Can sorry be said in a thousand ways?
Can it be accepted in years and days?
Can it be the lullaby I sing to you
Or do you think that this isn’t true?

I know that many have their views
And that what we do shouldn’t be apart of their daily news
But what if I want the world to understand
That I want to put a silver ring on your left hand?

What if I’m over trying to hide who I am?
That if life’s a game, it sure as hell feels like an exam
One where we are told what’s wrong and right
Where we aren’t allowed to chose between dark or light

Because society has moulded us into puppets
Ones that have been hit by one too many bullets
Even so, I guess what we feel has always been a mask
Whether we had the choice to be apart of their task

I think that if one of us ever asked out in worry
I think they’d only reply sorry
But I’m done being moulded into their toy
Its about time that I start fighting for my own joy

- E.A.F

We use to sit and talk every once in a while,
We had moments that consisted of only a smile.
A few secrets were lifted
And feelings seemed to have drifted,

But I still found myself counting stars,
Searching for your favorite cars.
Believing we had it all,
Even knowing we were about to fall.

I knew I was boarding a sinking ship,
But I hoped that was just a false tip.
A jealous remark from an old lover,
Something to separate me from another.

Yet your words still roam my mind,
Thinking how did I ever get this blind?
You knew from the start right?
You knew I wouldn’t be the one to end this fight.

So you sat me down and explained
That you didn’t want to be claimed.
You didn’t want to have to fake.
You didn’t want to cause my heart break.

So,
I watched all your pauses,
I heard you repeat all the causes.
I hoped that it was all a bad dream,
But I guess that’s too main-stream

Because I looked you in the eyes.
I saw no trust, no love, just lies.
I didn’t see the person that I thought I knew
And that’s when I recognized the fake within you…

- E.A.F

Every second, every day
I wish you never went away
Its been more than a year
Since I saw you near

But my mind still remembers you
It goes back and forth wondering
What if this wasn’t true
What if this was just a way of smothering

A cruel torture added to my life
A pain not caused by any knife
Something to make me doubt
And wonder what they talk about

Maybe its about you and I
How I kept trying to say goodbye

But then I’d be alone
Like someone without a home
Like an inventor in the stone age
Like a rock star without a stage

I’d be alone
With nothing willing me to atone

However, There are no hidden clues
There’s nothing for the hound to sniff
Realities alarm clock seems to have no snooze
And there is no “What if”

But the torture is far too true
Its something many have grown to know
Its the mourning of someone you once knew
A feeling of absolute woe

We have all experienced the lose of love
Whether its from the heart or above

- E. A. F

Shattered glass spread across her face,
Her screams reached out with no such grace.
Her hands touched the clothes she wore,
She hoped she wouldn’t have to feel too much more.

Her screams became numb as she did.
Her hands clung to her arms as she hid,
Her fear keeping her nervous and quiet
And that’s when she felt it.

A nudge from nowhere sent her out into the open in a rush.
Her voice barely audible as she was told to hush.
Her mouth blocked by a hand she could no longer see
Her heart begged for him to hear her plea

She moved his hand away and begged in whimper,
“I see no way to make this simpler.
Just be done with me now,
I’m tired of thinking about when and how.
If you’re going to end me,
Then it let it be.”

Surprised captured her as her body was left
She gasped and savoured her last breath
But seconds passed and she turned and froze
For, she saw a man she alone knows.

- E. A. F

The day that had me fixed to the ground
The day that made me wake up and look around
The day I felt the true meaning of woe
The day I was forced to watch you go

This day is one engraved forever in my memory
A day that sneaks into my dreams so easily
The unique moment in my life that made me realise
That life is full of both truths and lies

That even when sorrowful death is seen
it doesn’t mean that the living always believed
The fact that I was a child, only fifteen
Created my desperate need to be relieved

I wanted the pain to go away
I Didn’t want you to be gone yet another day
I wanted your cold skin to be warm yet again
I wanted to escape to way back when

Back when I could hear your laughter echo through the mall
Back when the last time I saw you wasn’t in a picture on the wall
Back when I didn’t have to cry about you to the unearthly heavens
Back when you didn’t live among the haloed legends

But back to the now we live in
Back to how this could only be the beginning
For with the breaths were blessed with today
And we shouldn’t let these memories fade away

We should learn to stand together hand in hand
In remembrance of those who left unplanned
And learn to preach life’s wonder and glory
’cause I don’t know about you, but that’s how I’d like them to tell my story

- E.A.F

Don’t let them get you down
Just turn away and look around
You know how hard life is
So don’t let them do this

You should know you’re more than average
You’re got that spark in need of a stage
You’ve got a voice in need of a mic
If you get that, what’s not to like?

