Happiness flashes through me like a lightening bolt;
here, gone.

The distance between sun and moon,
forever chasing each other,
never catching up,
running in circles,
light to dark,
that's our love,
it's never enough.
But unlike heavenly bodies,
I've grown tired,
I'm giving up.

Hello,

I'm losing myself again,
it's getting hard like it was back then,
i'm leaving for now, I can't wait for you to say when,
I know this is unexpected based on how good we've been.

You keep me going but you make me fall,
my strength becomes weakness when you come to call,
I can't hold my head up high anymore when all I want is to curl into a ball,
I can't continue to give you my all.

I'll always be here if you need me though,
please don't take this as a hard blow,
i'll be back for you, promise, so don't let go,
I love you too much so I need the pace to slow.

Stay strong for me when life get's rough,
don't give up when you think you've had enough,
you have so much potential and goodness and stuff,
just remember that for me, always stay tough.

I'll be seeing you.

This lost soul longs to escape
this seemingly unfamiliar body.

I feel myself slipping away,
seeping into the cracks of your soul,
you're taking all that I have left,
but with no intention to remain.
A dangerous game I feel we're playing,
knowing I want to be your lover,
only allowing me to be your friend,
this won't last as i'm losing myself,
you'll take it all and look for more,
but nothing will be left,
and you'll leave me in the end.

Cracking ribs beneath rotting flesh,
punctured lungs from shattered bone,
losing breath beneath lover's grip,
the heavy burden of accusations thrown.

This soul is covered in ash left behind
from those who've burned me with their selfish lies
with matches in hand and flawed regrets they stand
as they watch the heat that chars my bones
and melts away the last heart-string I own.

No going back, they can't change this obscenity
they made their choice when they walked away,
my love was in their hands,
the love that encompassed my entire being,
now I am forced to give what's left to the dark,
the dark I've been forever running from,
the death I will now gladly welcome.

Stay away, it's not like
you were ever here before.

I'd like to be buried deep beneath the soil,
six feet under no longer breathing; no more toil.

My lungs are tired,
my heart carved out,
no one listens to me scream and shout.

My darkest fantasies ignite in my skull,
cutting, biting, drowning, I want it all.

Give me the pain I need to feel alive,
then leave my side as I slowly die.

The light is still on
so where are you now?

When your words cease nightly,
I lose sleep craving them.

Your words have left me hopeful once again,
they seep into the cracks between each of my bones,
entering my bloodstream, through my veins,
creating a euphoric feeling I can't seem to shake.
My love for you grows each day,
I'll never leave your side,
I'll be here until the day I die,
I feel the weight of this beneath my ribs,
but I love the ache, it keeps me going,
it reminds me that you're here on this earth,
whether or not you are mine,
you make every day more beautiful,
your existence takes my breath away.

These girls I have,
they keep me strong,
they're always there when I come back,
no matter how long I am gone.
Forever and always,
I can see it now,
we will never betray each other,
our love wouldn't allow,
it took a lot of trust for us
to get to where we are,
but we are still here,
together somehow.

Your eyes scream 'help me'
so I come to you.

Your eyes hold the heavens,
your lips hold the sea.

Galaxies float above me while
I dream of other lives.

Why can't it be me,
do you not see how perfect,
how everything you say,
how every move you make,
proves we are meant to be?

Why won't you open your eyes and see
just how beautiful you are to me,
I see a picture of the stars,
I think of you,
the ocean waves whisper your name,
I can't escape your ever-living grace.

I can't change how I feel,
my heart has been carved out
and stitched back together with
every word that you say,
your breath keeps me alive,
even though you are so far away.

*Please, we are meant to be.
Please, I want us to be.

I can't move,
I can't breathe,
stop staring,
every person in the room,
staring, glaring.
Heat surges through my veins,
from my ears straight to my toes,
heart is racing,
sweat beading,
staring, glaring.
I can't speak,
I can't see,
stop staring,
i'm shrinking,
I want to disappear,
why can't I disappear?
Staring, glaring.
I can't run,
i'm locked in this cage,
my mind's a mess,
tearing me apart,
why are they staring,
why are they glaring?

You are the closest thing
I have to a star.

My bones shift under
your heavy gaze;
my heart stops.

May the beauty of the Earth
remain in my eyes.

If I could fall asleep
with you in my arms...

The wind carried the ghost of my soul to you.

Left outside in the pouring rain,
I wait for you.

I'm in love,
that's all there is to it,
the feelings will never end,
she's beautiful,
her soul's filled with goodness,
you'll have to take my word,
I want to spend the rest of my life with her.

