on my route to success
somewhere along the line
i changed
and i began to find myself
i never realized how or
why ?
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i
learnt that
success will show you
all the faces you have
and it'll break every single one of them
until you don't have one
so when you find yourself
cherish it
because as fast as it appears
it disappears
i mean
you would have never thought it'd be this way
but it is

i could give you a little attention
but not all of it
i mean uh
i could
but i don't need to
but i uh
i want to
and i will
maybe

my dearest A

guess you could say
karma really came
and hit me in my mind
it was just a waiting game
after all these months
guess you could say I deserved it
I deserved you
but fate decided to be a little *****
fate woke up and decided that you weren't supposed to be in the forefront of life
fate sidelined you
aka i still see you
i still scan for you
i still feel you
on my skin
i still hear you
i smell you on my skin
i anticipate you
i excite you
i entice you
you frustrate me
you play with me
i close my eyes
i close your eyes

pictures really hit you hard
pictures that show words...hit you harder

silver is just a darker shade of white

things never affect me
things have never affected me
until now
and i can't understand what's ******* changed
i'm fighting with myself
to be what i used to be
but it's like my mind is a stubborn *******
so it's gonna continue to **** me over
it's been a week
a ******* week