Just like lightning

but i'm still learning...

those eyes haunt me
one day i might slip into the cracks of your old weathered skin
and never stumble out again

i'm safe for now
but i can't shake this attraction

is it attraction? or is it self destruction?

Desire will set you on fire
And we’ll all perish
Whilst you burn brighter than ever

Wherever you are, our stories will always be with you...even if I am not

I can’t give in
I’ve gotta stay away
You’re a liability
Because
You’re another secret in my book
That I’ve got hide
  
And I’ve dedicated my life to hiding this part of me
So I’m scared
That my house of cards might come tumbling down
On my greatest high

i miss you...

The tide was unforgiving, so all I could do was watch...

looking at life through a lens is comforting

he's a danger, a liability

the sickness
began to rise
slowly up my throat

the shaking started
to rock my world

it was time to start coping with things
instead of being comfortable with things

Fake love

"So we beat on, boats against the current..."

I have to be cautious
When exploring the other side of me
Because if I fall in too deep
We're all going to die
But I'm falling
Deeper and deeper

I can hear screams from the rabbit hole

My name...
They scream it everyday
My life..
They are slowly taking it away

And the worst thing is

It's the closest thing I've ever felt to friendship
It's a comfort...one of life's many indulgences
To dabble in the darkness of the human psyche

It's satisfying
To walk into a zone that is so off limits
And to have everyone stare at you
Judging loudly and being curious silently

I offer to help those in wonder discover
The worst parts of themselves

But they leave
They just give up

Because secretly we are all afraid
To realise that hell resides within us

So we run
Closer and closer to the good within us
Until it's too late
And we get hurt
Because the good within us
Really isn't good at all

Black, white and grey are all different kinds of evils

<3

i don't want us to ever grow apart

watching her fall down the metal stairs
step by step
from across the street
was odd

her blood stained hair looked kind of purple under the flickering street light
hm
i think she'd look better with blonde hair
it'd really bring out her eyes

i miss myself

I can't take this anymore
I don't know where to go or what to do
I've driven myself insane
I can't exist within my own mind
I can't make sense of anything
i feel like i'm
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Deeper and Deeper
Down into the rabbit hole
into a place where time goes backwards
but the good thing is
after a while
i start to feel a sick sense of relief
and everything's okay again

so i guess i'll keep venturing down into the rabbit hole
just for a little while longer

I live in the west
but i am still in pain
trapped, tormented and scarred

I live in the west
cushioned and protected

So i decided to **** myself up
Because I live in the West
Because I am privileged enough to go to war with myself

Why don't you love me anymore

This feels like home

He used to tell me I was young fire

Give it a name
Make it real
I know you want to feel it

Feel it running through your veins
Liquid Terror

You don't know what a person feels inside

Turn your pain into money

Prisoner of freedom

The heart speaks volumes
But no one hears its barely audible whispers
The heart grows frustrated
It isn't just a vessel that feels

It's neglected
It's lonely
And it deserves love

It's used to find love
But it's tired of not being loved

So it shouts and screams
And pounds the walls of your body that trap it
Because it is tortured

And it will always be unhappy
Because we are Selfish
We forget that it lives
We forget that it feels
We abuse it and blame it
We threaten to rip it out of its home
While it's still beating and begging for mercy

But we do it anyways
We ****** our hearts in cold blood

and your heart in its last dying breath whispers to you
"Never forget the first time that we met"
and despite the fondest memories that you see in that moment
You **** it
And you spend the rest of your life as an empty shell
But one lone thought circles around your retched mind

The heart speaks volumes

Controlled by my desires

It's the honest truth

I let him ruin me

He ruined me

Say it's me that you adore

I want fantasy

I look good in the red light

He looked at me sigh
Through his half jaded eyes
Yet my eyes
Strayed aside

So He grabbed my neck
And with one stiff click
My eyes locked with his forever

I know there's someone out there who can see what I see

There's a story in every time zone

Stone cold
Broken bones

Empty guns
Soulless and numb

Too far gone

No more rehabilitation

It's time for retribution

I'm trying not to focus on this feeling but my mind can't resist temptation
I keep coming back

Just stay close to me
Don't make a sound
And I promise
We'll never have to run
Ever again