Hello, you,
I cannot sleep,
you fell fast
before I could
even say goodnight.
I hope your dreams
are sugary sweet,
like eating
candied apples
with views
of autumn leaves.
I'll let you rest
your little head
upon your warm
and cozy bed,
no disturbance
from me, you'll see,
instead i'll leave this
poem here for you,
the one you'll never read.

Flowers scattered
upon thick grass,
rose petals laid for
those who rest.

Laughter heard in the dead of night,
deep in the forest one could see a faint light,
drawn to the shadows of the wooded glen,
an enchanting gathering takes place here every now and again.

Creeping silently in the dark,
the crisp air, the smell of aged bark,
one glance and it's clear,
it's the pixie's time of year.

One large circle of mushrooms in a meadow,
broken twigs laid out, making a dainty shadow,
spiderwebs laced around flowers and leaves,
now the faeries crawl down from the very tall trees.

Translucent skin, they're white as snowflakes,
swiftly moving as each body awakes,
they greet each other, kisses on the cheek,
each one with their outfits, looking very unique.

Pale skin giving off a faint glow,
not one of them looking above or below,
all concentration on right here and now,
no limit put on the laughter they allow.

Bare feet glide through the dewy green grass,
their eyes burning bright with each song as they pass,
the dancing seems to go on forever,
their rhymes are so funny, so tricky, so clever.

The most mystical thing one could lay eyes on,
the dancing faeries from night until dawn,
no more joy in the world could ever be seen,
than with these pixies twinkling eternally.

It was a cold day,
overcast with a few rain showers here and there,
I picked you up from Penn Station,
dragged you to the subway steps,
led you down the tunnel, onto the train.
You asked me where we were going,
I wouldn't let you in on the secret.
One train. Another train...
You saw the last stop and knew
right where I was taking you.
Coney Island.
You looked from the sign,
then back at me,
your eyes lit up right then,
a smile crossing your face,
you knew i'd been trying to get you there.
We took the long train ride,
Manhattan to Brooklyn,
a quiet ride,
we enjoyed each others silence,
only feelings left to feel.
Finally pulled into the station,
'Mermaid Ave.' read the sign,
our kinda place, this was our time.
The boardwalk was practically empty,
on this cold and windy day,
everyone taking shelter from the rain.
I led you to the beach,
the sand hollowed from the drops that fell,
you looked at me doubtingly,
asking with your eyes,
'how will this help?'
I pulled off my green sweater,
you looked at me in shock,
threw you a smile,
off with my boots,
you stood there,
watching me undress,
not knowing what to do,
not knowing my next move.
I was down to my bra and *******,
goosebumps covered my flesh,
you laughed at my pale skin and it's contrast to the sand.
I ran over to you,
lifted you up,
you started to scream when you realized,
every intention of mine was to get you into the water,
the salt that is so addicting,
just like your name on my lips,
you made me set you down,
and so that's just what I did.
I ran into the water,
screeching the whole way in,
you laughed at me,
stopped abruptly,
knew that I was reminding you
of who you used to be.
I watched from the water as you stripped down,
you came running after me,
tears streaming,
not a sound.
You waded right to me,
stopped face to face,
I pulled you in my arms telling you everything'd be ok.

That's you out there,
completely exposed,
lying sprawled across the double yellow line,
trying to keep it all together,
but you've already lost control,
your eyes are empty,
they lost their light,
I can see the dismay,
what are you doing to fill the void?
The cars may come,
their lights will shine,
they won't stop to help,
they won't see you,
it's too dark and so are you,
their tires will crush your body,
you won't be able to take the weight
and then you will be nothing.
You can't just lie there hoping it will change,
get up, move,
it's your life,
don't let it waste away.

It's just me and her,
how funny,
what a joke,
sticking by your side
to get the **** end of the stick.
How uncomfortable,
have you told her this?
Have you told her that
I'm the one who wants
more than this friendship?
What a joke,
what a ******* joke.

I ****** it up,
I just wanted you here,
to stay with me forever,
I just want you near.
You stayed with me, I know,
said you weren't going to go,
but you feel the pressure now,
want to leave but you made that vow.
I ****** it up,
don't know what to do,
don't want you to feel trapped,
do you want me to let go of you?
Your hands aren't shackled,
just say the word,
I'll walk away slowly,
once your wishes are heard.
I ****** it up,
but I just want you to know,
no matter what you decide,
my love for you will never die.

thank you for staying,
you mean the world to me,
i'll tell you everyday,
as long as you know,
it doesn't matter if you feel the same,
you'll win it all,
you may sometimes fall,
but you'll end up on top,
you were made to change world,
you were made to change it all.
all my faith is in you,
your beauty is crystal clear,
when you talk about the stars,
i can see the universe being held in your two hands.
you have all of these plans,
the good in you radiates,
your soul is pure,
your love, real,
i've not met someone like you,
you are most definitely one of a kind.