I tried
I tried the best I could
But I couldn't last
I couldn't make it through
And for that I am only slightly sorry
Because it was a huge relief for me
I couldn't take it any longer
My tunnel had been struck and there was no longer light at the end of it
It was now a cave
And there was only one way out and that was not a physical way
But I had to do what was best for me
Or what I thought was best for me
Because I couldn't find another way out
I had looked and looked and searched and searched
But alas I couldn't find a way out
I was stuck
And I was in a dark cave
All by myself

No one had decided to join me on my trek
I asked around
But no one seemed interested
And the ones who did pay attention
Weren't interested

So here I am
Alone in this cave
With no way out
I need to do what is best for me
I can't keep living like this:
All alone and scared and most certainly afraid of the future and what lies ahead of me presently
But do not worry
Because I have a simple solution and you won't have to worry about me anymore
(not like you did at all before)

her sorrow,
sometimes
soothed by his
scent

I want to relive
the grass stains on my jeans
the leftover shivers from the wind
(when we ran though the field)
that song you hummed mindlessly
that gaze you gave me when I said
"you're more like me than I think I am"

You snuck into my dorm room
and told me you missed me
though it only has been minutes
since I was last in your bed

You told me you loved me
and that it wasn't just a phase
yet you turned your back
and walked away

Morning
your eyes become the sun
In which I pleasantly wake up to everyday

Afternoon
your eyes simmer only slightly, still as
bright as the sun except more peacefully

Night*
gloomy hair and unfaithful bags
touch your eyes though they do not cause any effect;
yet
only when your lips whisper "goodnight love*" and kiss my delicate cheek I notice
how the day dims your eyes