5 showers
192 hours
And I'm still under your power

Your touch on my skin
As I let you creep in
Original sin
But it felt like my first blessing
While we were *******

One week later
To your desires I no longer cater

What I would do to feel your arms around me once more
The last time will always be in my room at 5 minutes to four
I walked you to the door
You wanted nothing more

my nothing, my no one
I will only know you like the moon knows the sun
Bonded by a night
But feelings change in the morning light

Someone tricked you into believing the beautiful lies that sparked a fire in your eyes
Allowed your expectations to soar through the skies
Because you believed them, not very wise
Until they are brought back down to earn and shot and you're forced to watch them die

Kind smile and a presence that didn't seem so definite
You put me in a frenzy and then left me in it
A smirk and a goodbye that was final unbeknownst to me
When you left me in my room for the last time 57 minutes after 3

With a mouth that only spewed ******* and manipulation
Pushing me away from my barely there logic into manic infatuation

An infatuation that blinded me from seeing the truth
Locking me in my own insane room and you were the irremovable roof

So while I wasted my time waiting for a stupid text message notification
And you pulled my heart strings and bended my limbs like I was your personal creation
A million other ******* things happened across the nation
Yet all I cared about was what ended up being a meaningless love vs. lust altercation

I can still hear the stress in my voice when I desperately tried to get you to express some
EMOTION
You were more concerned with our body's state of motion

An electric charged woolen sweater taken out of the dryer
I'd rather be clingy then with a cold heart heated strictly by ****** desire

When I applied to this school I was warned of the cold days ahead
But never of the boys that will say anything to get into bed
Or the way all of this ends up destroying my head

I keep saying I won't fall for this because I learned my lesson
But as a final confession
I will fall for version two of you once again maybe this time with different colored eyes
But the same animal in a nice guy disguise

I'd rather be clingy like a static electric t-shirt
Then cold and alien like a pile of dirt

1) He doesn't make eye contact
2) He makes eye contact
3) If he touches you on the waist right after you meet
4) If he doesn't touch you at all
5) If he laughs at all your jokes
6) If he makes you think you're special
7) If he makes you feel hopeful
8) If his texts make your day
9) If the only way you know you'll be happy is if you have *** with him
10) If he leaves you after you tell him about 6 through 8

On the last day of school when I was younger
We would be brought to our next years teachers class room
Even then I was looking for cute boys
Why

How could I trick you into loving me
When I can't even trick myself into liking me

I sit in lecture
I think of your eyes
I wonder if you sit in lecture
And think of my eyes
But most likely you are taking notes
I should be too but my conscious has deemed you more important
I wouldnt change it
Failing for you as I fall for you