it comes in waves
more so than any
thing i've put in my system

a brutal break
terrible kick
incapacitated by addiction

time went by
fooling myself
you went your way i went mine

but life don't let
you off so easy
fighting that tingle in the spine

counting down
pending relapse
thought myself further than i am

i'll avoid meeting
end hiatus greetings
but i'm only humbly a man

stronger now than ever
mind and soul
in confidences i now stand

you'll float on in
just like i've dreamt
but it's me who'll have the upper hand

fighting the drive
home every
second
that goes by

the shadowy trees
looming over me
mock
taunt

stop signs give
opportunity
for thought
to seep through

those loud
second thoughts
the ones
you hear over
music

louder than the night

invisible forces
guide my feet &
hands towards
the familiar

but

my eyes
mind
soul
search desperately
for something else

i don't know where you
lay
or where your loyalties lie
you may not
even be real at all

but there is something
that makes me
yearn to turn

away from the
obvious path before me

and towards that
immutable
stellar
pull

to immerse myself
in you;
in every sense
of phrase

but this long
dark road keeps
calling my name

the winding
expected
familiarity

so soon
won't release
it's grip on me