I remember when you told me that you didn't miss her
But I caught you today
Trying to get back together,
With her...

Happy birthday to me.....

Just remember that when all goes right in your life and a fire has ignited,
sure for a while the warmth is roaring and energetic
but it'll consume you,
burn you
and those around you
.
Then you'll go to sleep
wake up to another day
you notice it's a little colder
and that you're outside
because the fire burnt your house down
and then you notice you feel a little emptier

yep, just gotta wait it out till the next ignition

i hate emotions
i spit on them
it disgusts me
especially when i cry about it like a little *****
these days i'm so shaken from the core
my foundations  have been rattled
by who, by me
these feelings have left me conscious of my breathing
i can't manifest what i want to write into words
it's all ******* coming out wrong
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do you ever feel a certain way, so much so that to convey it seems impossible
like you've reached an impasse

this is my outlet for negative emotions because what ******* wants to part with positive emotions
i do this to achieve a balance

my life exists behind closed doors
i swallowed the key
you can try kicking down the door

i could compare us to two glasses smashing against each other,
i mean before we collided
we were just beside each other
but it happened
and ****
it caused the loudest noise
****
it cut through the air like a *******
**** there was glass everywhere
we were beautiful
pure, but tainted
clear
you were almost a like a heuristic to my desires
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i think
maybe
someone
swept
us
i mean, the glass up
and discarded it
i mean, us
but oddly enough
we were thrown away, yet a few pieces of you remained with me
but
i'm not sure if you have any pieces of me
or if you even care to
you might do
but that's just a waiting game for me right?
you're still somewhere, with me, in me
glass cuts like a *******
so i'm gonna **** it up and drink this ******* blood