i just wanna be your *****

i wasn't thinking about you
until you told me to

it's the truth
and i know it hurts

but there's so much beauty in pain
so i envy you

i wish you could me hurt the way i hurt you

restless and just craving relief

this isn't what I wanted at all
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i feel like one day you just become an adult and you have no idea what to do with a life that you really didn't want
as in the life that you live isn't the one that you wanted
what do you even do with that? because I feel like life really isn't what you make it
life happens no matter how much you try to shape it

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I guess i have no real idea about what I want
most of my life has been spent knowing what i don't want as if that ever made a difference
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there are only a few moments in my life where I can confirm I have actually been alive
but mostly I think about the fact that I just exist, just like a lot of people, just like everyone actually

I want to see you burn with me

a moment passed
and then there was nothing

no longer the lonely writer

i dream of having a piano in front of me so my fingers could dance across the keys instead of my neck

You don't know what a person feels inside

I have so many thoughts but sadly I have nothing to say anymore
I am mute and numb
Yet I still feel

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Regretfully I still feel

just **** me up
i need it so bad
to feel burning pain turn into blinding pleasure

It’s the soul that you bring to the table :

I think my wasted potential is really a heartbreak
I have so much to give to the world but nothing useful wills to pour out of me
I feel frozen

I don’t know how to unlock myself at all

going straight on airplane mode to just stare at myself in the mirror because I look really quite cute tonight.

I feel like i have something interesting to give tonight, just no one to give it to

Turn your pain into money

we need a reason to create art

people make me feel so empty

The tide was unforgiving, so all I could do was watch...

i'm a very happy person
i'm just frustrated
that doesn't add up
haha ain't nothin positive about this

Time is so cruel

Just stay close to me
Don't make a sound
And I promise
We'll never have to run
Ever again

i want more

I listened to strange music at the back of my history class when I was 12 and now I'm brain damaged

I feel like we never truly age, the child inside of us just waits and bleeds

but /Never mind
LIFE WILL GO ON
IT ALWAYS DOES
I HAVE NO CHOICE
BUT TO GO ON

COME WITH ME
WE CAN SURVIVE
WE CAN DO THIS
TOGETHER

take my hand
stay with me
never let go

I just
I feel
that I can't
and That I won't
have to
anymore.

i miss myself

if you catch me with my tongue on my teeth, don't bother looking at me twice

You feel on fire
Electric

You burn
Dark and fast
When you hear my voice

And I
I can’t breathe
When I hear yours
Because you remind me of all the times I sinned
You remind me of the dark me
The worst parts of me are in you
And when I see you, ****, those memories wash over me
Slowly
The flames lick at my body
Teasing
Threatening to destroy me

But I’m naive
You have a way of corrupting me
And all of a sudden
Like magic
My hate for you turns into white hot desire
Burning deep into the night
We’re on fire
Burning together so deliciously
Yet we try
Try so hard to put the flames out with our tears

It’s been so long
And we’ve never succeeded...

What is your fantasy?

i feel for you, i really do but sometimes i need you to feel for me too

One day I woke up and I was afraid to live

Is perception a form of injustice?

it hurts like a ***** it really does
but i persevere and bring the light back into my eyes
to shine bright for myself so i never lose my way

We got different stars and stories...but why is that such a bad thing?

I know there's someone out there who can see what I see

you wished for so much and you got it

I've lost sight of what's important

I want to be free

this year i learnt that the more you avoid something, the faster it hits you
it comes into your life wrecks everything and moves on to the next person
it lives the life that it wants to
and watches yours fizzle away
we exist so that it can live
maybe i should turn the tables?
make a sacrifice?
if i don't exist, it can't exist

nothing can exist by itself
things come in pairs
one thing cannot survive without the other
so beware
i'm coming after you with fiery vengeance

Tell me who you are

ever write something that made you feel breathless by the end of it?