Do you understand what you are?
You’re a wish made upon a shooting star

You’ve got the courage of a lion
So don’t let them get you crying
You’ve got the heart of a saint
So don’t you dare think to faint

You’re stronger than the big mighty shark
Even though you’re scared of the dark
You’re louder than the great typhoon
Yet you don’t get up before noon

Don’t you see what you could be?
You could be the one and only
The one to set the world a light
Not with flames but with your might

- E.A.F

These words are trapped inside of me
I don’t know why, but I can’t set them free
They itch at the inside of my throat
Asking, begging me to sing that single note

A sound that cascades from the heavens
One that’s answering all these questions
Questions of life, love and death
I keep wondering if this note will be my last breath

And if it is, if this is the last breath I take
Then let it be, not a tremble, but an earthquake
For I want people to, not forget me, but commemorate
As I believe that my legacy is destined through fate

A fate decided through the eyes of those above
A life I would leave feeling proud of
Because even if I don’t make my dreams come true
I know that my morals will remained just, through in through

- E.A.F

Once upon a time
I was yours and you were mine
We spent every second together
We were meant to be friends forever

Yet unspoken words torn us apart
Now I keep wondering when did this all start
When did we start having awkward moments
When did we start seeing each other as opponents

I keep thinking back to the days of yesterday
When we thought our friendship would never go away
But here we are trying to have a good old DMC
But we’re not willing to let the truth be

We aren’t the best of buds anymore
Seems we had surgery, ’cause we aren’t attached by the hip anymore

But I’m willing to try resurrect this friendship
’cause I’m not willing to up and jump ship
Not yet, I want to try harder and not sink
Its going to have to capsize before I even think

Think about closing my door in your face
Think about leaving without a trace

- E.A.F

What if the person you see now
Is not worth a single “wow”
What if she loves too easily
But doesn’t have that kind of loyalty

Maybe, she only cares for herself
Maybe she is emotionally wrecked
Maybe she thinks to harm herself
Maybe she shouldn’t be seen a perfect…

’cause the pressure is eating at her
And she can only think of one single cure
A way to live a happy life for good
Is for her to no longer hide under a hood..

- E.A.F

We’ve shared moments I couldn’t explain
Some of love, some of joy and even pain
You were my comfort during the lonely nights
Even if you went crazy everytime you saw lights

You and I were the best of buds from day one
Some found your craziness to be a lose, I was convinced I had won
’cause what came with your weirdness
Was a heart that was never emotionless

You waited for me everyday after school
You may have even acted like the biggest fool
And maybe you were in some ways
But I loved you any ways

So I’ll try not to be too sad that you left
And I’ll try not to consider your hold on my heart as theft
Because you were there when I was in need of love
I guess I just can’t handle that you’re now living in the sky above….

- E.A.F

I guess these happy times are over.
I no longer own that four leaf clover,
’cause just as everything was going right,
It turned wrong in broad day light.

My heart wept and cried and ached,
It try a smile which was forced and faked.
My body fell and crumbled as it lay.
For it felt as if today was my last day.

’cause my heartbeat echoed and trembled,
While its core recharged and reassembled.
My body capsized, left with no hope or wonder.
No need to do either about the future.

- E.A.F

The crackled tensions drifted about
Echoed voices reached out
A darkened room with one ray of light
A couple danced all through the night

But then a blue rose was found and followed by glee,
Because the man went down on one knee
Fore, instead of thorns on its stem
A golden ring replaced them

- E. A. F

Rooms of multiple emotions
Each step taken with my inhibitions
A breath of stale air
Lead to feelings I couldn’t bare

A flash of memory and hope
Only to be shot through a snipers scope
The past and future were probably dead
This only caused the fire to b feed

Each room was over flowed
Some dark, others glowed
Unable to see right from wrong
Not knowing when to be strong
Or how to be weak
And let that tear run down my cheek

You see, in the mist of these nightmares,
I wondered if anyone truly cared
Fore I sat alone in that corridor
And asked for something more

Something to cause me glee
Instead of an instinct to flee
Then a hand appeared in mid-air
I looked and wondered how it got there

And then a saw a beaut
She was as young as I
But as we locked eyes
She morphed, she aged
She shifted and changed

To someone who never lies
To someone who saved me from my own demise
And despite all the trouble
Refused to let me crumble

My rooms now glow with all my pain gone
That’s the reason I call you my Mom !!

- E. A. F