figuratively.

I’m talking with all my honesty,
’cause they may say that we should be grateful,
But for me to live by my life policy
I will not be regretful.

So I will stand up and scream.
I will speak my thoughts.
I will let freedom and revolt be my life’s new theme,
And I will rewrite these unfair plots

I won’t let you control me,
Because what am I if not free?

- E.A.F

I gave your heart away just the other day
I didn’t want you to stay
It felt wrong, yet right
’cause I didn’t want to end your light

You fought with all your might
You thought you’d win this fight
But I said to you baby
You can’t save me

You always thought I was one in a few
And that may have been true
But I’m no light, I’m a darkness, one of a kind
Something that should be left behind

Like these thoughts, so undefined
The ones that make me want to rewind
Back to when I let you slip away
Back to that imperfect day.

- E.A.F

We live in a world of consequences
Where freedom and safety are kept in fences
In this world everyone seeks one in the same
But they treat our future like it’s a game

But I don’t want to play ball
I want to fight for it all
I want freedom, fraternity and equality
But not for my generation alone, for an eternity

You see, foreigners may see the buzzing bee’s and the singing sparrows
But we live in the cruelty of the shadows
Where ****, ****** and poverty prevail
Where justice only seems to fail.

But I don’t want to play ball no more
I want to fight for it all
I want safety, choice and an education
Not only for me, but the entire nation

We may not all live to see my vision
But I know that’s never our decision
This just provides an easier choice to make
‘Cause I can’t sit around, I’ll break.
For while I have opportunity,
The rest of my people, my community
Are out there suffering an unjust cruelty

I wont play
I will fight today
They may see me as young, naive and inferior
But all I’ve got to reply is I’ll defeat ya

So stand up and fight with me
‘Cause what would our future be
if we let this be the reason to our defeat
And the unbecoming greet
To our own dooms day
‘Cause if we leave it, it won’t go away.

- E. A. F

I find myself sitting here
Wondering what’s over there
And the only answer is nothing
When it should be something.

Because I’ve seen lives handed out,
And some being thrown out.
Yet we just sit by waiting for the next one…
Not sure if they’ve lost or won.

’cause to be freed from here,
We know, could be the only cure
A cure to the disease we’ve spread
Its the only thing our planet has been fed

Pollution, greed, destruction and more.
Its plenty more than what we hoped for.
We hoped to recreate this world
But our intentions have be swirled

We fought for our lives
Yet we destroy what is left to revive
We fought for our humanity
Yet we destroy it in pointless vanity

We’ve walked through the moments
But I refuse to ignore these events
Not sensing the countless mishaps
I keep thinking
“Perhaps..”

Perhaps someone will hear this truth
Not take it as a lie but as proof
That we need to change our ways
If not soon, then we’ll say good bye to our yesterdays

“Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot,
Nothing is going to get better. Its not.”

- E.A.F

Last breaths taken away from them
The end to a journey of knowledge
The final stitching to a dresses hem
The first step to the worlds edge

Clouds are fewer
Rains are fonder
Pastors are newer
And yet I begin to wander

Beep-beep beep-beep
A light flashes repeatedly
Annoying me out of my sleep
I get up eventually

My head aches for silence
It pounds for caffeine
My body readies to balance
As my feet hit the ground in routine

I stretch and close my eyes
Whipping away these flakes of sand
As my head screams out, its cries
My legs refuse to listen to my command

One by one they move forward
They begin to trudge lazily
My mind thinking backward
Thinking about the times that were so giddy

- E.A.F