the day i'm afraid of,
has finally arrived,
knowing  that someone had stole your heart away from me,
early in the morning,
bring me down,
to tears,
i thought i was strong enough,
to face everything.

they said,
i need to relax,
because,
it was just a crush

it was more than just a crush for me,
i've accepted his flaws,
everything,
from head,
to toes,
completely.

you gave hope to me,
with those quiet deceiving eyes of yours,
yet they don't mean a thing.

*******.

i'm getting over you
and this is only,
day one.

today,
everything was so overwhelming,
you were so sweet,
i never thought i would see that side of you,
you and animals,
can never go wrong,
but i also got to admit that,
that i now,
long for your stare,
long for your happiness,
i never had the chance to actually
stare and stare
and adore
your fine existent,
i just want you
now
and
forever

since day one,
i could not help myself,
but to love you endlessly,
the way you smile,
the way you turn your head around,
the way you walk,
the way you talk,
never failed to make me smile.
but i never had the chance,
to see everything,
in a short distance,
everything was from far,
very, very, very far

you were so far,
that every time i saw you,
walking around the school compound,
it excites me a lot,
but
i cannot show you,
i cannot show the world,
that i,
i have a huge love for you

every time i saw you walking,
i keep on wishing,
i was there to walk beside you,
i was there to accompany you,
i keep on wishing
you were mine.

i know,
you wouldn't love me,
the way i would,
everything is just hopeless,
i'm tired,
tired of waiting,
for this one true love,
hopeless love

Dear you,
i do not know how,
to describe this feeling of mine,
to you,
whom i saw,
everyday,
from a far,
all the feelings,
i've been keeping it,
for a quite some time,
not knowing when to let it out,
as i'm afraid,
afraid of being rejected,
for the thousandth time,
if you're,
to come up upon this,
this is for you,
and i...

"I Love You"

hello,
i'm a teenage girl,
yes,
i have friends,
i have dreams,
i have passion,
i have my own favorites,
celebrity crushes,
list of wishlist.

i am happy,
happy to be me,
happy to be apart of the world,
happy to be apart of a good society.

wait,
did i just said something,
about me,
being happy,
in a GOOD society?

there is no such thing!
"good" society doesn't even exist,
right now,
no,
they don't exist!
they have turned into a horrible monster
that gobbles up people's dreams,
judging people,
without even knowing,
go against people,
without even listening.

where is the old society?
the society that cares,
that support,
that love others,
no matter what religion,
what ethnics,
where? where? where?

we suffered,
from pain,
from words.

we lost our self-esteem,
due to the mean words.

we felt horrible,
not worth it,
ugly.

we want you to stop,
stop, stare, listen and act.

this is a confession!
a confession,
from a teenage girl!
to the world!

tonight, i feel lovely,
writing down my feelings,
accompanied by the beautiful rain voice,
on a piece of paper,
writing it with happy colors.

times like this,
people take for granted,
times like this,
i felt loved